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Thursday, April 27, 2006

YO! phy CT was damn bad, guess what i assumed that sound has REFLECTION, so i kindly assumed theres reflection whens there's NOT.
tomorrow is like 3 sci 3 math day for me again, SICKENING, if there's mo training lah. WAHLAO. i dun even listen. dun even understand. what shit lor! HAHAHA. considering dropping it :D shall discuss another day!

so, my ulcer in the gum is STILL THERE. that bloody dentist, i got ulcer still so rough to my gums, but i think qx's got a worse case than me, SO :D

i just watched finished the hero dvd that mr sng KINDLY lent to me HAHHAAHA its damn nice lah the movie. HAHAHHAA. later still got ummm the 9oclock show and DA CHANG JING! shit, did i mention that there's graph homeworkS ? no i did not say it :D

i JUST realised, choir's only starting in ummm week8 -.- sian days again. WHEN SHE GIVING THE SCORES MAN. stupid linan is NOT replying me on msn, damnnit ahahaha, i eagerly wanna know, so does SEXY i guess :D:D

i wannnnna cut my hair today, but the salon is like CLOSED? so now im tempted to go far east and cut it, hahahahaha, ANYONE WANNA PEI WO? LALALLAA!

don't say you love me <33
i wanna know your heart, i wanna feel your heartbeat, cos im no longer sure of anything at all.
i STILL rmb what you said, and what i said.
HAHAHA. i'm super sure that my phone bill WILL NOT burst this month like YAY!


HAHAHA. well, i forgot to mention that these few days schools are like screening movies :D
and i suaned yingying like siao cos of this. HAHAHAHA! x)

so, we got our class tee today!!!!!! LIKE YAYNESS. i showed it to them and they all say very nice HAHAHA! so, today ce was kinda interesting. esp the super fong ci comment singyee said about yenpin lol! i think mr sng rocks. haha. and i think the things he mentioned were kinda true, but hoho in my point of view has more ze ren to play in the currect situation. yups!

so, when i found out that we had to do the atrocious SS SBQ in like less than 50 min its like omg my bubble of hope bursted can! i dun even know how to do, dun even feel like doing. in the end, no need hand up HAHAHA. 3p rocks la eileen say they dun even have book they also no need to do! :D and ms chng not adding my marks can!! WAHLAOOOOOOOOOOO. she promised to add for me de lor. hahaha nvm at least singyee has like a1 overall now le yayness!

qx wk yr leen is loveeeeeee :D i love them all to BITSandPIECES man!
tilapia?! -.- hahaha. and were talking about alot of stuff eg YUNMIN. hahahaha. wahlao i finally cleared all the mis-info after SO LONG MAN! and neos! HAHAHAHA. the machine is like CRAZY CAN! launching curtains ONTO our head and everythings so funny!
i din buy that wallet in the end, cos now it looks GUY to me! LOL. its supposed to be a guy's wallet anws. hehehe.



<3.


less than 1 month away! hahaha nvmmmm :D

bio ct today. less atrocious than the previous one, but DAMNNNNNNN she nv teach about the detoxication that part, i also nv read, so TADA!

i realised that they sell thermometer at damn cheap price. 2 bucks only lor! -.- last time i rmb they sell 4 or 5 bucks. and outside sell at 10+. I FEEL DAMN CHEATED! last time i buy outside so expensive okay. wahlao ):

today @ dentist. I CRIED OKAY. wtf -.- cos they were all complaining that the dentist CUTS PEOPLE'S GUM! then its like their gums were so bloody and stuff. like sheesh man. then i damn scared. hohoho! and when its pinnxian's turn i suddenly realised shit im next. ><>supermannnnnnn!



to kathykong too:

SMILE! cos we're all here for you, no matter what happens :D
cos the kathy i know is not like that, she's dao and smiles secretly and is MAD!

) NHNSBEVCXufgi jpsejdcpWARoed[xw kittylanguage!
kypcu!

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today is siaoz. i woke up late AGAIN. better than waking up at 1.30PM ytd, i din really study for bio and all la. sighs!! not the mention PHY i haven even TOUCH my book!
oh wells,
i want to bowl.
hahaha thats very random.


sec2 to sec4 term2, i know i can do it.

btw happy birthday japheth! (:


i miss oac.


kathleen -and the worst pains are the words i cannot say; said:
hyeyyeyyeyeye
rw\ open your eyes; and backtrack those times ' said:
wi hfeo e

kathleen -and the worst pains are the words i cannot say; says:
hxmi?
rw\ open your eyes; and backtrack those times ' says:
hr v-32q[!?~
rw\ open your eyes; and backtrack those times ' says:
~!!!
rw\ open your eyes; and backtrack those times ' says:
is ffjoviuigxchpw: D
kathleen -and the worst pains are the words i cannot say; says:
ixhmif! ijfsffforf! (:
kathleen -and the worst pains are the words i cannot say; says:
rfhamfyfe?ihif! irhierxhmusjhjhfueuchh!
rw\ open your eyes; and backtrack those times ' says:
dhub inwojdosmdl i hsijhdiwhrn awn lkm KLJ!
kathleen -and the worst pains are the words i cannot say; says:
qyneedilsgstjusnddssngsks
kathleen -and the worst pains are the words i cannot say; says:
isjddlsssovssjejsendchcssmeucncicam! (:
rw\ open your eyes; and backtrack those times ' says:
wh i oih oidjlsad;iwopuewirbfdjncdosf uieu


KITTY LANGUAGE! i just mastered it :D therefore i conclude i can effectively communicate with kitty using her language (:


YO!
hahaha. CHOIR TEE STUFF IS SETTLED! (:
its DRI FIT, and costs only 13 bucks! and its so much better than our current pe tee material.
and prob getting it in weeks time!

soooooooooooooooo. i really want to tell the world, jessica is MAD. i mean really mad ok. she and her PRINCE -.-

JEANNIE COME BACK LE! haha but nyeh nyeh you guys saw her today i saw her ytd! LOLLLL x)

i cannot rmb exactly what happened during lessons, but i must say the eeyore behind me is so funny! (: and i cannot understand physics :D and i hate mr koo for obvious reasons! and im not a doraemon -.- and singyee is MESSIER than me OK! and i want choir back soon!
we were outside the staffroom, and saw the staff race thing on the noticeboard, so means you're the tchr u want to take part thne u tick. singyee was alr taking out the pen to tick for MR SNG, but just then, he walked out of the staffroom. taken aback we laughed like siao and stupid mr koo went to tell him our plan -.-
stupid ms chng nv give us our marks )(*&^%$#@!

now i must save money AGAIN, to buy that shirt&skirt and BDAY PRESSIES AGAIN! tanjialing better thank me mannnnn >.<

lastly, eileen is loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D wednesdays are chio!


damn it.
i cannot get my piano right okay. wtffff la. i nthe end i ended up banging my piano and almost breaking my so-expensive-cos-its-pink colour metronome.
AHHHHHHHHH. maybe i shld just quit. i feel guilty for forgetting that there's lesson today ): .

whatever lah. and i m freaking pissed over choir teeshirt stuff. what the HELL SHE wants man!

I REGRET. for not going for ip. and i m still abit guilty towards singyee. if not for me wanting to stay in cedar, she would have gone for ip, and she WOULD be in vjc now. ask me why i regret? its something u hear from me once in my life. yes. open ur eyes trudy and xuemin and kaiyin. haha. don't ask me why. yes there ARE memories holding me back, but perhaps if i learnt to let go of everything sooner, i will be happier NOW.

and my handphone bill just BOOOOOMBA. thanks alot.



i ponder why things on earth are like that.
if i could rewind time, things would DEFINITELY be much more different now.
cos im stupid enough to choose so many wrong choices in my life.


HAHAHAHA.
i successfully persuaded my mum and dad into changing phones! x)
YAY. three cheers for me. HEHEHE.
yesterday was SO BORING. i finished up all my work at my ahma's hse.
then i pulled my mum to j8. cos of THAT tote bag i saw on thurs.
then i realised its 100bucks!@#^@)#(*&^%$#@!
forget it x) i can think okay. its not worth it. tho the material very good. hahahaha!

and thank you dion for the ferrero rochers! so i can be tempted. i ate all 3.
today i woke up with a damn sore throat, runny nose from ytd, and my whole face was like burning. but not fever. so yah.
consequences of sleeping at 1+ for two continuous nights. LOL. too long nv try so late le ):
i was actually ummm playing neopets ytd -.-
TOO BORED WHAT..

i think weishan's tagboard very poor thing, u guys can take a look at how me and kathykong spammed it. LOL. x))))
and and and i think jess is damn pissed with me. LOL sorrry :D

its coming in slight more than a month >.< i duno la hahahaha.


ALAS!








i must improve my chinese no matter what. )):


i have tons of work. UNDONE.

1. banyueji.
2. amath hmwk
3. emath wrksht plus undone txtbk exercises
4. eng editorial. 1 per week right?
5. bio research plus wrksht assignment
6. chinese zuoye
7. amath tuition hmwk.
8. chi tuition hmwk
9. music theory composing
10. READ PHYSICS.

i really dun understand kinematics. HOW DOES ANYONE EVER UNDERSTAND IT?!
physics is cheemology. see, humanities are better. u dun need to understand them. they're just stories. or rather u read very long le then u will understand.
physics is, u read damn long also dunno. cos when you know it you'll know it and when you don't you don't!

went j8 with yunmin ytd. hehehe. and guess who we saw! jiani and sara! x)
i think we made kinda a big commotion and they were ummm, taken aback by me and yunmin's high pitched laughters. LOL!!!!!
and i learnt alot of stories from sara and jiani regarding JESS ARNANTA!
andher chinese name. HEEEHEEE :D

i miss the days when 5,6 of us use to go j8 every now and then.
and everything.

i want a new hp la! ahaha. mine is finally screwed upsidedown after so many times of dropping and rolling on floor ):


YOOOOOOOOO!
im so happy.
no more choir sessions! i can have more time. but seriously, with more time comes more slackness. LOL.
choir teeshirt.BLEAH. i think black is still the best HOHOHO.
bleahs.
ROLLS EYES AT __ blah!!!

anyways, im died today.
WHY MY COUSIN NEVER TEACH ME HYDROGEN CYANIDE EARLIER? he knows okay. so angry!!
and i press calculator also can press wrong. hoho.

im still at weishan's blog listening to nice nice SONG x)
wanping likes zhiyang too HAHAHAHHAA LALALALALLA x)

i wanted to say, jamie is so funny lah. ok heres the scene.
me and singyee were calulating for mengqiao that even she get 20/40 she still get a1.
so we counted chemistry too. then jamie went like how we calculate help her. so we asked for her marks.
20/25
25/25.
ERMMMMS!
imagine singyee and my expression la LOL!

soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo,
wahlao i feel like going out with my pigs, and i suddenly miss 6A i duno why DUN ASK ME. this is SO RANDOM man! hahaha.

(still at weishan's blog)

i cannot imagine my phone bill okay. for march. LOL.


YO!
hahahaha friday was FUN cos _ wasnt here and we played games! x)
as usual i cannot stop myself from screaming lah but HEEHEEEE.
was singing old songs, SEC ONE SEC TWO. now? SEC THREE.
its kind of bad when u actually think that the seniors are stepping down soon, anws i think the sec twos are great :D:D:D

they were saying about the moutn alvernia ghost story.
hehe anyone interestd? CHARRRRR. [:

on duno which day of the week weishan came to my hse! HAHAHAHA. to borrow hairdryer LOL. i think she like very long nv come my house le but nvm hahaha i think brainy's damn shocked at the state of my room LOL!
SO, she made me realise alot of stuff as usual. hehe. must go to weishan's blog WAHLAO her blog song ROCKS LIKE DUNO WHAT !!!!! <33

minitoons was having sale ytd, 40% la OMG. i want to buy that curtainthing!! HAHHAA GOOD CHANCE EH! omg. hahaha i really want it.

anws i bought 3 presents ytd. bday present in specific. belated ones in more specific. HEHE. omg hahha sry >.< namely sharronong matong and my table partner JIANI !!

fri was shiok cos alot alot alottt of ppl ponned MO!

i realised its 09042006 today, means, __ will be coming soon. i dun even know if its confirmed but i m praying real hard its all confirmed. sighs la. i duno. i hope it wun screw my results up since im gonna miss so many days of schs in total.

WHY CANT WE HAVE MID YR!
bio was very bad. hahaha im even thinking of dropping bio. but f(whoever)i, i din fail hahaha its just YEAH.
its kinda funny. my physics was bad last yr. bio was kinda quite good but this yr HOHOHO! nvm ONE MORE TEST TO PULL UP.
i just realised the horrendous fact that theres no CA and SA anymore!
its just 3 CT per subject PER sememster and tada the class tests and t/assignments are not counted at ALL. which is kinda sad.

(im still listening to weishan's blog for the 10th time)

SO, i think my handphone is SIAOZZ. u know that day i was trying to reply an sms, then the screen hang la -.- but its PART of it hang PART of it nv. so cute -.- nvm 2 more months! x)

HOHO.

just to add, sorry kaiyin i dun think i can go for your choir concert. BUT I LOVE YOU ALWAYS!

i found sec one farewell photos by incident. SIGHS.


ITS MY FAULT FOR NOVELTY YTD ALRIGHT?
just blame me if you want to.
there's no need to show this type of attitude.


HAHAHA.
today's quite bad.
im feeling quite bad over certain stuff.
PHYSICS TEST.
maybe im easily contented now.
maybe its just that others are better.
i don't know. and won't know anyways.

each day i wake up, telling myself to be more serious, but i can't seem to be.
okay.
im telling myself to try my best for tmr's emath ct and ss ct.
thats it. i won't aim just nice anymore. i will aim high. maybe all the fighting spirit inside me is gone.
i will fine them back. (cos i know my aim what HAHAHAHA go hci HAHAHA cos you-know-why i know qx knows why!)

i don't like the way things are runned in class somehow.
nvm i have high levels of tolerance anws. HEHEEE.
after what weishan told me today,
i dun think i love cedar as much anymore.
what the hell is our school turning to man!

AND YOU. IF YOU ARE TRYING SO HARD JUST TO GET BACK UR REVENGE GO AHEAD> KNOW WHAT? I DUN CARE x) COS YOU'RE SIMPLY A FREAK! :D













我并没有忘记，我也不会忘记，
什么叫做一辈子的承诺。
我说得到就一定做得到，
而不是口说无凭，
这块心竭只有我自己能解开。
只因为， i believe (:


YOYOYO!
hahahaha.
i went mad copying ss notes just now.
and i decided to go for tuition tonight! :D so that wed night can do some sure fail last minute mugging LOL!
today is sch was GOOOOOOD! except that im arriving sch later and later each day. OH WELLS! hahahaha i think i freaked ms wee out cos i keep talking about zhiyang LOL >.<
chem lesson HAHAHAHA so heng ah she din call my name!

they say the thailand trip is cancelled okay. WTFFFFFFF. gg somewhere to indonesia according to ms tan?! i go indo for whaT! volcanic area somemore leh. worse death than birdie flu heeheee!
wahlao then how i tell HER i want to go china, i mean like sheesh it doesnt even clash whats her prob. I CAN MANAGE DE LOR. grrrr!
i want thailandddddddddddddddddddd )x
i want chinaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa too!
ahaha but go thailand can buy even more things for my friends and myself and my ahma LOL!





想起当初的我，和你说的话，
我会用功的。

i want to read xiuxian's chinese books!! the love story one. OMG i forgot to look for sweeleng for the dachangjing book. HAHAHA.


ZHIYANG WON! HAHAHA x)

<33!


HAHAHHA.
ok njc concert on friday.
wahlao i regretted staying in m/o lesson for so long. DAMN BORING LAH.
the lecture part was like sooooooo short. :(
anws then went to ps with yunmin ahahaha. raining like siao ok! then eileen's mum kindly fetched us out.
when we were in the platform, saw yuyuan peichun, WET, and went forward to suan them HAHAHA anws they kinda realised i was dry from far toooo :p

ate dinner at earlier than 5 okay.
so angry!
anws, ok, so, we went to sembawang music.
and char called me AGAIN hahaha then i was like we're at sembawang (she alr knows we're at ps ok) she went like WHAT! YOU ALL GO TO SEMBAWANG?!
best can x)
then we found this THE CHOIR BOYS choir group's cd, sheesh, the boy pwns l0rxXx.
he can reach a higher key than me la.
and his voice is like OMG DAMN ZAI-ED! all the tone and stuff.
cow!
then char and bella came HEHEHE.
went to take bus.

here comes the story. we took from opposite direction. = wrong direction.
only realised it when the bus went to terminal and a few minutes before that we were like omg the whole bus belongs to us!
apparently everybody got off before terminal.
thanks alot, its like pouring like mad you couldn't even see whats 10 metres away la -.-
then, we ran in the rain, and dirtied my jacket.
when we crossed to outram mrt shelter,
thanks alot AGAIN, the rain is like only drizzling.
conventional rain. haha omg pure geog LOL!
nvm.

so we went back to ps by train, and wanted to catch a taxi cos i realised in fact i had hidden money worth 20 bucks in my wallet.
(see the pros of hiding money :D )
but, so many taxi, so little taxi without people! almost none.
so after trying to catch taxi here and there, decided to cross the road, and take a bus.
went to ask the bus auntie what stop to alight to go njc, then cos normally its an uncle, i went UN--- then i saw her, woops auntie, which stop goes to njc?
she thinks njc is HWACHONG ok -.-
so i think of njc's chinese name, ahaha i told her.
she still thinks its HWACHONG.
we realised theres a njcian on the bus, asked her to lead us cos she gg njc also, she's so nice :D
when we reached hwachong there, wahlao the auntie shouted to the back where we are YAO BU YAO XIA CHE!
so malu ok >.<

anws yunmin keep thinking bella is from 3I or is 3I attached la! -.- funny woman!
ok then we left ps at 5.30 lor, supposingly reach before 6.30 in the end reach at 7+
HAHA. thanks to SOMEONE. -.-

the acapella part was ZAI-ED! with the vocal thing. omg la.
its DAMN PRO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ):.
zi-bei-ed. hahahhaa.
and their choir gown so nice, unlike. bleahs!!!
trudy is so funny la HAHAH! x)

so we took yunmin's car to j8 and went mac to eat. HAHAHA.
fries x)
then i realised about the 11 o clock thing.
HENG AH!
when i reach sengkang its 11+. and opposite where i was waiting for my dad is police post okayyy! -.-

btw we thrashed the guys today at math tuition, my sense of accomplishment is damn high now x)


你可以不要一只给我希望，又把希望的泡泡弄破吗？
我真得很怕。
到现在，我才发觉这一切是多么多么不容易。
我开始是很清楚自己要的是什么。
但是现在我已不再确定了。
我也找不到平衡点。
可要我放弃这里头的任何一样我也做不到。

到底是我走出了你的世界，还是相反的，是你走出了我的世界。
以前我随时随地都能找到你。
我讨厌，我厌倦这样的生活。
如果人生是个那么充满疑惑，充满竞争的世界，
我宁愿我从来都不在这世界上出现，
现实，太残酷了……




i need to say,
SO WHAT IF YOU THINK YOU'RE LIKE OH MY FREAKING GOSH TOPPING, OOPS I MEAN 2ND-TOPPING MOST OF THE SUBJECTS?
fine LA you're SO DAMN FREAKING SMART MAN, can say im stupid like HAHA.
guess what, i think i have more LIFE than you, i have so much more committments than you. i feel SO SAD for you man. AWWW.

if anybody wants to know who im talking about, feel free to ask me, i will SUPER willing to tell and spread to the whole school,
i will make sure you never top cedar in o's.
cos jamie will (:
AINT YOU FEELING SAD NOW? AWWWW> GO CRY LA.

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speech day today rockeddddddddddd!
i think we blasted their day HOHOHO.
more updates later!