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Thursday, June 29, 2006

today is a nice day! LOL 2 more hours (:

and i got a big big shock today. which only 3 people now know HAHAHA.
still trying to recover from it.

why am i thinking of you every moment!


i seriously don't know what im doing anymore.

anyways, i think my sec one mugger mode is back ,with the siao part. you see football right, the more they play the better they get. tho its not completely back but i feel the STRESS and i so need stress now!
:D

anyways, omg chocolate fudge banana cake! means i will be eating 3 cakes in 6 days :D my mum's, today's and friday's haha. but, we realised nobody thanked mr sng. the cake very very nice! other people are jealous, why we have such a nice form! hoho. look at sophie's face when she realised we had another cake :P

anyways, YO! jamie didn't come school today ): dunno why. hahaha. i love bio now. cos its so funny. its mrs gay's anniversary today LOL.

and szewaiy when she's a baby is SO fRIKKIN' CUTE. and prettaye! i mean BABY :D

EEYUR. i think i finally understood physics.
think im gg for high tea tomorrow with mummy and i shall try dig something out of her purse LOL (:


i can't help it but i just seem to dislike you more and more -.-
ahahaaaaaaaaha today was boringgg! i woke up at 6.15 like omg i was still saying i'll wake up earlier today can! -.-

nothing much interesting. yah but listened to two songs during chi lesson?

my oral is on 10th JULY -.-
die man!! hahaha.

:((

okay lah its not too late not too early so i guess its alright.

wish me luck :D

i don't believe you don't feel that way, that you don't know why.


hahaha i shall not come online till around 10pm everyday LOL LOL self control -.-

argentina's dead. so is germany! why must they meet at quart finals -.- DUMB LAHHHH. ahahaha! yay and its on friday I M FATED TO WATCH THE MATCH LAH :D

changed seats. suni's my new partner! hehehee. cheryl's back in front again! LOL. i have lots of presents to buy man. DIE DIE DIE! i saved 10 bucks today HAHHA :D

and thank you for those who helped/cared/asked me when i was severely under cramps. thank you! like jamie singyee px kelly quincy charis jiani conhwa i think i saw arica elyssa i think i heard yirong and eugenia? hhahaha i wasn't very conscious but anyways thanks alot <3


tomorrow's gonna be another new start again.
i shall work on my timetable some day! :D maybe tmr afternoon or something.
and everything's gonna change again. hahaha.

i miss my fellow sops already ): 22 more days!
i want it to come yet i dun want it to come cos it marks the ending.
OH MAN.

i wonder who is my new partner. MAN. hahahhaa. i think i'll be late for sch tmr can! =X


1. Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed
3. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she have been tagged.
4. Start your post with "I have been tagged!" then do this.

FavouritesFavourite Colour: GREEN! white! orange and pink is fine.
Favourite Food: all foods on earth are nice :D
Favourite Song: every heart
Favourite Movie: winnie the pooh and heffalump HAHAHAHA! -.-
Favourite Sport: bowling is counted right. maybe badminton!
Favourite Day of the Week: fridays! :D
Favourite Season: SUMMER! hawtt eh.
Favourite Ice Cream: strawberrry flavour. with original bits :D

Currentscurrent mood: happy! and sad.
current taste: u mean my taste buds? haha its sour.
current clothes: op shirt and shortttts
current desktop pic: collage of postcards!
current toenail colour: HAHAHAHA i'm not a poseur xD
current time: 1230 germ's still on!
current surroundings: living room beside the piano in front of the com
current annoyances: tmr morning's tuition :(

FIRST
First best friends: in kindergarden, lee yu mei (: sadly i duno what is she
First [serious] crush: sec2
First movie: some jacky chan movie LOL
First Lie: lying is bad, i know =First music: those korean dramas' theme songs. :D

LASTSlast ciagarette: smoking is bad for health eh -.-
Last Drink: water. hahaha no ytd's iced milk tea :D
Last car ride: taxi LOL
Last crush: i duno?
Last movie: i duno too?
last phonecall: kaiyin haha!
Last CD played: eh eh eh i duno lol!

HAVE YOU EVER
Have you ever dated one of your best friends: no.
Have you ever broken the law: now dun have can le :D
Have you ever been arrested: NAH. :D
Have you ever skinny-dipped: ?
Have you ever been on TV : pri sch. haha
Have you ever kissed someone you dont know: how i know? LOL

5 things you are wearing right now: hairband, hairtie, earrings, clothes, specs
4 things you've done today: smsed (my cinderella LOL), msn, SING(:, gossiped!
3 things you can hear right now: tv sound, soccer! :D
1 thing that you do when you are bored: eat :D / sleep. haha!

NOW. TAGG TAG TAGGGG.

o1. eileen!
o2. qixuannn!
03. charmaine!
o4. cinderella cheryl LOL!
o5. elyssa mummy!


HAHAHAHA. i think talking to denyse makes me think. i feel the same way as her. i don't want 20july to come. i don't want choral ex to end. altho we may not know like everyone damn well or what but its just nice lah! and fellow crazy people :D

and i think bass and tenor quite sexy eh. i mean HAHAHA i used to think altos voice are sexy cos low low one but now HOHO. there's even lower oneS lol!

maybe that's when i can really forget everything.

anyways. i think im quite dead for next term. maybe it's time for a better change.


i realised, how much i've neglected some people, and how much some people neglected me.
i tried to tell myself that you're busy. but, i dun think its so.


HAHA. im quite dead actually.
i have 6 hours to study physics, chinese, and practise piano
)(*&^%$@!
later's my worst day of each week, PIANO.
seriously, i want to change teacher. she so, SUCKS.

another thing, the zen v is SO NICE. i mean really nice. its greeeeeeeeeeen okay! yes im damn damn damn sad, and regretful. i mean if i know something so nice would come out why the hell will i buy nano :( and somemore its cheaper, and plays video and RECORDING! )):

i think julynn's blog's video damn nice. haha!

if .... means i must wake up at 6am tmr.

:(


how many times must i stop myself from thinking too much. eyes are watching.

如果我说我放的下那件事，我是在骗你。

even me myself jolly well knows that somethings cannot be changed, at least cannot be back to square one. somethings always remain as a wound deep down inside.

yes i admit i do freaking care.

but now i no longer.


but i must admit, how it made me see things differently.
i couldn't be side by side, along with a common goal with you guys anymore.

if YOU say its my fault it is then. for everything i try to defend myself is WRONG anyway.
no one should ever try to stand up for me, NO ONE.

for all you know, i may just follow in some others' footsteps.

and quit.


it was once my passion, but it was also YOU who destroyed it all.

like i told linan, NOTHING in the world would ever change my perception AGAIN.

NOTHING.



and this, is a big fullstop.


who will take me in if i run away from home!


oh haha reading cheryl's blog reminds me that yay i MAY have a chance to sit with singyee since my english and chi and bio is not pro and her's is :D YAYYYY. i bet mr sng must be having a damn hard time planning the seats.
and i just remembered something.
overedued for 3 weeks.

shitass.

if you're back tell me okay! :D

i kinda finished 95% of my homework, and im not gonna finish all of them hahahhaa SLACKING this is. well, i suddenly have an urge to play piano but look at the time, almost 1110 HOW TO NEH! but oh wells haaaaaaaaahahaha dunno dunno dunno!

i think i've told linan quite alot of things just now. nevermindd haha.

so, as usual after holland's match ytd i woke up at 3.30PM today heehee. which i think kinda isn't my fault. anyways, i hope i get to skip tuition tomorrow morning. dumb.

i want badminton. :(


why must you bring back this feeling again?


im really very bored.
surprisingly, i watched the whole england match which jacked readon i guess HAHAHAHA who cares england pwnz.
crouch is DAA BEST LAH! :D miss so many balls and finally headed one in. HAHAHAHA.
and i guess i sleep like almost 3am?! and woke up 8AM today wor. then sleep back then 9+ wake up again. PRO RIGHT! maybe next time i shld like sleep later, so i wake up earlier :D

shall ask if we're playing badminton this sun, but no reply. cows! my bill exploded last month can -.- DUN ASK ME WHY, I DON'T KNOW WHY MYSELF. (& eileen must be laughing when she reads this) and my mum says if this month i explode again she's gonna confiscate my phone and cancel my line, like wtf?

i've decided on what to write for chi :D shld be can finish by 1230, HEEHEE. then i shall do my bio! and probably finish it as fast too cos she say if we didn't know how to do then skip the question, binggggo!

see, collin din book the court.

okay, means i dun have to go tuition today! :D and i din know qx got a nano already heheheheeee. anyways, my plans for holidays completely failed! and singyee's gonna be back soon yay!


sometimes recalling childhood can be funny!

i was super shocked when you say you remembered the days i used to hit you, shannon! :D
so it makes me the bully, like wth hahaha!

i haven't found my inspiration for the chinese articles/homeworks or WHATEVER. i just need to knock some sense into myselfffff. yeah.

i woke up kinda pissed, cos, paul woke me up middle of the um dawn at 5+AM telling me germany won. hahahah! :D its good germ won but dammmnit luckily im a good sleeping pig i get back to sleep damn easily if not, YOU DIE.

actually i think i have some fever but neverminddd xD

i was online then sara the eeyore signed in! :D wahlao damn naughty can get banned still sign in. which reminds me, i think eileen is banned from comp leh = haven't seen her online. :((

i like bowling! tiggerrrr xD

WELLLLL, sat's the dateline for my homeworkS. i was wondering whats gotten into me, i mean, gheeesh, i couldn't be any lazier than i am now. cos of you? maybe. i don't know. i just lost my small pillar in life and i have no mood for things and like HAHA what bout all my goals (not world cup okay! :D ) and all and everything i mean i couldn't care anymore.

i will never accept promises in my world anymore.

thanks alot.
you, i really hate you from the bottom of my heart, now.


if anyone could decipher the picture the way i do. hahaha! :D

因为我实在是太闷了！
我都不知道该怎么活在这种教育制度下。
真的会死人的哦！


"Strangers, are just family you have yet to come to know" - the five people you meet in heaven.

What about friends you've come to know? Are they, too, strangers?

Sometimes, (people you don't know) strangers cross your path. And sometimes, friends (those you claim to know) will oneday leave your path.

Then isn't life just a cycle in this case...

I don't know. I wouldn't.

For all this time, when wasn't I waiting, waiting, for a certain something to happen?


yes, 3goals in 7 minutes. somemore, e first 3 goals in 32 yrs of australia's world cup history. HAHA.

so saddening okay!

i don't know why, but yeah.


okay. i need to blog.

see, people change. like etc when primary sch friends part etc etc.
you no longer like meet everyday, if good, maybe twice a year, you don't even know whats in their life whatsoever. all those times you were together were gone.
yes, but still in your heart u know theres this huge part of your friendship.
but that sucks. it really do.
like when you got caught up with such busy things in sec sch, you rarely talk to them okay.
yes cos we're all in different schools.

but still, i <3.

maybe someone shld just plan a 6a03 gathering someday AHAHA but i bet no one will catch this. anyways. gtg. it isnt good to be late when u meet char and jul. i will die. haha!


YES its only 9.26AM now. why am i here :D
i've been having weird dreams about ppl analysing my character. haha funny.

this IS a miracle. i mean why the hell will i wake up so early. -.-
i shall turn a mugger this week and just finish them all. since er er nicole alr finished all like last week. but thats no motivation hohoho.

i still wanna

1. do finish all my hmwk
2. go out with pooohbearfamily
3. cycle
4. brush up on my piano YAH RIGHT PLAY IT WITH A MUSICAL SENSE
5. just pack my room and my piano area
6. memorise chi notes
7. see cheryl serene lydia they all at choral ex

and i forgot. well its still a morning u know :D
为什么就是这样难放手？


will someone ask me out to cycle! :D hahahhaaha!
这一次，我真的要放弃了。
HOLIDAYS ARE BORING.
very very boring.
_)(*&^%$@!


okay it does seems i've neglected my blog.

singyee and jamie should be on the plane now, maybe it have taken off le!
and jessica arnanta too!

:((

on a lighter note, the ncc and np people come back le! hahaha :D
SO, england and paraguay just had 1-0. LOUSYYY! know why? cos no roooney what HAHAHAHAHA x)x)x)
i shld just move to my cousin's hse or something, cable tveee!

eileen's coming back too!

okay so, i declare i will never spend money again man, im like REALLY REALLY flat broke!

fact no ONE.
going out with kaiyin makes her bag break -.- TWO TIMES LE LEH!
fact no TWO.
i supposingly changed for the worse. homeworkkkk :(
fact no THREE.
i m damn jealous of readonteh. CABLE :(
fact no FOUR.
im gonna miss singyee like siaoz.

choir on friday was good. COS i suanned yunmin like siao :D hahaha. one of my sheng huo le qu! :D :D :D


im still watching. hahaha oh my im getting my priorities ALL WRONG. and i know it. ahaha! eileen's leaving :(( but she will be back babehh! :D
i barely survived tonight's tuition HAHAHA and i learnt something!
sarang heyo!
:D

shopping on thurs with sing yay!

i don't watch shows for NOTHING.

只要相信！
为什么我就是不能住进你心里的那小房子呢？


i got woken up by a thunder. VERY LOUD ONE! i think those staying near by would hear it too. damn it.

The rules: Bold the statements that are true to you. Italise the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the Fibs alone. Then, stab 5 guys to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
i dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes.
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm TOTALLY smart.
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really,really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D. hahaha the result of not picking up calls
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent. – SUANING?! Hahaha!
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex.
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the "South Park" movie.
I would die for my best friends.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
I have dated a close friends's ex.
I am happy at this moment!! COME ON I haven’t been able to finish my homework thanks to those videos!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I can work on a car.
I love my job.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced. YUCK -.-
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument. YES YES !
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausage.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk(swear) in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood.
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex. yay i love fellows! -.l-
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

Stabbed:
SOPHIA
Mujia!
Brainy!


i blog when im bored :D .

so apparently, i tried waking up 6 times. 9.40, 10.10, 10.20, 10.40, 12, 1.09.
all failed! wth.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. i woke up at 1.40 in the end. after a wonderful dream with green tea smell -.- .
this is getting hell, i realised that actually im not that free in the holidays after all, but the show is damn nice i want the vcds neh. >.<
how? tmr still got extra tuition, continuously four hours! not like SOMEONE who keep suaning about not having a need to go.

TERRIBLE! -.-


wahlao the show is damn nice! =D
watching it on youtube NOW. hahahahaa!


eileen u best -.-

se7en random facts abt me.
1) I LIKE LV GUANG SEN LIN ALOT. but that girl damn jian! wahlao :(
2) i like GREEEEEN! :D
3) i cannot wait to watch da vinci code okay >.<
4) i wanna finish all my homework
5) IM DAMN NICE HAHA!
6) mosquitoes like me, alot, today.
7) i just ate. duh. who doesnt eat :D

se7en celebrity crushes.
1) prince william. HAHAH. the one in THE show! shuai what, not meh :D
2) no more.
3)
4)
5)
6)
7)

se7en qualities i want in a potential boyfriend.
1) nice & funky!
2) able to bicker with me HAHA.
3) not a gay, NEVER. i mean, DUH!
4) knows how to play the piano. I DON'T KNOW WHY BUT HAHAHHAA fun what :D
5) able to think.
6) loves me
7) taller than me, DUH!

se7en things that scare me
1) rotten food
2) all insects big small giantic whatever!
3) snakes
4) poisoned stuff
5) sad endings!
6) the ring -.- HAHA!
7) you walking out of my life.

se7en random songs at the
1) lu4
2) every heart
3) zhu ni sheng ri kuai le
4) snappy song -.- LOL
5) cry
6) elmo song
7) breakaway
se7en things i like the moment
1) lu4
2) every heart
3) zhu ni sheng ri kuai le
4) snappy song -.- LOL
5) cry
6) elmo song
7) breakaway

se7en things i like the most
1) pod
2) you
3) computer
4) television is the best invention in the world babehh
5) FOOD!
6) nice nice food!
7) sleeping LO!

se7en things i plan to do before i die
1) eat all my fav food! cannot be a hungry ghost yeah :D
2) tell those people whom i treasure in my life how important they are to me
3) log on internet and tell people im dying
4) thank the people i want to thank
5) play a song
6) sleep and die peacefully
7) and say goodbye.

se7en things i say the most
1) HAHAHAHA
2) watching tv
3) LALALA!
4) -.-
5) YO!
6) :D
7) heehee

se7en ppl i want to do this quiz
1) qixuan!
2) brainy :D
3) JESSICA ARNANTA TJUNG!
4) kathy kong
5) cheryl
6) kaiyin
7) colllin


-


if only you love me.

tuition couldn't be any better :D it was just plain listening and laughing! okay, laughing for me.
sorry for that abrupt laughter LOL!
last day of PC show :( wahlaooooo.
yay i should start looking around for phones! :D
any reco?


I don't wanna live everyday guessing your life.

YOYOYO!
this is plain unfair.
my cousins all went to PC show lah. without bringing me?! they say finding females there is funny. PLAIN DISCRIIMINATION! >.<


"Would you tell me please which way I ought to go from here?"
"That depends a good deal on where you want to get to," said the Cat.
"I don't much care where..." said Alice.
"Then it doesn't matter which way you go," said the Cat.-Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll

-from weiling's blog.

i don't know why. but i'm kinda attracted to this. perhaps it's cos everyone of us, as long as we're humans, will lose our sense of direction. Someday, somehow.


okay. forgot to mention the part that we saw qx's favourite and ms yew and mrs yew. HAHAH! :D

im currently dying of boredness, yet seeking to destress after the stressful and cold afternoon at national library. yeah. we're probably the youngest there. HAHA!

i din mention about my new piano tchr. yes, she HELPFULLY drilled me 12 new scales (4 sets of major, minor harmonic and melodic) in half and hour, and took 2/3 of my piano time for SCALES. oh yeah thanks alot. she played me the new scales ONE TIME each and expects me to play them out perfectly ON THE SPOT. and she changed my style of play. like, whatever -.- .

nope, in fact i realised how i wonderfully anyhow-ed spent my first week of the holidays, YEAH. well, who cares tho! :D grandma's birthday celebration tmr. my mum got the bird nest for me, i gotta pay.
(WAHLAOOO!)

i've linked alot of ppl yesterday HAHA okay you all must be thinking like WAHLAO RW FINALLY LINKED ME. but ((: hahhaa if i missed you out tell me ok! i will change it RIGHT AWAY! (:

i got cheated lah, that MOB TV thing, wahlao. HAHAH! so you need to pay for it I SEEE. say so man, cheat my time and feeling visiting the websites, but at least i read the synopsis :D


ok heres the infuriating part of today,

1. me and singyee decided to round off our work and go down and out of the building. (btw its damn windy. heard its designed the trap the wind? wind reminds me of QINGDAO! <3 )
2. took lift to first floor (the lift is so fast! coolio! :D )
3. decided to go toilet
4. 1st floor toilet washing
5. go 2nd floor by escalator, toilet washing
6. 3rd floor, SAME -.-
7. 4th floor, no toilet
8. 5th floor WTH its the study lounge floor lah -.- WASHING!!!!
9. wanted to tiao lou, but no, we are sane people (:
10. took lift down mnannn. to B1.
11. luckily toilet not washing -.-
12. concluded that they're dumb, WHY WASH ALL THE FEMALE TOILETS AT THE SAME TIME? somemore so clean ,wash what wash!?

-.-

13. went bugis. first sign we saw, toilet ahead.

thanks alot .


identical shirt/bag! HAHAHA! :D

i like bugis library's study lounge. LOL. math was hell. do not ever attempt the 03 amath paper first, u will DIEEEEEEEE!


forgot to mention.

JAMIE KINDLY DEMO-ED TO US THE TOTALLY TAI TAI WAY OF HOLDING A BAG! :D
surprise surprise!


and retarded mujia and qixuan bullied me lah. COW! say i retarded somemore HUR HUR.
bite the powerpuffs!


YYOYOYO!
hahah going out to do HOMEWORK tmr. wth. must at least finish all the math papers man. oh yeah and i haven't even finished ONEEEE.

today was SPAS! dreamweaver course. yay our web is kinda 99% completed thanks to. ME! hahaha. nvm. ego ego :D
the programme sucks. i cannot even change my scroll bar LAAAAH! the person doesnt even know how to do it. so,
lunch! :D

supposingly, me singyee jamie px szew simin yenpin lithong wanted to go macpherson to eat NICE PORRIDGE shown on tv. but when we went there cannot find. ordered our food, then suddenly nice szew spotted the porridge store -.-
so we ate, and walked back! :D to school. HAHAHA.
walked inside those houses, and like WAHLAO we spotted this house damn nice!! its made up of two houses with a link in the middle. LOL! :D and spotted other nice ones.
bungalows.
WAHLAO! so i said next time we no money 8 of us chipped in money buy a big big house for shuang -.- HEHHEEE.
wanted to go in butterfly ave to see they say got a nice house. but , it started to rain.
true enough, when we went back to sch it rained! ): and we began fantisizing if cedar was a house. HAH. can have swimming pool pool room bowling alley movie theatre blah blah . LOL!!! :D

fantasies are gooood.

:D
wanna bang wall now, i left my wallet with taitai in her bag >.<
gong lah!