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Tuesday, August 30, 2005

couldn't stand it, and thus i decided to blog.
i dunno la. somehow things seemed to be screwed up, whether is it things with regards to me, or with regards to people around me.
was watching a japanese show.
what's happiness? to find your true self? or is it something else? or is it that we all just couldn't deny the fact that having good grades is everything.
is that's what keeping all of us happy? or is it something else.
blahh. everthing seems so, sad.


OMG OMG GEOG TEST WAS POSTPONED!
hehe. and sophia just sent me the pics! hoho.
AYE BUT ZHU BA JIE HUIHONG LOOKS SPAS!
hehe but cute la. omg. hahaha.
as usual, CHARMAINE STOP SAYING SHARRON'S NAME AND LINK EVERYTHING TO HER LA -.-
aiyo. -shakes head.
hehe today went to bake choc cake! the real one.
yup. tomorrow you guys shall fine out (:
AND BRAINY. your bday is on 7 sep! i know okay. yes you're gonna get a nice nice present from me! cos you are brainy! (((x


RAH RAH RAH!
where's sophia? i want our pink+orange+blue balloon pic! hahaha.
let's see. im SUPPOSED to be mugging on geog now. but cannot stand the temptation of on-ing my comp and checking out msn to see who's online and who's offline to study!
hahahaha! okay im in such a crappy mood today. HMMM.
trudy's bd is coming soon! OH NO! insufficient funds. sheesh! AHHHH.
i feel like bao zha-ing now!
if you ever see my GLOBAL WARMING notes you will feel like too!
HAHAHA.
and let's see. hmmmmm. i rmb-ed i wanted to blog about something. but OH WELLS.
and yes yes ISADORA! where's my flower balloon? NOW I WANT A ROSE BALLOON LIAO. hello shanmei are you jealous? (:
hahaha. i am SO NICE to spend time and write to my angel darling. LOL> i think i know who she is. OH WELLS ((:
and dion owes me one choc! (hope she isn't reading this) but i'm suppose to be the one owing her and i pointed the tip to her! hahaha.
WHY WHY WHY.
sometimes i dun understand myself. and doesn't want to.
i see BRAINY ONLINE! away )):


sec4farewell !
STUPID ME FORGOT TO BRING MY CAM! >.<
had to use kaiyin's one.
ARGGGGGGGGG!
and thanks so much for helping me go printshop then print the photos out, and in the end you went home late! omg kaiyin i love you!
and you people stop crying la! all the crying is making me nuts. i felt like crying >.< but. quote yinxue it's all for your own good. so dun cry okay! if not i box you ah -.-
and dawn was like "i'm surprise you din go for ip" wow. lol. hahahahaha! what else can i say -.-
and and and!
i totally screwed up sci test! it was like. drastic!
but oh wells guess we shall all fail it together! (: stupid grass cutting person. CHAO SI REN AH!
and thank you sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much jappy! really really really thanks alot alot alot alot alot alot alot!! ((((:
oh dear there's geog test on MON and i have done nothing! yay -.-
bwaahahaha. and char. stop your sharron-ing la! i know u like her name alot. but either u change your name to sharron, OR ELSE LATER YY JEALOUS AH!
ahahaha and sry yy to dao you when u at 2C there. i was really really pissed and f*cked up with the sci test!
and MATONG JFFUR! u finally notice me! lol.


BWAHAHA.
guess the ppl are starting choir soon?
and the others having their late late late oral. :D
and im at home slacking.
guess the medicine will put me to sleep soon.
AWWWW.
guess what. i haven't STARTED on anything on the test on friday.
and most probably i will sleep thru the test or something, and just flunk it baby!
and there's still math and english and oh geog next week?
how to study when i'm sleeping.
maybe some people shld go invent some sort of machine to help ppl study when they're sleeping?
I WILL BE THE FIRST CUSTOMER! hoho.


brainy! pls lor chicken wings sell so fast. but of cos. it's my group cook one mah! haha one day i go your house and cook for you! turn your kitchen BLACK! hahaha.

jeNNifer! haha okay la! but i thought is stress on the FFER what. lol. i will change it. hahaha stupid ma tong did u support my class today not? ((x

char! who else but you will worry? (: hey hey chill la. dun be so stress okay! i m not doing well in my studies this term too.

evan! haha thank you!

jappy! hey hey cheer up okay! i dunno what to say la. but yah (:


HAHAHA.
just got home at 7+ and got scolded.
BLAHHHH. but anws...
WE TOOK SOP1 PHOTO TODAY!! ((:
there was informal, and FORMAL.
hoho the pics turned out great i must say (x

PLEASE SUPPORT 2A's enterprise challenge TOMORROW.
during recess. we're selling potato balls, honey lime chicken wings, mango squares (brownies basically) and chicken mole over pasta! (((:

we thank you in advance for all support! ((((x
im so high. yet pissed. but nevermind cos there's always CHERISSA TO SAVE THE DAY!
tennis tennis tennis! she said her club there got offer classes.
JIA QI KUAI DIAN LAI! ((:
ahhh im so high now. but sweating all over. just typed and printed out 10 copies of the recipe. HOHOHO =P

im so high now/ but think of the darker side. i don't know whats giving me this feeling. things seem to drift further. don't belong to either worlds. just give it a break man.



in case you didn't know, ruiwen is back FULL-SPEED mugging! (:
haha okay maybe it's not exactly FULL-SPEED, but god damn it will be by end of i-don't-know when (:
cos cos cos i've been taught two good lessons from my math and chinese test and ain't gonna make the same mistake thrice!
spent my day sleeping in the noon. cos i'm finally down with some illness or something. can't talk. can't sing. can't walk. feel so wobbly and like JELLY!
sheesh JELLY IS MY FAV LA! (x and ponned tuition today cos just couldn't get myself up of the house. of cos, i am considering the chances of going sch tomorrow. BUT, there's sop1 phototaking (self-initiated by truly sop1s (: )
and while SLEEPING, sense this really flashing light in front of me, and tada i woke up, saw sarah's message. and slept back again. and while sleeping i pondered OHMYGOD SARAH ASKING ME SCIENCE. SCIENCE? SHIT THERE'S TEST COMING FRIDAY AND I MUST AIM FULL MARKS.
so not long later, i woke up (:
and got my comp working then realised no use of it.
went on to carry on summarising the needed information for sci, but failed. and tada im on my way to finding out the key points for LIT.
and therefore got my comp SHUT OFF.
haha. if anyone realised, i'm no longer online that much now, even i'm i'm not exactly like chatting with so many people or stuff, just a few at most.
changed for the better! hoho.
in fact, i shldn't be like thinking of anything else. but oh i just can't help it.
haven't asked my mum for the perth trip, but i thought it over and i'm willing to exchange my going-to-be-bought ipodMINI for it. since i don't exactly think i have any rubbish use of it.
ARG! this is getting so boring >.<
listening to CANYOUFEELTHELOVETONIGHT.
aye reminds me of the rafflesvoices concert! where they sang this song and like went out of tune?
what if during our concert next yr goes OUT too? toodles. i'll cry la! :(
my throat is feeling damn damn damn damn horrid now. u know like i cannot talk? and my voice sounds like shit. probably an octave lower.
im gonna ask TEEHUIHONG about the perth trip later! heehee.
and to yy + char (the ultimate ones) char u can like wait for your heart shape balloon from yy huh? HELLOS ANWS I KNOW U'RE READING THIS (:


was listening to my cousin's stories about life after secondary.
wondering.
what will it be when we all leave sec schs.
and all proceed to different jcs, different chapters of our lives.
then with all our busy lifestyles, will the friendship still carry on?
would we all still be able to come online and talk,
or rather go out once in a while and just simply hang around,
or even a simple sms like "how's your day?",
or do we even recognise each other on the streets?
i doubt so.
i seriously doubt so.
what's coming unto us just seems so vague, and nobody knows what happens next.


just LIVES/


HEY!
haha learnt BIG GIRLS DON'T CRY medley during choir.
BLAHHHH.
anyways i duno la blah blah blah.
feel so weak nowadays. all i can do it to cry.

hmmm.
anyways I JUST LOVE SUANING YY AND CHAR.
look at yy's spasticated reaction! (:
so FUNNAYE la!

oh and thanks sharr for the cookies!
and thank me for the balloon!
I BLOW MYSELF ONE LOR.
haha (x

and i think qx's pissed. cheer up girl!
AND SABBY! don't cry okay!
u so scary la.
and i love bouncy! (:


im scared.


i duno i just want to scream it all out?
it just seems.
FIRST IMPRESSION counts.
and like, I JUST DUNNO.
but im really really really determined to work it out real hard.


she looked into my eyes after telling ym she will understudy aarthi.
for quite long.
but i "told" her i cannot do it.
i duno. but sigh.
it's just like... )x

i MUST improve my singing within the shortest time.

period.


forgot to mention.
thanks ALOT la jolene and mel -.-
wake me up when im slping in the morning.
wahlao. haha


ARG!!!
i hate my mother.
she doesn't want to let me go perth!
and she said NO immediately upon me mentioning.
without even asking HOW LONG, or the PRICE, or the AIRLINE.
wtf. i shldn't have went china >.<
hehe. and the reason? cos she wants to go somewhere else.
GRRRRRRRR.

going crazy practising uptown girl's piano part.
hoho. english la stupid.

they have decided to go for IP in the end.
what shall happen to cedar choir. esp SOP ONE.
we'll see. >.<


thanks to SOME PPL who didn't like inform others about nygh ip until its over cos due to her own bloody selfishness. i feel like slapping myself.
-runs to sarah and cry.


we all lead busy lives now. agreed. -nods. and with the streaming coming up. sometimes we all don't really find ourselves having time, sitting down and talking heart to heart stuffs with our good friends and stuff.

SIGH. )x


hello!
haven't been blogging for quite long to me at least i think so.
YAH U KNOW WHAT i really want to declare sat as a project day!
went to wk's house in the morning. then amira's house! hehe.
U KNOW WHAT I START TO THINK IM CLEVER.
cos they were all late. i walked in to amira's house myself!
first time there u know(: hehe!
BUT HER NEW HOUSE IS SO PRETTAYE! (x
and only her cute cute sis was at home.
so i used her laptop until they came along.
did finish our ce and i think we are about the only grp which started.
HOHO. so so so!
i took the wrong bus and went all the way to douby ghaut and then to bishan to meet my parents. -.-
and saw mrs ho on the bus! AHAHA.

thanks to those ppl who tried to cheer me up when i was feeling kind of f*ked up the other day. (:
you know sometimes its things like that that make one remember it forever.


ruiwen you're such a loser.
look at your lit.
poor thing. you've never got so low marks in your whole sec2.
hello look at your animal farm. and even your bloody poetry test.
how high were you up there?
not to mention lit.
have you forgotten what happened to your math common test?
HAVE YOU.
math is suppose to be your strongest subject!
yet you screwed it like anything!
and chinese too!
LOOK AT HOW U SCREWED IT.
2/10.
thank you very much.
so what if your other areas did well?
with the carelessness.
ITS STILL THE SAME.
can't you get back on your feet,
do like you've done last yr.
it ISN'T late.



-end.


At a time when hope was low
The journey seems unsure
But through it all
We've kept the flame alive
Now standing proud and tall
Our spirit strong and free
Building on hopes and dreams
It's here we want to be
(Chorus)
Let's reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we'll all achieve
We'll make our destiny
Let's reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we'll all achieve
Let's soar and reach for the skies

When I think about my dreams
The future it can be
The time has come for me
To strive and to achieve

With hopes within our hearts
As one hand in hand
For family and our friends
Let's do the best we can

(Chorus)
Let's reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we'll all achieve
We'll make our destiny
Let's reach out for the skies
With wings we soar up high
Our dreams we'll all achieve
Let's soar and reach for the skies

Our dreams we'll all achieve
Let's soar and reach for the skies
We can touch the skies


nats day celebrations.
first we really really truly screwed up our performance.
don't tell me to stop complaining cos i can't.
one thing is you can never sing well in mph cos of its structure.
but STILL. (those who know will know la. im pissed)

then went out and blahblah. they were seeing the stuffs for sec4 farewell.
and one part of spotlight me and yunmin were playing with tiaras and halos! (the ANGEL's one (: ) hehe!
SO LIKE I FEEL SO ANGELIC FOR ONCE! hehe.

and we walked from douby ghaut to orchard!
AND ALONG THE WAY...
i saw a white building with so many police.
so i asked yunmin, WHY SO MANY POLICE DE?
and she said that's the istana.
i was like, ISTANA HERE ONE?
sheesh. ALL OF THEM DIDN'T BELIEVE ME! lol can.
but seriously i didn't know. (:
so i made a conclusion. travelling along nel is dangerous.
cos istana is along douby ghaut.
so most likely the terrorists will bomb there what!
YAH LATER THE BOMBS COMES TOMORROW! -.-
hahaha choy!

and took neos and like i was really complaining and yes but there's always RED BEAR GUMMYS!
i was like picking them out from the other colours, (:
hehe. and the neos were like SUPER RED.
i was super pissed cos i cannot find my white b.u.m skirt.
ooh in the end i stuff my gown into my shoe bag, and my shoe bag into my bag!
on the way my bag was jammed between the doors of the mrt.
i was TOTALLY FREAKED OUT okay!
but the kind ppl helped me pull it in.
and PULL,
PULL,
PULL!
poof. it was in.
hehe!


LALA WENT FOR FOP YTD. (x
it was totally great and like everybody gathering there to praise lord and stuff!
xinrui called to say she saw me but i didn't see her! :( the crowd was too big la!
cut in the queue cos ben thia they all were queueing. so yup!

i don't know what got into me. tell me what to do. i cannot stop feeling that way. all the waiting makes me sick and irritated. i tell myself that this is everything of my life, but as times goes, it HAS become a part of me. otherwise, it would be so strange and cold, and i won't know what to do. that's my pillar, my strength and everything. and like, what choices i have. none. precisely. lost in the middle of no way. lord save me from the suffering.


Hey hey! Didn’t blog for so long.
‘cos like the week has been as hectic?
4 tests a week.
Im so high now.
Jon is still telling me about his wonderful experiences ytd.
The way he says it is, FUNNAYE!
GOING FOP LATER! ((:
So like, got back chi oral results. (:
And yes yes sabby and shan and brainy I told you guys u all can do it de!
IM ALWAYS RIGHT.
So like, Monday is performance.
Lalala.
And thurs tuition was hilarious!
Isa bought this packet of sour skittles.
And I start eating it.
IT WAS SO DAMN SOUR.
And the second time I attempted she pushed it into my mouth without warnings.
So my face was like OH WOW WOW WOW SHIT SO SOUR OH DAMN
Then isa started putting five of it into her mouth!
And looked totally alright. Gee.
I just realized my piano exam is 3 weeks from now.
Then thurs was also AMC.
I think I kind of flunked it.
And the sec1s say its easy?
Guess it’s cos they have been having 2 PROFESSORS coaching them and stuff,
While our proper training only started this yr.
:(
and like, Japheth kindly told me his sch ppl found it easy?
AHHHH!
Want to slap myself for being stupid. Hehe.
Ahh whatever la think I will screw up this time, if a sec1 gets higher score than the sec2 highest scorer that’s like so no face! LOL.

ytd; maybe not destined, but it’s still sweet.


math c. test.
whatever.
tay was like looking at me, when he says that it's all because of our attitude that SOME PEOPLE UNDERPEFORMED.
hello. he said it into my eyes.
like, WHATEVER.
it taught me to be more serious tho'.
BLAHHHHHHHHHHHH.
guys wish me luck for geog test/ chi paper + chi oral (:


HOHO.
bad day today. (:
anyways reema got in as in really got in vjc! CONGRATS!
trish haven't know yet. but anyways good luck yeah?

i've decided on that thing already. no harm in fact. trying to wait for sarah to come back from netball hahahaha.

anyways, it's like everybody say won't go trip sci right,
but in the end, SO MANY PPL OPTING FOR THAT -.-
hahaha. i am SO glad yunmin is going for trip! YAY(:
okay in fact im still considering. brainy has the same thoughts as me! 3and5! AHAHA.

and oh wells, im actually scared for chinese oral. afterall all the unexpected things. why not? sigh. i've been waiting all my life, but oh wells. LALALA.
getting back math paper tomorrow. sigh. our class got people get full marks. and gupreet has that look on her face! hehe. but the full marks cannot be me/singyee/reema/trish/gupreet. so yeah. lalala. what's with tay's trip sci logic. AIYO AIYO. doctor very liao bu qi meh? haha. sheesh. i duno la.

V=RI . remember that if not we're all gonna fail physics hahaha.

realised everytime i came back from church i would be a happier person.
HEY HEY ANYONE FOR THE HILLSONG CONCERT?hahaha.

so it's like. i still dislike my home la. if im really applying for it, guess i will forge their signature or something? DO I CARE. no.

probably getting back chinese tmr? i don't know. that f*king chinese relief teacher. HOHO I GAVE HER THE EYE.

boredom. AHHHHHHHH. >.<