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Sunday, December 31, 2006
like what cy smsed me, last day of the year :\
happy enjoying the remaining 10 hours and 41 minutes.
I HAVEN ASK AGAIN YETTTTT.
grah.
anyway, HAHAHAHAH, guess what im so gonna burst soon they say choir pracs are gonna end at 6.30 now?!!?!?! and wednesday until 6. o.O
faint.
really lah. sigh. boohoooooooo. there goes my precious time which could be meant for sleeping.
AW.
anyway, i have yet to pass some ppl xmas presents which is zomg i scared it spoil leh. ytd i ate 1/3 of a cake, then found it mouldy, how wonderful. now my stomach really feels weird man. and it isn't cramps. HAHAHAHA.
DIE. it still feels weird.
but anyway, jiayou to dynamite : D : D : D
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. my stomach. God bless me man!
u know u have almost the same resolutions every year. yet like accomplish none leh o.O
maybe, some.
HAHAHAHAHA.
huiyi's blog's mouseeeeey SO CUTE ZZZZZ!
Friday, December 29, 2006
yah right so what the hell you all want from me, study all day? or what, i go church to play and make new friends?
forget it man.
after 15 years of bringing me up you guys dun even know a single thought in my mind, how pathetic is that? awwwwwww!
what must it take to make you all realise that life isn't all about RESULTS.
seriously, im not even pissed or what, im just, disappointed.
in my own parents.
HAHAHAHA. how funny is funny? since when do children get disappointed with their parents?
then maybe i shldnt have this type of results from the start, cos then you guys will continue letting me play.
oh no, i forgot, you guys will LOCK ME UP at home leh! to save your faces and force me to study. zomg, im soooooo scared. AWWWWWW.
no lah best is right, erase my memory, so i can study 24 hours right? then have good results for you to flaunt at your colleagues, whatever.
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
hmmmmmmm. okay you can officially say christmas is over. hahaha.
wow. i have a thousand million things to do but i din. just woke up at 3PM when sara smsed me. (it's always i wake up cos of smses, see, the snoozing of 2 alarms don't work ANYMORE >.< )
not bad, at least i slept for 8 hours. wait till my mum gets back to question me, then im dead.
well, holidays are gonna end soon ANYWAY. everything goes with it. that's the point.
cos im supposed to be sensible to know the consequences.
i jolly well know it.
come&gone.
sometimes timings must be correct. haha. while we were summing up how 2006 has been, yes, it may be the year with the most laughter, however, the most tears too. my faith increased greatly, and i made the most friends this year. i thought i learnt what's love, then discovered it isn't love. i thought i learnt to truely love "our neighbours", but it's tough, eh? but i think i learnt alot, somehow in someway lah. haha.
sometimes, things made me question my definition of FRIENDS. read today's
hopinh 2007 will have a new start, bella tells me she's scared of sec4. who isn't. hahaha. you think i don't wanna "enjoy life" in that way, or keep telling me that "no problem" one lah. -shrugs. maybe that's why i haven't told anyone of you guys why i pia so hard in cedar. LOL.
take things in my stride bah. perhaps, i grew to know another side of the world, the ugly one. or perhaps, its just my naive thinking that i will meet nice people my whole life. okay maybe im wrong, maybe im still meeting nice people this whole 15 years of life, i just haven't got to the real world, yet. haha.
but then again, isn't it good in a sense, too? at least i don't have to think of ppl plotting against me or having a motive knowing me from the start or even backstabbing :\ (okay maybe got ppl do that to me lah i just dunno :\ ) but wah if my life's to turn like that, im gonna faint man.
maybe i haven't grow up, but don't want to, not now. cos, i rather be the zi-high person everyone knows than some emo freak! AHAHA.wait till 2007 ends man then i will have alot alot to say!
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to love or to hate? :i have been having hiccups since i woke up. and it's back now again.
do i really have a talent for baking? HOHOHO.
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
AHHHH shld i go for watchnight? ): or rather am i allowed to go. haven decided if i'd ask my mother. HAHAHAHA.
anywayyyyy. im still waiting for huiyi's sms >.< bet she's stuck in school! got so many things to pass to her. okay actually not alot. 2 presents! HAH.
i figured out ipod's solitaire sucks big time.
someone please tell me when does school reopen? :\ is it 3rd jan or 2nd jan! LOL.
'cause i just realised i duno when it starts.
i prayed for alot alot of things yesterday. or rather this morning. AH, can't wait to open my letter box later since im gonna expect lots of cards LOLLLL.
this post is so random but, hehe! (:
i want a new damn nice bag lah. but there ain't any. ANYWAY, must start saving money AGAIN, for ummmm birthdays. i still owe alot of ppl bday presents.
DIE.
Monday, December 25, 2006
haha. merry christmas to all (:
i think i must be insane to open some 40+++ or 50+? msn windows this morning, only to get my computer jacked itself. well, HAHAHAHA.
i just realised how good vivo city is a place to emo =\ oh well. LOL. thanks for yesterday! "the cable cars stopped again" -pause- "jinx!" zzz. how jinx is jinx! HAHAHA.
oh well, then i went crazy enough to send alot alot alot of people sms-es and make my phone jammed -.- DIAO. hahaha. then talked to sophia until 2+ am and went to sleep eating sweets in my mouth. the POINT is, i never really slept, i mean i still opened my eyes and erm yeah and it was so freaking cold even i had my quilt on and um, i subconsciously realised it was dawn =
then i went to on my phone (cos i realised it's off ) after a while and ummm yay messages come in again. (:
maybe i do sleep-sit. (instead of walking i sit up straight) LOL. well well.
i kind of believe it all ended bah. hahaha. until what my son told me last night that really struck me. maybe, i was wrong afterall.
Sunday, December 24, 2006
maybe the worst of all is that it has to happen at this time of the year, christmas.
it was the saddest xmas eve eve i ever had. today is xmas eve. i hope nothing happens before 12mn again. then again, i don't want anything to happen before tmr's 12mn too.
anything that will cause me to crumble.
is it that i take friendships too seriously?
then again, i hope everything will have an ending by 01jan2007.
OH YAHHH but hahaha tmr im meeting my dear poohclique YAYYY (: and quincy i think. HAHAHA. and im going out for dinner later!
and i received a number of presents yesterday! HAHAHA. which i will upload pictures tomorrow. ((((((:
im like eating apples AGAIN (since i eat them almost everyday).
yesterday was xmas eve eve. it was love letter.
hahaha fiesta was quite fun in that sense zz making our hands sticky with the malt candy and ummm me and charmaine going for seaweed chicken and cheese sausage and tatoo. HAHAHA. and breaking of chopsticks =\ too power already. AHAH. once i poke charmaine from the back, then she jumped, then landed on the floor and screamed lah duh LOL damn funny man >.< and shengkun got frightened or sth by the loud scream haha. she and her nails. then it was service. LOL. the play was damn damn damn nice and all. so many times i wanted to just break down but haha. yeah it was damn good lah! (: and somehow i could relate to all the things during the sermon. sigh. anyway then after that went for cell dinner! so wanted to go home cos of some things but i still stayed on. hahaha. sheena char kara me sharing fats =X lol! then the only thing which made me really laughed happened. 1. screaming after finding out yiming is from ncc. which = to he = my cousin's staff seageant and him taking so long to guess who's my cousin. HAHAHAHA. this is damn fun man! then the cell sat down and talk, yay got new name! mustard sources? hahaa. but wanna be like sauces to others and stuff. yup. <3 sophia darling you cheer up okay, no matter what happens God will be with you and umm us too! -
Thursday, December 21, 2006
I CAN FINALLY BLOGGGGG ZOMG! : D
anyway it was sophia's bday yesterday, so, happy birthday darling! (:
too many things happened recently lah, im at a loss too. the only thing to be happy/not happy about is i left with GE only zomg how pro is pro! HAHAHAHA.
japheth eng is showing me his gay pictures lah, how gay is gay! they take pictures even ummm we din take during chalet ytd. guys zomg. it's solely cos of this person now my phone got duno how many dents lah GRRRRRRRRRR. hmmmph ):
anyway cos yah i was grounded and stuff and yeah. but i think they not angry anymore since they let me go chalet. sheesh i dunno lah i have funny parents. so irritating man.
sometimes, not having expectations is bad. haha. the agony. LOL. it's like ummm i also dunno why am i doing all these =X maybe, just let me continue being crazy till xmas is over. i will then go back to my old path. but eh, nice memories? sheesh -.-
and DIE LIAO i no need to sleep tomorrow man! i haven bought enough rings cos they weren't enough to sell and ummmm haven found all the coloured strings i want and
people are asking me out to exchange presents =X BLAHHHHHHH. sigh. maybe sch reopen bah? HAHAHAHA. i attempted making two incomplete but relatively nice ones this morning in the wee hours. i know im mad. HAHAHA.
shall not say too much =\ u never know who reads your blog and finds out what u do for xmas. HAHA.
Saturday, December 16, 2006
you're right, there's nothing to thrash out anyway.
im asking myself why did things turn out this way lah. or rather, what's God's purpose in all this mess?
i know it's wrong right from the start, but, somethings just can't be helped i guess.
i should just carry on pretending that nothing has happened, that i know of nothing, and so do others know nothing. maybe it would be damn tough, but at least I believe that things would stay the best this way.
at the end of the day it's faking my way through again, this time, even subconsciously.
even if it means deceiving myself.
sometimes you don't need answers to questions in your life.
at the cost of others.
which ironically remind me of one phrase of our medley we performed, why do fools fall in love?
Friday, December 15, 2006
YAYYYY ZOMG sophia just came back! : D
yes yes, who has cookie recipes huh (: or nice ones to recommend! HAAAHA. YAYYYY.
zomg xmas is coming in 9 days woots im like super duper excited okay.
LOVE LETTER. <3
yay. guess what, 2007 is coming. lots of things happened this year as always (how can things not happen in 365 days lah -.- ).
like how some people has always been dearest to me and always there when i need them.
but maybe now. i dunno. AHHHH OKAY. nevermind. shall do chem.
Thursday, December 14, 2006
ahaha. i remembered a funny thing last year xmas. (:
yet you know somethings has changed lah. but whatever. haha. guess what, 26th dec to start of school will be SUPER DUPER DAMN DAMN important to me. i hope i will pull through eh!
anyway the more i look at my xmas cards, the more shuang i feel cos i think its damn nice HAHAHA.
i got reminded of something ytd. God din make humans to study so hard, hahaha if i got to choose maybe i won't want such a life im having now. maybe being simple and living simply is the best way out afterall. i mean look, the first few humans He created is so not like what we are now.
right?
haha. i seriously wanna grow taller man, 166.5cm please???? : D maybe after i graduate or sth i will really go be air stewardess and travel around the world -beams! while you're still young. somethings you'll never know.
should i or should i not?
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
even buying xmas cards can be tiring too ):
cos it's so late to buy them and all the nice nice ones are GONE!
but still, it's when you realise the goodness of ulu ulu shops, cos they will still have loads of nice, NICE ONES :D
be happy if you received one from me, HAHAHA, means i love you alot alot alot friendddd.
nevermind. AHAHA. i tell you, qixuan is like the nicest person to suan : D
Saturday, December 09, 2006
maybe my eyes are the only thing that betray me.
so, anyway, i have been bored, and sleeping alot x)
and yay i haven't bought xmas cards omg omg omg.
which obviously meant i haven't start writing individual messages, HAHAHAHA.
off for ldrs chalet on monday- tues : D
Friday, December 08, 2006
okay. let me blog about sth interesting ytd! i woke up at like 6+ AM which is like damn the earliest during the hols (except for the 1st day of ltc HAHA) and my mum thought i was sleepwalking.
so anyway, if you guys rmb the ACCESSIBILITY BY SEA of our GE eoy mindmap, tanah merah jetty terminal :D LOL. to see those people gg for mission trip off. yeah. i din know so many ppl take boats lah, u know i imagined it to be like a chao ji ulu place with no aircon, nothing. HAHAHA.
then went the market somewhere near bugis to eat prawn mee. tsks. and oh i went in hwachong for the first time and damn , its like horribly huge, like duno how many times times times of cedar )x they got like everything there nevermind, HAHHAA. and played PING PONG. the person who invented the game shld like ummmmmmmm make the ball bigger so its more obvious to the players and you can hit better, HAHAHA!
then went bowling, damn it lah the ball is NOT i crack one lor >.< oh and guess what i saw jonathan tan leh huiyi : D nevermind. HAHAHA. it wasn't supposed to mean anything to dear huiyi. ehhhhh and i went home and slept immediately -.- faint. haha.
on i duno what day, we went yuyuan's hse! HER MUM COOKS LIKE OMG MAD LAH NICE LIKE DUNNO WHAT! : D
at least compared to me and bella's mum.
nice like mad. HAHAHAHA. esp the soup. even nicer than outside stalls'. can go open shop already.
and guess what? i realised alot of people play neopets now. like LOL xD
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
i haven't been so heckcare before.
wake up ruiwen, what's wrong with you.
you will face a damn funny year soon,
stand strong.
somehow an inner voice made me go up to my mum and said,
me: what time popo's house kai1 fan4 every sat ah
her: around 6.30 why leh
me: where got everytime during 7 o clock show what
her: u want to go where this sat
me: church
her: why keep going church
her: you want to tell me you want to go every sat for the next whole year also right
then she went to sleep, without giving me any reply.
damnit.
Monday, December 04, 2006
huiyi's post sent me reflecting, actually i emo like 20/30 days a month lah. -.- just that how much i emo until. LOL. >.<
but the way those eyes met,
that quiet serene,
you were right beside, in front of me,
and nothing mattered at all,
nothing.
yet i know this is the end, haha.
back from church camp, LOS (: hahaha sprite rocks lah, psssssssssssssssssss!
so it started from mad packing on sunday night, and assembling at l4. haha. then got to know the groups and stuff : D and it was icebreakers! supposed to make some virus structure with marshmellows and sweets, hahaha the two messengers shengkun and sophiaaaa! anyways we won first round!
lunch was chicken rice, damn dry can! then ummm telematch, yeah, BANANA and banana skins and water and rubberbands and water balloons and pingpong balls >.< then had skit preparation & our song was if you're not the one, like i never even hear before the song lah sheesh but HAHAHA....
worship was good, then it was the candle thing and me and jiayan went mad we started singing "lalalala" in the tune of london bridge and going up the octave in the pitches HAHAHA so disgusting lah spitting saliva to blow out the fire LOL then someone say that kelvin c guy scared of me -.- supper was cancelled >.< we sang the birthday song in madagascar for CHARMAINE! and its her bithday TOOOOODAY : D happy birthday girl (: bathed with cold water AGAIN ahhh why do camps always relate with COLD WATER but anyways yeah slept after awhile, me and my crappy got hole between sleeping bag logic (:
2nd day! first it was worship then skit preparation which somehow our skit draft idea is there then it was game of life! HAHAHA. run here run there, best part was emelyn and george dressed up as bride and groom cos we decided to marry :D then we had to do some act around coconut trees to cut the number of passing pingpongball around damn spastic lah! we got 2nd, cos that group donated 500 bucks and got back 1000 -.- LOL. yeahhh charity. haha.
then we had skit performance and it was damn spastic lah, the BOLLY BOLLY and rapping part, and their dancing haha : D go sprite! and yayyyyyy we got first for snr division woots how pro is that : D worship was totally good, one word. haha. it's the first time i had such a strong feeling.
underground church, im a spy! HAHAHAHA. the whole world got like cheated by me, except for andrew who smsed me say he knew i couldnt be trusted thus abandoned me and shengkun -.- and say what why my hair become like that now like wthhhhhhhh. but it was short lah, so not say very fun. yeah. then we stayed up the whole night. i din sleep for a total of 31hours continuously lah -.- sheesh!
after supper we started playing funny hand games with thumbs and the dididididi di di! and animal game and change our names and concentration and i cannot rmb but anyway haha then later we went playground. there's like so many stars from the playground lah, then i got reminded of goong! the 25million years later she will still love him thing. haha. i was just standing there lah and leaning against the thing. nice mood to emo. then went to play chopsticks with shengkun and i lost all 2 rounds like diao! then played hopscotch, remembering that damn it i forgot how to play. HAHAHAHA. i rmb last time in pri sch our class ppl used to rush down and chop the hopscotch area >.<
then got chased off, went to MPH and later i decided to go play cards HAHAHA. jiayan is damn funny lah! and jon soh is slow for bridge, hhahaa, either 1. i too pro or 2. i improved or 3. our class ppl pro-er . LOL. anyways yeah then went to bathe and joined in their guys' talk. sigh. anyways then it was day 3 and yeah.
cleaned up, damn tired lah then i tried sleeping in the chapel but some ppl were irritating, and slept for 5 min waking up to see them saying the way i sleep very funny -.- and sprite won firsttttt! larissa sophia huihong me jiayan sheena emelyn guoxiang shengkun george daryl ben neo dexter blah blah rocks SO MUCHHHHH sprite! : D during service wanted to piang on the floor then went 303 to sleep awhile and my hp alarm rang and woke everyone up. then i went home and slept for a whole 6 hours.
went out with sophia dexter guoxiang jonsoh ben neo just now. haha. i decided to be guai and not stay for movie but the ice cream rocks lah! : D