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Thursday, November 30, 2006

YAYYY OMG QIXUAN IS BACK YAY! : D

anyways, perhaps you're right. the more i think the more i get stuck in my own thoughts huh.
so i shld just, gather some courage, and go up and say whatever i wanna say. hehe.

dept outing today. HAHAAHHAA. teddy bears! sheesh lah i think i went mad today and laughed like mad cow. yuyuan is officially BROKE after spending some 70+ dollars. HAHAHAHA! nice trip to ikea, got a free hearttttt and um, queued for like duno how long, its buzzing crowded in there, yeah, opening day what! then bella wanted to go suntec and we went there, had lunch, interesting experience cos the waitress was nice lah, gave us warm cups of water, which we then realise that the cups are like those 50cents one we saw previously. HAHAHAHA! >.< fun!

im going off for church camp tomorrow HAHAHA YAY! and i haven't packed. sheesh. hahaha.


i'll do anything to let you know how important a friend you are to me.
so friends forever was a lie? or maybe you din even realise how you've left me in one corner of your brain, until one day you saw something which reminds you of me.
say 1 day, 1 year, 10 years.

or never.

but you must always know that no matter what happens i will always be here for you my friend.

till i die.


i miss qixuan! AHHHHHHH.
damn, my mum wants to go genting with my grandma, and asks me to go, but like i sit the rides alone meh -.- diao.

i don't know what's running in your head, i can't read your mind. i once thought this friendship will last forever, but now.
looking back at those times we shared, i can't help but feel numb deep inside.
is this the end?
or is this another new beginning?

yes yes , go ruiwen go(h) wanping! : D we will pull through together. 4 more months to syf, instead of thinking the normal way, HEY GUYS WE STILL HAVE FOUR MORE MONTHS TO MAKE IT PERFECT!
cedar choir, voices as one! we'll touch the rest of the world with our voices, our music. we sing OUR song.
from deep within; we can, we will!
if we don't help ourselves, no one can help us. let this fire of passion burn from within each and everyone, it's our common goal yeah :D


choir bbq.
HAHAHA. due to the fact that everytime i meet people im always waiting for MINIMUM 15 minutes, i decided to be PUNCTUAL, and not go early.
until when eli sms me at 837 "where are you?"
i almost fainted. HAHAHAHA.

so we took bus down cos of the 2bucks surcharge which amounts to 50 cents per person actually, then we FINALLY found the tunnel after getting lost for dunno how long inside the estates, and this is the cool tunnel :D



we're jumping okay! HAHAHA. then finally we reached there and realised we're earlier than yunmin they all. HAHA.

anyways, setting up the fire is SO tough. HAHAHA. but we did it anyway : D
random pictures!


by the beach! : D



guess who : D



nicole got cut off )x

presenting to you,

(:

oh we rock so much!




街道静的刺耳
夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前
先上车 不会不舍
承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得
不想再拉扯

我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛

我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记
我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年
的快乐 只是偶尔

回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可


nice songgggggggg! (: YAY. im waking up so early because i slept so early ytd thanks to my DEAREST PARENTS! wow.
let's see. my cousins flew to us already! and im stuck stuck stuck here. sent qixuan an sms this morning. hahaha IM SO NICE LAH SIGH YOU BETTER APPRECIATE OKAY. i bought huiyi's present finally.

& anyways. i already got my answer. if i don't try, i will be letting down myself, and probably others, and many more.


psyduck.
confused. too many things happened today.

should i grab hold of this chance, or should i forgo it?
should i turn this into a fairytale, or should i leave it into God's hands?

no lah i should just stone on my bed! x)


maybe. that question strucked me alot.
im still thinking. haha. such an irony. ask my heart, no answer.
not as if i am managing my life very well.
i shall take time to write to wanping.

i found out interesting stuffs about ltc from my junior, HAHAHAHAHA! damn funny. if i tell anabella she will like burst or sth : D
and i just found out yuyuan's bday is one day before mine oh yayyy!

im stuck in this freaking dilema (however u spell it).
i can't finish my work. tho i will try to finish it by next friday. let's see, so many lah, unless i really put my HEART into it, maybe i can afterall.
eng - 2hours. chi - 3hours. amath - 2hours. bio - 1hour. phy - 2 hours. ss/ge - 4hours. chem - 4 hours.

total time i 'd need: 18.


i m declining so many outings. whats wrong with me!
im still thinking over that. should i even answer the question properly, so what if i do, and so what if i don't.


i hadn't had a moment of peace since i came home. you people don't even let me sleep, and try all ways to wake me up. just scram man.


back from ltc and class chalet.

that morning was totally, diao. i mean you wanna attack then attack all of us right. ass. then had test. AHAHAHA. alot of people cannot answer that question i set : D WOOTS! this is sadistic. okay. then had first aid practical. the two of them made me and fadhilah laugh until she almost rolled on the floor -.- then we began marking the papers etc etc. congrats to the people & well done man : D

then i went low E and quite fun lah, hahaha they had funny cheers! and poor debby got so many mosquito bites >.< mohawk walk made so many people fall down haha. then i got duty. AHHHH. dearest yuyuan and bella pei-ed me! HAHAHA. then went for dinner, damn hungry okay. i can't rmb where were we during A&C. LOL! anyways, at some point of time ORR and first aid were talking lah. then yuyuan slept. and woke up looking so sick!

was sleeping on floor at night, SO FREAKING COLD. i woke up like 10 million times cos its cold, wanting to find people sw-king at night, but din lah. LOL. and my mummy's beside me! HAHAHAHA. and qm's with us too! with vicky's mengmeng HAHAHA i think of it i want to laugh LOL LOL LOL. suddenly the whole world wanna come fab to sleep HEHEHEHE!

dorm check in the morning was . . . anyways! sunmeng and adlin left for competition, supposed to come back at 12, but like at night then come back ,scare us can! then we did pt with the campers HAHAHAHA. and went for field cooking. ahhh. charlie's chicken is nice, but indigo05 nicer lah. HAHAHAHAHA. L L L . then i was at high E for 6 hours, and i din get tanned or red. AHHH . SO SHI BAI. 6 hours okay!!!! -.- belayed with sarahteh and arica. AHHH i cannot stand sarah man ): you so er xin. HAHAHAHA! i think our necks all gonna break lah. i was quite happy cos like almost all the people who went thru hanging logs went thru, yeah. : D then jiayuan kelly and i forgot who did challenge pole okay, i want )x HAHHAHA! kelly was so funny when she's on top. vulgar ah! HAHAHA

and i went to take photo with cheryl and alicia. HAHHAAHA. and spot jessica flirting again -.- SIGH! quote sharron, she is flirting everywhere. SIGH SIGH SIGH! : D how, im still not tanned. anyways then we got to do flying fox, if everyone rmbed, which i think almost the whole oal board knows, why i did not get to do it last year )x LOL! better than arica who screamed all the wya, hahaha, there was this camper, i dunno who, screamed all the way damn loud until all the high E people stare at her LOL. and i was the only one who shouted when coming down "FIRST AID ROCKS" then suddenly i rmb the two of them went for labrador challenge -.- HAHAHAHA. then went to do structure. yeahhh. and field cooking, damn funny. then i forgot what happened, i ended up in fab anyway HEHE! and ldr zhenluan and ldr nessie came to talk to us (: AHHHH. it had to rain.

u know what, i thought of the rain as a symbolic event for the camp. like u know when we did sec2 lit then the rain is some blah blah symbol for bad things, this rain is the aftermath of this whole, camp. right. HAHAHAHA. anyways! we all were doing some spastic thing with the cut-ed songs and all : D DAMN FUNNY. somewhere during the camp sunmeng and adlin came back! and they got in finals. haha. anyways i must mention that ELYSSA'S STOMACH ROCKS : D! yeah. the only funny thing was "YO YO". in the end, they cancelled our item. right. just ended like that, yayyyy, and we took photo with. ahhh when all our hair is so messy. LOL LOL!

night cap and suddenly all the casualties come at one time. tsks. luckily kelly was there : D went for sentry. yuyuan wanted to catch frogs. can you imagine that. OMG. crazy lah. HAHAHA. and saw cats. sheeeesh! and we bathed at like 1+ AM that MORNING :D so cool right. cold like mad. we forgot our towel on first day, and yy almost forgot again. -.- LOL! i so hate cold water, wonder how we bathed with it during oac man. HAHAHA. fire drill was tsks. they din even bother to aiyah nevermind. i realised how nice is it to sleep on the bed. HAHAHAHA. then we went back and sleep.

it was big sweep and asked questions and sigh. nevermind. haha. we still have so much time to think. sigh. hahaha. ANYWAYYYYS! i love first aid department! HAHAHA. ALOT ALOT! : D and you all forget to take the rocks. )x stayed in sch and packed stuff and talked. hahaha. oals <3
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went class chalet. haha. kelly said her jnr say its fun, as in ldrs and campers quite close. ANYWAYS. i saw szewaiy in sch, suddenly they say she at chalet. SHEESH! i thought i see ghost okay. played uno. JOANNE IS MAD LAH KEEP SCREAMING! then it rained and everybody came back tsks. and went white sands and saw my cousin! HAHAHAH. fated. and it was bbq and thank you mr sng and ms wee :D ANYWAYS! the food was sooooo nice, ah, and ice cream. HEHEHE. played water games, was like totally soaked and wet. and watched abit of home run. joanne im damn sorry okay >.< hahaha. thanks for being understanding. yeah. and taking out my specs. haha.

then poof and i went home and started sleeping after a while, din even eat lunch. so hungry.
jiayou for the concert kaiyin! : D and hope everything went right till now. hahaha!

why my child not online! hah.


addict me says:
gahaha
addict me says:
cooolios
addict me says:
must say
addict me says:
i love qixuan
addict me says:
and i do not allow u to add anything tt says i make u type it
addict me says:
or add anything in small fonts or brackets that u dont mean wad u say.
addict me says:
and say u'll miss me when im gone.

u din say i couldn't add in our convo , qixuan! i <3 you! : D



a picture says a thousand words : D

WE ARE SO SPASTIC LAH OMG OMG OMG. this is funny, i have yet to attach rubberbands sheesh! cannot reveal too much, HAH!
maybe it should have been glutton huh? AHHHHH BUFFET ONE DAY! YAY! food : D we just love fooooood (: my lunch was so pathetic lah, now i owe bella $$$ =and yuyuan is making us dreamcatchers! HAHAHHA. then me and bella will have, umm dreams after hanging it by the bed, LOL x)
FIRST AID DEPT ROCKS!
ALOT.
<33

AnD AND AND, i packed my camp bag! later i shall pack my chalet bag! but then i realised a shortage of clothings and stuff etc etc. just burn me lah, LOL.


that was the only way to hold on;

ANYWAYS, HAPPY BIRTHDAY READON AND CHRISTOPHER!! : D 15th & 16th respectively, HAHAHA!
SEE? BE HONOURED. IM HUGE-ING THIS!

i was so, happy when i woke up. but no longer. HAHA. nevermind.

i will be gone next week, literally. HAHHA. you see, mon-wed LTC! wed-thurs CLASS CHALET!<3 fri TJ CONCERT! sun RI CONCERT! mon CHOIR BBQ.
die lor )x so i will be goneeeee!

i don't know how to bring up church camp to my mother. sheesh.


pardon me for my selfishness.

-
confidence is necessary, but i just lack them. the shadow left behind, what remains is in God's hands. i know i had done whatever i can. (like real)
feel it, touch it, sing it.


"Everyone deserves a chance to follow their dreams, but some people only get one shot. "

Are dreams fake, or are they real?
It is so near, yet so far.
Or maybe, the day just haven't come, or maybe, it's long gone.

HAHAHA ANYWAYS! yuyuan is so funny, she finally had a dream after so long, after making the dreamcatcher -.- ! SO IT WORKS HUH! hahaha. yay. you know what's the distinct character of first aid dept?
EATING :D : D :D


im totally okay now.
sorry son for that dao-ing on msn ytd, i guess i just don't know what to say? haha.
it's just me and my bloody mood swings.

have to go back to school tmr AGAIN, for lessons with ms chin. right. i need that one hour. all the glory this year is over. HAHA.

i saw you in school today. i guess i just don't have the courage to talk to you. you were seating there alone then. shrugs.
i totally deserve that death sentence.

from elyrics4u.com old but totally nice song.

An empty street, an empty house
I hold inside my heart
I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.

So I say it in a prayer And hope my dreams will take it there
Where the skies are blue, the sea is once again...
All the seasons coast to coast
Find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green, the sea is once again...

I try to read, I know the work
I left them with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking.
I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together.



cut some lyrics, the "my love" part, so unappropriate!
GRAH. can't believe it, next monday is camp already =\ it's like, so fast. haha.
then november will just end LIKE THAT. wow. amazing : D
and soon all of us can walk in nc16 movie LEGALLY, without QIXUAN THAT IS!
this is so funny, i gave so many toys their first kiss recently, muahaha.
windows vista is going to be out soon, YAY, soon meaning in around 2 mths + time. sheesh.

i just wanna fly.
cos deep down in me, i know i was never "sensible". =\


i have totally no idea. was abit turned off by the fact that .were so, diao.
-shrugs.
i mean like, sheesh man, ahhh nevermind!
is it conscience, or is it marks?
-.-

of cos people will choose marks lah! -laughs in exotic manner.
wow, we do have a bunch out there. like, yay let's clap. no single person beats . in that. even you find 1000 people also cannot lah. . are too powderful. -claps!

i was so tempted to tell you everything, but i didn't.
im still er, staring at my phone's wallpaper, thinking of a thousand things, perhaps all coming down to why am i so stupid.

chenyang's leaving for japan today, japheth's leaving for china 2 days later, then kaiyin's leaving next week, then singyee and jamie will leave for japan tgt, then readon and chris will be going on their competition, then poof everyone will be back someday. HAHAHA. while ruiwen will be stuck here going back to school everyday and well, POO!


i got a shock reading that first few lines,
nevermind.
maybe we need time? = X
-

ah there's tuition later. seriously, i just wanna play thru this holidays. one word: distracted.
im distracted by everything around me. i just realised i have no time to do work at all.
or study, or whatever. why is it this way? complacent?
if sec3 was this stressful, sec4 will be worse.
much much worse. (we all know that, just that now we ARE going to experience it ourselves)
less time to go out, less time to go church even, less time to sleep, less time to sms/msn-ing, less time to connect with my friends, everything!

i have decided that hwachong is a nice place to be in afterall. no one knows the reason why. maybe. haha i just need a temporary goal yeah. to keep me movin'. years ago (okay maybe 2 yrs lah im not that old haha) you told me to get 2 points, i dunno if you meant it or not, you may not even remember it, i rmbed every word.
that was the past. we're all living in the present.

things are damn different now. kaiyin's right. just make the best out of everything now.

was having mass convo ytd midnight. it's like totally lame lah! -.- haha. it reminded me when we used to have mass convos last time, be it with shilbe dahlia they all, or 6a'03.
yes life sucks THAT much.

-
that gave me a special feeling i never had for a long time. haha. -shrugs.

we'll see. 1 year later. haha.


shall blog about ytd,

sophia pulled me to macs with her! and peirong. they ate some coke float thing while after having the first bite of her ice cream, i decided to buy one cone too! 50 cents, HAHAHA reminds me of JIAYUAN )X we took cab to macs lah -.- LOL, 2.50 -.- ! reached church at around one? then realised it's ben thia's bday. HAHAHA. (:

went to market to buy lunch, and er sugar cane juice. LOL! da bao and went back. we were happily sitting outside the chapel to eat then sophia gave her unfinished food to jon soh! then sheena came! then had worship and some talk which was just right lah, communication with parents. LOL. then sheena went home but came back at night!

then the bball game started. sheesh! it was quite fun lah. when me and jiayan was in jon soh's team lost like 4-5? bleahh! then they decided to play half court and 5 of us won : D YAYYYYY!

oh yeah. "made a new friend today!" - quote shengkun(okay i think it's spelt like that HAHA).
this person took like THREE TIMES to pronounce my name.
"peiwen"
"huiwen"
"RRRUIWEN"
diao!

i think i screamed alot yesterday, which explains my throat's current state. =\ HAHA. went to compasspoint for dinner, at first mum din let me stay, then she let! so my face had a 180degrees change LOL. played this new finger-game on the bus and i think we made damn lot of noise on the bus. my jokes were all shi bai thanks to jon soh -.- and diao, then started the school rivalry, hwachong, pl, cedar, and sa (only ben thia) and stuff like ZZZ . sophiaaaa ): hahaha. damn lah, they keep going against us! that shengkun -.- hahaha and charmaine plays damn funny-ly, dun even know when is her turn pls! weimin is silent killer =
ate yoshi, continued playing, which everyone was looking at us lah. sheesh! i ate yoshi twice in a row ahhh. then xiying and her friend came. and when we went back we were STILL playing! madness! went back and played games and photowhoring! whyyy, it rocks. on the way back on the dark streets i think i woke up alot of ppl sleeping =\ first, cockroach (sophia you screamed first :D ) then it was some cat and then a dog. SHEESH!

the first game was rather amusing cos everyone tried sabo-ing each other, only girlfriends tell you the truth. HAHAHHA!
POLAR BEAR. hahaha! im so innocent please, say im the polar bear when it's only because i keep talking. HAHAHAHA. sophia, is so dangerous! i din even know it's her lah. >.< tsks!
then went to cut cake, man, sheena can cook! her chocolate popcorn is like totally nice altho it's so sweet but sweetness is a good thing yeah : D and the pudding treated as bday cakes. man!

i love you guys <3 hahhaa!


i won't want you to forgive me if you don't want to. -shrugs.
it was solely my fault =again, i'm sorry.
thanks for being such a good friend all this while;



i am getting more stupid day by day.


maybe, i had let it go.
most of it at least.
we will meet 25 million years later.
yesterday was our last cell bonding. shall blog about it later with all the photos and stuff. HAHA!
i so regret for not staying. stupid recee.
my parents were pissed at me, whatever lah, i explain to you you don't want to listen, my fault?

i shall try going church more often (:

/edit.

reading cheryl's post makes me wonder what i have been doing today.
1. stare at my wallpaper
2. stare at msn messenger at the group "*(:" hoping you and you will talk to me. im losing you guys, for real this time.


rightttttt.
can you believed it, i attended a 2 hour phy lesson without understanding anything, with mr goh hearing me saying "i dun understand any shit lor!" -.-
and he told me "try to understand abit lah". or sth like that.
):
BELLA WE'RE SO GONNA DIE!
hahaha i want to buy xmas cards can this is so cool i have decided to give presents to some people HAHAHAHA! actually was thinking of buying that thing from ikea like i wanted to last year but had no money, maybe i shld ask mingmei to guide me to ikea HAHAHA since she seemed to know that place so well last time.
then i decided i shld give something from my heart. (now that i own eileen's atriumS)
but i need a working place....
my hse is just too terrible. HAHAHAHA!

fats!

let's see.
i had to make myself feel guilty by recalling that bloody incident, right. the fact that i wanna stay away from chinese tuition is cos BLAH BLAH BLAH.

friends are nice man! they listen to all my nyeh-nyeh-ing and complains about anything under the sun and still offer good logic and encouragements no matter what : D priceless!
whyyyyyy. that's why i love them SO MUCH!

im beginning to think im damn good at acting.
yeah maybe i am.
WOW! yeah. now my tummy hurts after drinking hot soya milk. what the hell.

should i, or should i not!


i want kaiyin now ):

-

cos it all don't matter anymore. like i told my kid, so much for everything.
the moment i deleted everything, it's all over.
AHAHA. life is a funny thing in the first place. each life's a joke to be laughed about. i think right now my IQ is like negative! wow. -stares at myself in amazement.
it really went numb, totally, no matter how hard i tried, i could only smile because it's qx's bday today.
as for tomorrow, shrugs.
i really dunno.

i was hoping i faint while walking at j8 and marina cos suddenly i dun wanna live anymore.
then again, no bella to evacuate me! =\ AHAHA. joking!

everything seems fake?
yes charmaine i wanna emo with you !


i read my last yr's archive. haha. 3months only.
i realised how much things i have lost.

couldn't read on anymore. i will burst.











right.


hahaha.
and soon it will be ltc06!
bleah, i think some of us are getting pissed over stuffs.
just screw whoever,

grrrrah!

if only life was a fairytale, that will be kinda good to a certain extent : D
but just when you are dreaming, reality strikes you. -.-
yay charis you better FIND a date and we'll go KBOX ! (:
woots!

my mummy is funny, now the whole first aid dept knows your secret mummy! HAHAHAHAHA. jinx. went pp macs with jiayuan yuyuan zaferin karen weishan ade mumu kelly bella and myself.
see lah, we all forgotten what is LUNCH, we eat DUNCH (:
or different variations.

right.
and i missed abit of goong again WAHLAOOOOOO!
nevermind, i shld stop myself from getting INTOOOOO these shows. there's so many nice shows.
there's this hk serial my mum got from uncle (dvds) that is chao nice, that made me wanna go africa do voluntary work and become a doctor (for a moment only), okay MAYBE now i know why readonteh wanna become a doctor?

shrugs. never thought of what i wanna be. dun wanna think too much too.
cos it always doesnt work out in the end.

LIFE IS FUNNNNNNY!
right.
if it wasn't for what whoever said, i won't realise how much i love first aid dept! <3
i shall keep stoning and mourning over it lah. whatever.

i never really knew you.




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so , missed extra lessons. choir tomorrow. lessons for rest of the week and piano. yeah. and tuition on sunday. what else. i can't think. seems like my whole holiday for nov is filled up. WHATEVER.

maybe there's times when you just need to be alone. right now i wanna throw stone and go bowling. HAHAHA. suddenly i feel a gush of wind.

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qixuan, happy birthday : D i made you read such a long thing before you came onto this line and read it. HAHA YAYYY! whatever. stupid girl. my first friend in cedar. i love you to bits and pieces man! : D to chocs and candies! RAH. my english is lousy. hahaha. i always say this to you but i always mean it : D
I LOVE YOU!
even if we're not in the same class anymore SEE IM STILL TALKING TO YOU BABY!
we'll continue talking until i die. hahaha! and you will continue brightening up MY life with your rubbish-es! OOPS.

hehehe.


IM THAT BORED :D


Have you;

1. Talk to a boy/girl you like today?
yah! haha.

2. Realize anything new?
life is precious, see im watching educational hk serial :D

3. Talk to an ex?
noooo?

4. Been missing someone?
I MISS MY CLASS AND MY PIGS AND MY POOH FAMILY AND EVERYONEEEE :D

5. Smoked a cigarette?
yucks -.- go and die man .HAHAHA.

6. Got drunk and vomited?
noooooo?

8. Got pregnant/your girl pregnant?
gnd.

9. Got ditched?
i ditch qixuan !

10. Cheated on your bf/gf?
diao! eileen does :D she cheated yunmin!


LAST PERSON WHO;

11. Slept in your bed?
myself lah. then what, i got boyfriend and he come sleepover ah? SIAO.

12. Saw you cry?
eh, px charis quincy and people. hahaha!

13. You went to the campus with?
MY FRIENDS -.-

14. Went to the mall with you?
my mother!

15. Made you laugh?
i self-amuse. :D

16. Said they loved you?
I DUNNO. COME ON, SAY YOU, YES YOU WHOEVER IS READING THIS NOW, SAY YOU LOVE ME :D hahaha!

17. Called you in the middle of the night?
i'll slap the person first.

18. Person you had a crush on?
-.- !

19. Text messaged you?
janice.

20. Sat next to you?
ghost! my ghost friend :D hello! happy halloween :D


WANTS TO;

21. Be a what when you grow up?
HMMMM. shrugs? probably do voluntary work after i graduate first.

22. Have piercings?
HMMMM.

23. Have tattoos?
gnd!

24. Grow till what age and stop there?
HAHAHA. i dun live in self-denial :D aging is part of living.

25. Have a millionaire boyfriend/husband?
then i will be scared of getting robbed HAHA.

YOU'LL RATHER;

26. Story books or Text books?
story books :D

27. Tea or Coffee?
Tea

28. Car of Motorcycle?
wagon !

29. Ipod or Handphone?
handphone. u know know phons have multi-functions, if you dunno you're a big piggg ! HAHAHA.

30. Looks or intelligence?
can i have like 50% of each yeahhhh :D


PLAIN QNS;

31. Best feeling in the world?
when you love people and people love you too! (:

32. Favorite location?
seaside!

33. What are you most scared of right now?
that i will die. haha

34. When do you want to get married?
you can ask me this prolly 10 yrs down the road, when jessica have HIS baby :D HAHAHA.

35. Who do you really hate?
YOU LOR!

36. Does anyone hate you?
qixuan hates me cos she must return me MONEYYYYY now that she reminded me of it : D HAHAHA.

37. Do you like being around people?
being lonely is bad.

38. Are you lonely right now?
AYEEEEEEEEEE. come on entertain me WOHOOOO. goong better start by the time i finish this thingyyy.

39. Song stuck in your head right now?
perhaps love.

40. Been on radio/TV?
both!

41. Liked someone, but you think they never noticed you?
COME ON WHOEVER IS READING THIS NOW, DO YOU NOTICE ME? HAHA!

42. Liked someone who treated you like crap?
hmm i will box the asshole. HAHA.

43. How many beds did you lay in yesterday?
1!

44. What color shirt are you wearing?
PINKKKKKKKK <3

45. Three things that you do every day?
eat comp tv : D

46. Name three things that you do every day?
go toilet move my muscles and sing!

47. When was the last time you saw your dad?
HMMMM.

48. Do you have plants in your room?
yeah,dried flowers : D wanna buy me more?

49. What web site do you visit the most?
blogs and blogs. HAHA.

50. Who got you to join myspace/friendster?
who you talked to 20183746 minutes ago? u don't know right. how would i know : DHAHAHA.


im watching espn goals now. :D hahaha!


hah. shall expand my thoughts. i dunno. i feel lost out of a sudden, that everything that "belongs" to me now will be gone.

what is it that makes us think that you can wake up to see a "tommorow"?
or even simply going to school to see the same people.
or what if all of us stop talking altogether?

that's why such a thing like "promises" exist. because humans are insecure creatures.
or at least i am.
i read some of my archives today. november 2006. jessica, haha, i realised how much we were devoted to indigo(05).
or maybe i'm a weaker person now?

i saw one phrase. "blow hot blow cold", i really don't know what YOU want from me. it's getting harder to simply read your complex mind.

HAHHAAHA. ytd "goong" said about "habits". habits are hard to kick, just like how i always call deborah debby. or just simply screaming when i see sth freaky. or calling huiyi almost frequently. or coming msn and talk to the same people.
cos once you change them, your life isn't your life anymore. they become different.
so different until you yourself cannot recognise it.

-
i talked to mavis today. hah. but sort of "gave up" after a while. will this happen when we all leave cedar? just like what psle did?
changes are the most terrible things in my life.
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only a random note,
OALS '06-07 <3 !


ok. so i spent my first week of hols like this:

mon

chi o's. HAHAHA. it was so terrible i cried after paper1. yeah. see i told you, all the shit. after that went marina to eat :D class outing! woots. but i was bu shuang over one thing. yeah. like why zzzzzzzzzzzzz's there. nvm. then watched prestige. WL. it's nice, only when you realised everything during the last 10 min or so of the movie. HAH!

tues

belay sch 3. shall not comment. HAHAHA. refers to jess's blog.
then first aid and games dept went to buy our bottles! :D see lah, yuyuan and bella bully me -.- -.- -.- ! nvm, now i yue kan yue mei actually. HAHAHAHA. (: went to eat lunch. HAH. yeah, one year.
then me bella debby went vivocity! tsks! sat on sky garden and ate marshmellows! which reminds me that i owe debby A BUCK. cos i treat bella ahahaha.

wed

choir. then went out with qx eileen <3 hahahhaa! we rock lah. yayyy. next mon!

thurs

field cooking. omg our chicken rocks like duno what. JESSICAAAAA. be jealous. it's nice like dunno what! (: i actually touched it with my bare hands. OMG. but it's nice. then played in bball court and left sch at 6+. went bubbletea. HAH. i learnt that kathy is scared of................ :D

fri

choir. and we went marina to eat. wl. subway rocks. HAHAHAHA. bought a skirt. yay. and now im back home.

but i feel like going out again =\ LOL! nevermind.





sometimes, i feel like the whole world are strangers. i feel as if i duno this world, and dun fit in, dun belong to this world.
this time, we both walked out of each other's world.


went shopping without much money with qx and eileen <3
HAHAHAHAHA.

i have to introduce qx's toy,
its a spider, called TOBBY.
it's stupid and i love to bully it,
she's mad you see.
YAY i wanna spin tobby like nobody's business.

i want to many things. we practically went in every clothes' shop at marina.
they made me try on some disgusting top. HAHAHAHA.

i simply love the goong bear! :D i think im siao. when the whole world's crazy over shin, im crazy over the bear. HAHAHAHA.
bella says it weighs 2 kg! siao lor, heavier than my hand. HAHHAAHA.

im so bored i have nothing to do.

ooo field cooking tomorrow HAHAHA -.-

and you irritating peopleS stop probing about o's man, what has it got to do with you guys, BLEAH. i had like at least 6 msn convos popping out on monday itself, SO SO SO DAMN IRRITATING.
u want to know right? wait long long lah.
wait for the sky to drop.
XP

the reason why im going out everyday after going to sch, is because i hate this home THAT much.

now my hair is disgusting, bu chuang bu duan. YUCKKKKS.