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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

im happy for HAHAHA my pig! :D


suffering from post movie syndrome - the ring!
WHO IS THE ONE WHO DOESNT WANNA WATCH THE JAPANESE VERSION! HURHURHUR.

ruiwen is brave lah just admit it (:


sometimes im just confused. yay.
tomorrow i have to make my way home MYSELF ):


YOOOOOOOO! ahahaha. okay. i conclude that kaiyin LOVESSS esplanade.
so, ytd in 30min i chopped off 52 pages of princess diaries seventh heaven.
im damn prooud to say i've got all the 7 books so far :D

i've persuaded my mum to pay me for this book and my chinese story book. MUAHAHA! :D
celebrating grandma's birthday this sat. wahlao. she wanna pay herself. supposingly to be shared out by her 8 children. and she say what want us to chi hao yi dian, 500 bucks PER TABLE?! and how big the family is man.

so, i have decided to buy her birdnest! :D
u know those 6 cans in a pack de. THE REAL ONE, not the 1 dollar one can one.

so means im gonna go flat broke AGAIN. woohoo.


YO! i got my thumbdrive le. 1gb. HAHAHA. actually i wanted the imation/toshiba one. but its like both of them are $50 bucks for 512mb, this local brand is 62.90 for 1gb, sooooo... :D
i guess singapore stuffs are okay lah! the woman said that the thumbdrive originated from this brand, so i guess its alright lo. HAHAHA. im gonna kill that woman if something happens! the place is real big. BiG by safe. duh the name already sounds big. me and my mum got lost in there. LOL. i saw lots of chio laptops can! my heart is practically itching for them now. ruiwennnn wait awhile more! just 1.5 more years :D

by the way, i changed my mind about dsa-ing to hwachong next year, HAHAHA, know why! :D i duno why too. in fact im thinking of going poly. I KNOW IM CRAZY. hahaha. nvm. cos i wun dsa anways u know i hate to write those blah blah rubbish :D

i owe lots of people presents. if i nv remember wrongly, jialing, suria, and upcoming yirong, and i cannot remember now.

CMON PEOPLE, WHO HAS AN OVEN?!

but i was sad, cos when i got home and i saw the colours available behind, got green and orange -.- mine's like GREY! hahaha. nvm ):

i need t oblog cos....

a great reminder to my loves. o levels starts in less than a month!
mug people, mug! :D

im currently stoning. oh wells, i tried to buff my nails, apparently, after two tries on my left hand on two fingers, and one on my toeNAIL, i gave up :D its hard work. i wonder how my farmer's wife did all 10. nvm. HAHAHA. im so shibai. seee im not meant to be girly anyways!

i feel shuang now, prob cos of apples. HAHAHA. apples makes my day! :D

then again, i've bought a reasonably okay-looking keychain to go with my thumbby!

okay here it goes. tuition today was good. im glad that chris sat my seat! HAHA. okay i need to complain. tho no one will see it anyway thus i will not get into any kind of trouble. chris is such a big jerk! u see, linlaoshi gave us an exam paper to do. so, while i was happily finishing up the 4th compre, he finished the whole paper. when i finished my whole paper, he happily done the extra compre -.- and linlaoshi was talking about o levels, he went something like asking ppl to relax and sleep before o's tmr. WTH! and then we talked about points, o level points, he kind of smirked at least i took that as a smirk and say what points?

i could have died i tell you. chris is best -.-


okay, smo competition on tuesday. i need to reflect. see, i was kinda happy to get selected in secondary one. okay i was. yeah. cos yah i got mrs choo as my tchr. but thats not the problem, sec one i was slack and all, i told myself when sec2 started that ok here it is im gonna start my life again and be serious about this, hahaha, but i had to know im gg china during the comeptition so i bo chap-ed lah! start of this yr, i told myself nonono i must renew my life, but tada it din work, afterall its an aircon room, duh must slack right. okay im disappointed in myself... :(

4600+ deaths in indonesia. dear lord, bless them. see ytd when my dad told me at 5+pm it was only 1700+ then at night it was 2600+. wth. the dumb volcano had better not erupt.

u know, seeing the pacific ring of fire kinda scares me out.

why must there be this dumb things on earth. COWWW!
okay people we must be feeling good cos singapore is a safe place, yeah,

amen.


okay i 've decided to be nicer to my BUDDY! and write her letters. but me and eunice's buddy dun seem to be doing so HAHAHA -.- nvm. HAHHA! :D


should i go hongkong? HAHAHA.
disneyland. -.-
wth i told my mum i wanna go japan's disneyland. now she says my aunt's offering to go hongkong disneyland.

me: eh thats a very big difference
mum: still disneyland what
me: but the point is japan. you know japan's like a damn nice country
mum: japan's things are expensive
me: -walks away.


AHHH!

okay. hahahhaa. im gonna get a thumbdrive! woooots :D was watching the ring ytd. COWW! so freaky ok. but it wasnt as freaky as i thought, to make our dear singyee resort to talking to yingying IN THE TOILET -.- i liked the ending !!

you'll die 7 days after watching the FILMvideo (:

wooots, i made a new decision ytd! must tell huiyi first. i dunno why. HAHAHA. okay im crazy i know. but who cares lahhhhh!

i proclaim PINNXIAN is rich -.- look at her latest post then you'll know why. i haven even dined there before lah. wth. ahahaha! yoyoyoyoyo. i started doing two questions of my holiday homework. thats dumb. HAHAHA. guess what, its amath! nvm. HAHAHA.

to my dear chewy and huiyi, see im using green! HAHAHA. nvm. cheer up okay! if you all need someone to talk to u can always call me :D and dui bu qi for oversleeping >.<

i guess sometimes u wun realise how some ppl are really really really nice! i need to catch up with my friends more i guess :D

and yes yes eileen thank me for the sim card. SEEE. people, the end results of smsing too much. HAHAH! :D and why i dun need it, cos IM GUAI! c'mon im guai im guai.

who has an oven? :D i ntheir house. ! tell me asap pretty please! on my tagboard/msn. LOVEEEE!


i love singyee jamie pinnxian seowyee char huiyi cheryl jas bella jul denyse wanping ym sophie eli nicole lynette evan and many many others! you know who you guys are. the list goes on forever. thanks alot for being by my side.

thank you guys alot. (:


okay. just practised the song. bleahed. bpd tmr AGAIN! nvm we will sing those nice nice disney songs HAHAH!
cos everytime i think of THAT, i feel so scared. i duno why.
i seriously hope nothing happens to the shirts man. WAHLAO. i have a damn bad feeling.
today was kinda good. movies. CHEMISTRY. (at least not like denyse class 3 periods HAHAHA!)
and i was lying happily on px's laps. and sing on jubi's laps.
I CONCLUDE THAT YING'S COOKING SUCKS. tofu tastes like tuna lah wth!
i wasnt exactly sure of anything anymore. i just wanna pray for the best.
OMG GOOD NEWS! the choir tees are out! DAMN NICE! according to evan who just seen it. hahaha! delivery @ 2.30 pm tmr ((:
i don't wanna regret one yr down. we'll just have to DO IT.
nobody remembers the ytd the sing hellelujah warmup. I DAMN SAD LO! its like so freaking nice. we got a new score today! :D HAHHA. i can't wait to see everyone again. and go PRATA CAFE! LOL!
WE MUST JIAYOU! i guess its all up to us now. people, smile ((:


we WILL stay strong.
there's no turning back so we'd just keep going.
we CAN make it possible :D


hahaha its getting more fun and fun! i just <333 the new song!
and im remembering more names!! YAY.
but after tmr, its gonna be one month till we see each other :(


i think talking to yusin rocks. :D


i guess, i need to buy alot of things now.
and the only day i can clear my stuffs are like WEDDDDD. ahahaha. :D
shall ask dad to fetch me home!

YAYYYYYYYYYYY, choral ex prac tmr again! okay, its kinda not yay and yay. yay cos i can see my section again! i will try my best to rmb all their names. not yay cos i duno how to sing take a the train :( HAHAHA.

hwachong choir concert. their choir gown still so much nicer. HAHA. and and the coconut song is SIAOZ LAH! :D but i think its quite okay. hahaha. went out with sophie eileen and yunmin dearie. pictures rock! but, my cam battery sucks :( HAHAHA. nvm. then after that went compass point and halfway saw trudy and xuemin <33333>beautiful voices :( HAHAHA.

to end this post, presenting...



qixuan the cute pie in ranger suit :D

ciao!


[x]You know someone that cares about you.
[ ] You have a bf/ gf/ fiancee/ husband/ wife.
[x] You have your own room.
[x] You own a cell phone.
[ ] You get good grades.
[x] You have an ipod/ mp3 player.
[x] Your parents are still married.
[x] You have more than 2 best friends.
[ ] There is a swimming pool in your backyard.
[x] You live in a house.

T O T A L: 7

[x] You dress how you want to.
[x] You hang out with friends more than once awk.
[ ] There is a computer/ laptop in your room.
[ ] You have never been beaten up.
[ ] You never cry more than twice a month.
[x] You are allowed to listen to the music you want to.
[x] Your room is big enough for you.
[ ] People don't use you for something you have.
[x] You have been to a concert.
[x] You laugh more than twice a day.

T O T A L: 6

[x] You have over 100 friends on friendster.
[x] You have pictures on friendster.
[x] You get allowance.
[x] You collect something normal.
[x] People don't make fun of you to be mean.
[x] You look foward to go to school.
[x] You don't wish you were someone else.
[x] You play a sport.
[x] You do something after school.
[x] You shower daily.

T O T A L: 10

[ ] You own a car. we know pinnxian will own one soon (:
[x] You usually don't fight with your parents.
[x] You're healthy.
[x] You've never had a cavity.
[x] You are happy with your appearance.
[ ] You aren't self-consious at all.
[ ] You have never got a failing grade in your life.
[x] You have friends.
[x] You have so many inside jokes with friends.
[x] You know your parents care and love you.

T O T A L: 7

[x] You know what is going on in the world.
[x] You care about so many people.
[ ] You are happy with your life.
[ ] You usually aren't sick.
[x] You know more than one language.
[x] You have a screen name.
[ ] You own a pet.
[x] You know the words to more than 5 songs. oei hello i in what cca -.-
[x] You don't have many enemies.
[x] You are happy you're living.

T O T A L: 7

GRAND TOTAL : 37

Now count up the number and multiply by2.

not bad. 74%. its an a2 .

sadly, the above doesnt justify how perfect one's life is.
i guess you're right. im thinking too much into many stuffs.


xcntry ytd! doing duty is so much nicer. HAHA.

anyways anyways. choral ex! we went to pizza hut like after that and decided to reach there early. so we reached at 12+? HAHA. when it starts at 2.

the taxi fares were 6.70 6.70 5.80. CLAIM FROM SCH. hahaha :D no fair. they took a shortcut. nvmmmm. and like then the whole room is ours okay! the songs were horrible.

and we split into choirs and sections. OMG LOR. scgs is chao pro!! . they really are. HAHAHA. i dun remember most of their names. NVM. i will try to rmb on mon! :D

by the time we do THAT Song, we're all gonnna DIEEE! its so tough. hahaha. whatever.

and we took taxi back and i was late for piano.

if this goes on im gonna be CHAO BROKE.




whats the difference between hockey, and floor ball ah? o.O

if yesterday u talked to me after 9. and i din reply. sorry :D i was already sleeping. hahaha!

theres alot of homework. MAN. no time to do lah! and YAYNESS HWACHONG CHOIR CONCERT TMR! :D means i get to pon tuition HAHAHA. this is so sian. its only 10+ and im awake.

hwachongggg is loveeeeeeee! but i will never get there anyway..



its just because i can't sing at all.
so much for everything.


why can't i be more capable, and balance well between cca and studies?
why can't i be more responsible, for my actions?
why can't i be more serious when doing my work?
why can't i stop thinking i will breeze thru everything always?
why can't i be like sec2? more mugger?
why can't i just do my best in everything and stop slacking and having such a bo-chap thinking?

okay. actually i was kinda awakened today. i want <8

ruiwen you know you can and will do it. yes you will.


DIE LO!
i just breezed thru the first score.
hahahaha mati alr :(

must finish them by like friday! if not throw cedar face. HAHAHA.

im scared.
i don't want any people to leave man. i mean its like omg. i think i might kana also.
i so hate this.
its just so different if _ happens.



anyways nicole u better reply my letter HAHA.


他们彼此深信
是瞬间迸发的热情让他们相遇。
这样的确定是美丽的，
但变幻无常更为美丽。

(:
watch xiang zuo zou xiang you zou! NICE LAH. but its like sad, they passed each other a million times, not realising each other's presence. I WANNA CONTINUE WATCHING TMRRR!

HAHAHA. ok anyways! yay choir stuff kinda settled. PHEWWW. i love eli ym polar and sophie and evan!!!! :D
so, HAHA we are not running xcntry cos of choir. AHAHA! i mean this is a weird reason, but yes. so im happy. we wun be stinky and tired and go ccab like this. :D

i dunno. HAHAHA. i think im a person who can do work under lots of stress. i shld stress myself more. i clearly know what i want. just let me slack for 12 more days. i will start working hard after that. 4 freaking B3s i got this term. but babehhh i will mug hard! "i will work harder" - boxer! HAHA. its literature in the century!


SMILE!!!!!! cos there's phototaking tmr too!

i din know rabbits can get cancer. according to cherissa. ):




can't resist its temptation <33



im gg out again tmr. HAHHA. this is atrocious. but, the following weeks will be hell and loaded. so who cares anyways! NYEH NYEH! :D


HAHA. life will be great, up till next monday. cos i will die atrociously then :D
i will still and am still look forward to HAHA YOU KNOW WHAT! but i cannot imagine how i will die esp july will be a damn busy month and i still have to miss lessons. HOHO!

yay. anybody tell me how to stretch from C to HIGH E? thats plain stupid. HAHA. considering that we are asians and do have have long fingers and big hands. but i dun wanna give up that piece man. its JAZZZZ BABBEHHH! :D

i guess eileeen is funny. i saw her blogs hidden words AND AND AND me and qx know what it means lo! HAHAHA. i did some chinese homework. no mood for zuowen tho. and im on and off for piano. but damn i really wanna play them well. my tchr's leaving lah. cos she wanna take a break. wth lo >.<

if singyee is reading this, i checked. s4 isnt that good. WAHLAO BUY CASIO LAHHHHH! x) haha. and jamie is mad. for english. i mean who the hell writes 7 pages?!? so, we went for that cooking thing ytd. and ate our lunch there. HAHAHA. the dumplings are quite nice lah. DUH. considering that we BAO-ED it and hou lao shi taught us. HAHAHA. i ate 5. yenpin ate 6. singyee ate 4. can u believe it pinnxian bao the nicest. HAHAHAH WTH! o.< and we washed up. SO GUAI CAN! HAHAHAAHA (:

im gonna get qx the stupid farmer chocolates. when she neglected me so much afterall. HAHAHA. i want that white and gold bag toooooo! LALALALA. a pity they dun have lime green and some nice colour wahlao. that pants is nice okay. HAHA. shall think.

i guess, its bad enough. i dunno what to do to make all this situation better. i mean, yeah everything's so screwed up. i cannot do it lo. such a failure. BLEAHS. just give me a kick. out of this bloody shit. and when that day comes i think i m just gonna collapse. all the memories. MAN.

i flooded aliciaT's blog ytd ytd, SHIFU's blog ytd, today who will be the LUCKY one? xP HAHAHAHAHA!

i cannot wait for the food tmr. HAHAHA. yayness :D


how does it feel like, when u have a big stage, you're performing on it alone, doing the things you want, be it dancing.. singing..

you're just in the world of your own.

that's, your center stage.

what's passion all about? does it means you could really give up everything, just for your passion?


wahlao my idol lost the elections...
NEVERMIND HAHAHA SHE'LL COME BACK NEXT ROUND! :D
anyways the papers said chiam taught in cedar for 10 yrs last time okay. OMG. hahahahah doesnt that.. NVM. - censored-
i watched until 2+AM last night. this is not pai, its call guan xin guo jia da shi HAHAHAHAHAHA LALALALA!

YO IM SO DEAD. i nv do chi nv do chem. SLACKER. hahahaha __ is everything in my mind now. yayness going out this sat and wed. SLACKER AGAIN. i wanna bowl badly :(

i slept for 18 hours ytd. hahaha. cos i was damn full and bloated from seoul garden. i came home and slept. till the next day 2PM around there. PRO RIGHT ((: duh. nobody's proer than ME what HAHAHAHAHA!

woohooo. i dun wanna go sch tomorrow cos there's JOGGING. yucks. hahahaha. im bored and tired now. but i need to do my work. but i have NO MOOD. hahahaha.


nope im not afraid to write down what i think. im gonna aim straight A1's except for eng and bio lah for eoys.
COS HWACHONG IS LOVEEEEEEEEEEE :D

i seriously hope kurinchi's fine.





and we STILL haven't get the scores yet :((( what the hell. HAHAHA. somehow im excited for it. somehow im not. imagine missing so many FULL DAYS of sch. DIE AH! hope its what i think it is, FUN and MORE FUN! LOL. <3

i think kathy and vicky so funny. I SEE THEM WALKING IN ROUNDS AND ROUNDS AGAIN! like what i saw last year .LOL. nvm. HAHAHAHA. days without choir seems, uh weird. LOL. i duno why.

i haven't done my amath yet. LOL. singyee haven't too! YAYNESS. television is like the best invention in the world la hehehe :D


BOO HOOO.
yes i think i hate some people tho i used to be like that. not being contented with whatever u have and complaining about ur marks. maybe its just that they dun or HAVE YET TO realise that actually the marks we're getting are considered good, compared to many around.
grow up.

sze waiy if you're readnig this, smileeeeeeee okay!! :D yes yes the cruelty of life. hahaha.

i feel sooooo happy for sophie dearie!!! YAYNESS!

ok so here it goes. thanks alot to pinnxian and sw for making me think that theres a big spider insect below my chair and thus jumping out of my seat during math lesson LAH! so malu okay. hahaha i think mrsC (jess i learnt from you HAHAHA) thinks im crazy now.

kathy reminded jess who in turn reminded me of something quite important, HAHHA, shan't tell you whats it. GUESS YOURSELF :D

i think the movie dead poet's society is so nice. HAHAHA cat high showed it too according to my cousin LOL!


all but claims.

lets see, if we could actually live in a more realistic and sosphisticated world, how hell wonderful it will be.

i dun exactly HAVE THE MOOD to do anything. i think i myself is a jerk. i can do my work, but i choose not to do it, laze around all day long. and then tada when all the results come out and all i get ultra demoralissed. isn't that just the story, or not the story at all?

blesses and prayers for those having mid years, till then!

fun, laughter, peace and joy.

you realise that love isn't in it. but love makes the world goes round. but my farmer doesnt love me. HAHAHAHA.


YO!
hahaha. shito.
lin lao shi says that our batch no more 3 months jc and cca points will no longer be counted?
freaking piece of shit. how i go hwachong like that!!!
CCA POINTS GONE. = 2 points deduction gone. dsa like i will get in like that, with my shit kinda results at this point of time.

how wonderful the world is?

i hope it isnt true.

so i guessed i kinda slapped collin on his back a few or more than a few times cos i almost cry already.
overly devastated.
sorry :(

SO.
i have been doing graphs but i hadn't gotten one done AT ALL. reason? im plotting them. hehehehe. i still got um CHEM and SS and AMATH and EMATH. good luck to me. i dun think i am able to finish them man. :D

my parents bought me ipodnano! HAHAHAHA. xD and qx sound as if i was faking her. my belovedddddd farmer!

kaiyin this goes out to you, im gg tjc choir concert happy? :D

not gg vjc anymore. i din know they got BEST ASIAN CHOIR man! wahhhlao rocks lah! if one day cedar choir can be like that too. that will be damn wonderful. shld i go ri one? hahaha.

you see, i think some people are so fake, they claim to love particular things/people, on the surface, but actually i dun think they do. HAHAHA. u see, how many people really mean it when they say i love you? sometimes or rather many a times, its all for the sake of saying it.

and humans are fake too. i mean who doesnt have a fake side man! hahaha.

and we won 30 bucks from math tuition. im gonna buy that cd. hehhehe.
youknowwhat? i just hope to leave this place with you, go to some ulu place and set up a house by the seaside, and watch every sunrise tgt, no stress no nothing. just you and me.
and yet i know this is impossible. cause its you.

so anyways, as i was telling my farmer, im not sleeping until i get this pile of shit done :D and yes i have started to like piano. i mean its really nice and all when u can vent everything on the piano, bring your emotions to the music the sound you produce, all out.

you know sometimes, we say alot of things we dun mean it, everytime, it happens.
whats the whole damn point of everything in life then?