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Saturday, June 30, 2007

if i were to use one word to describe my birthday, it would be "love-filled". couldn't think of any more word more suitable, hahahaha! (much thanks to my limited vocabulary)
and yes, thank God for it (:

and big thank you's to (in no order) huiyi jamie singyee sara charis pinnxian charmaine jasmine cheryl julynn anabella yuyuan weekie qixuan yirong yunmin eileen kaiyin trudy xuemin jiamin jiani melissa yenpin sophia jialing shilbe jessica yusin elyssa wanping liukun adriel(my cousin:D) quincy mengqiao cherissa chriszhao geoffrey shengkun leonard wenxian chenyang collin japheth readon marvin nathaniel jonathan daryl + fabian and nicolas for the minutes-late wishes. lots of <3 for the wishes and everything that you guys have done to leave an impact in my life. (:

i hope i didn't leave anyone out!

party photos another time! hahaha. i'm too lazy :D


i totally like mopped the floor the first time in my life since i've been staying in sengkang. gosh! and huiyi just left my house, after saying she'd help me to tidy my house but all she did was to huala hoop! :| LOL. and we found lots of interesting things inside my cupboard and her dismantled history file.

whee, i'm super sweaty now and i want to sleep. cannot believe that i missed the chance of going vivo for the 30% off at GAP ): it's like SO SO SO much money please! and i miss the green top though i know that it's probably off the shelves now already. boo hoo.

i concluded that my house is far from civilisation cos everyone don't know how to come my house! LOL.


how come is it that i don't remember anything?


so i started studying for chemistry test at like 11 plus?! but couldn't be bothered already. luckily it was... okay. and i will remember concentrated sulphuric acid for a long time, used in esterification :\

i wonder what is it like to always put others before you, and to show such love to people around you. gmary and yunmin were telling me about a story, a story that was real in life. guess some people around us are really so so brave, angels. i got kind of sad in the morning. why do the best people have to die so early? but i believe it's definitely not a life wasted, perhaps a life to the fullest. God has a reason and purpose for all his doings. it just meant returning to God's side. (:

it's just so scary still.

i was saying that they should have the 50 laps thing AROUND singapore, that would be so much cooler. and it'll sure become headlines of the headlines, front page of straits time for sure! the ironic thing is that i don't even know where is the donation card. bless me in my search for it and my chinese textbook 4B ):

anyway, get well soon charis toh the "always and forever babe" :D
to chewy chew chew: haha i let you sabo me one time ? tsks! :D
to the ducky: right, add more protons! LOL.

i haven't see the oal photos yet! hahaha. grah, bio spa tomorrow (real one).


what is real, was a dream

http://www.rahoi.com/2006/03/may-i-take-your-order

it's like SUPER funny and ridiculous man! should start by reading the chinese words, then reading the english translation. BEST ALREADY.

today was boring. i was really dozing off during english lessons and couldn't be bothered anymore so put my head down. :\ ss was FREAKY (as expected) i dunno she just has the way to makes us terrified and making all sorts of emotions run down my spine. so right, 8 weeks 4 days. no, it's only the third day of school. was telling huiyi why does it seems that we're having such a difficult time preparing for the o's while the rest out there seems not to care at all. what a difficult life we have. i'm really scared. it's exactly because i know so well about what's going on that i'm so afraid. seems to be a stupid statement, but it really isn't.

just imagine what life will be like, then.

anyway, guess amath was the really fun part of the day cos we get to "sabo" people! :D sorry chewy. hehe, and anyway he thought i was mad rushing the worksheets just given out today when actually i was rushing the homework yesterday -.-

did i mention that i managed to not UTTER a SINGLE word yesterday for two hours! :D NOW SINGYEE THE GREAT OWES ME LUNCH! (that was my sole purpose for keeping quiet) i realised that after you don't talk for some time, and after this transition period you won't wanna talk to anyone anymore. just enjoying the peace and serenity without my voice and my singings in school. LOL, it is one of the rare moments when i chose to keep quiet, huh?

i'm hoping that i can get the full numbers and finally order the food tonight. things are rush, haha. anyway, it's so painful to hear that we're gonna stay back every wed to do chi papers, every thurs to do math papers, and every fri to do chemistry questions. so prolly soon our mondays and tuesdays will be gone too. grahhh ):

sometimes i feel the shallowness of everything.

In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee.
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife.

you'll never know.


i dislike myself for being so fickle minded ): perhaps i'd like drop the whole idea or something because time is so tight and everything. haha!

you know, it's scary how so much things can happen in a split second.

still kinda traumatized now thanks to HER words.

so crazy.


seems like the first day of term3 isn't that good afterall. i'm already dead beat by now, and yes it's only the first day.

matong's msg made me kinda feel sad. i miss you too <3>unbelievable how 2 years has past since. the days when we used to pop by your room and jump on the beds and sing lots of s.h.e songs >.<

it has just been so long since i'm myself. i think lots of people realised it, just that nobody really pointed it out.

know what, term start is actually a good thing in disguise. when i'm busy = not much time = time either go to sleeping or studying = no time to think about stuffs. yay, we should pop a champagne to celebrate it now. since there isn't much time left.

have been thinking real hard about everything's that will/is going on. sometimes i'm just really too stubborn for my own good. no, i'm the one owing all these (you called it) debts.

真的真的好想念好多事情

但有些事一旦错过了
就不能挽回。







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anyhow, went to pizzahut to eat :D okay what else do i do right except for eating right. haha. and that's why i'm really full now. because i still ate dinner and i have cake later on. LOL.

Sunday, June 24, 2007

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sch is reopening
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ahhaha




!@#$%
i don't want to be stuck in reality real time (again). it's just like, a bird flying, got shot down, injured, put back into the cage. not as if the bird's flying damn high or what but.
if change = constant, does constant = change? then constant will not be constant anymore OKAY WHAT TALKING ME.
i have some bad feeling about tomorrow and for the rest of the weeks, i really wanted to say that night that i know everything will not be the same, i really know. yet all i could do was to allow my nerves go loose and be useless for once, no courage to pluck to allow my mouth to say those words.
sometimes it's just that breaks ain't enough to keep one lasting, breathing. i don't know.
i hear people saying.


you're strong.

WHEE I AM SO DEAD. wanted to do the eng essay yesterday but apparently i got spammed majorly on msn. imagine 7 convos at 1AM, WHY DOES PEOPLE NOT SLEEP?!

and since when was myself such a last minute person :\ GRAHHHH. i don't understand why. i have this rushing adrenaline in my veins and im so motivated to do work (don't ask me why am i HERE then)

yesterday was my grandma's birthday celebration! and tomorrow's gonna be my mum's birthday! and sat's gonna be MY birthday yayyyyye. :D i hate my cousins, they're all so tall like nearing 180cm?! and they're like comparing who's the tallest and thus the name of SHORTIE arrived, but gabriel the shortie is still like i dunno, 177? AHHHHHH. i love food. HAHAHA.

jiayou to my cousin and those who have cts from tomorrow onwards :D

marvin says im emo but IM NOT AT ALL.

okay damn so here it goes again (i think people think i mad alr lah wth), my aunt confirmed the thing that if you don't get in hc using prelims, you can think of not getting in ever again. GOSH.
am i supposed to be stressed! ):

OKAY DIE, THERE'S BIO SPA IN WEEK ONE.

YAY RUIWEN JUST SHOT HERSELF TO DEATH.

=) (some pig asked me to insert this)

Friday, June 22, 2007

in fact, nobody really knows each other. perhaps it's cos everyone in this living world is superficial to start with. look at the days when men could go without clothes, that's the supposed-to-be world. apparently, some form of evilness came into humans right.

i dunno, seems like everyone around me is being "emo".
and seems like i'm the only "fine" one.
oh but trust me, . . ..
seems to me like i miss my old self confidence self.

so to speak, we'll never really know what's life until it's really gone.
i'm sad because i've got no nice books to read and there's compo to be done.
and i'll do it tonight.

a thousand million possibilities with no chance to take.
i miss late nights where time stands still with songs to make.

okay here it goes, j8 macs DOES have many funny people in the unearthly hours in the morning. first, we saw this mother not letting her daughter play gameboy cos she herself was occupying it. yesterday, we saw this quite young mother with FIVE sons, and the eldest is like quite old :\ then all the five sons are like according to height, the small ones DAMN cute. but she's so young! :D eileen shall give birth when she's 26 so i can play with her babies. YAYE.

why i woke up so early today? because i woke up to reply yunmin's msg and i can't get to sleep after that. and i used my bolster as the pillow and im now suffering from aches in my shoulders !@#$%^&

i sometimes wonder if stars do fall'

WOOTS ITS 1.15 NOW and i found out something DAMN DAMN DAMN AMUSING that's gonna happen tomorrow!!!! okay i sound excited but seriously, it's so funny i'm gonna have a good time laughing. xD

Thursday, June 21, 2007

I LOVE PUDDINGS JELLIES :D

so excited please! its like only 1 more hour and 8 minutes. YAYE! few know what i'm talking about but NEVERMIND. whoooosh :D

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

i have an urge to run away from reality

sometimes its the simplicity of lives that leaves you in awe

no i'm still stuck here

and its back to square one

uh huh.

they flash up in the dark
like a deep bright mark

your throat eats up the words you want to say
you find yourself in such a tearful state

what's to be said will be said
and what's to be done will be done

when words reveal and you catch the chill
nothing beats more than having someone in you

a long way came and a long road goes
things will run smoothly the way it flows,
back then

a thousand million question marks
who's to say that it will get cut

promises that will not break
so today we'll give the take.

px's party on monday! haha. her house is hard to find please, and you can never make it home by WALKING. that's what cars are for anyway. :D i should have just ate more grassjelly because i didn't die of cramps today and tada ruiwen the great survived :\ played LIFE which was oh-my-tian you could ask huiyi why would we enjoy it. and so yusin and i went down to view the fishes and the house and damn its drop dead gorgeous, not the fishes but the furniture and all, and the swing <3 and food! and opening the presents were funny, :D:D i mean reactions of px. YAY. and nice huiyi fetched me home!

when did we become such strangers;

Monday, June 18, 2007

i'm too sick to move anywhere cos the pain is getting zzzzzzz.

(edit)

i wonder how life will be in jc, more mugging huh? poor everyone's mid yrs are after holidays like can you imagine it >.< HAHAHA. e.g. chris the pig says that he is studying or going to study on msn so often that it's making me DAMN guilty for not studying and that's why my bio textbook is on my lap now and i'm gonna finish reading up the later chapters and complete the tys mcqs for 4 chapts of chem and 3 chapts of bio i think. hopefully. when i only have one hour left. gosh. ah i need hot drinks ah no ah im going crazy ah boo ):

i don't need reasons for these.

shilbe is like SIAO now. :D
and stupid charmaine ng is not replying me !@#$%^

i think i'm totally bad nowadays and being nonchalant to everything surrounding me and less tactful.

♥ pigs can fly.

Sunday, June 17, 2007

THIS WEEK IS THE WEEK .. to MUG REAL TIME :\
okay i sound like i'm obsessed huh.

"i tried to be a nice guy by coming across as if we share the same problem, i.e o's kae

just that my problem is 1/8 of urs"

WHY DO I EVEN BOTHER TALKING TO SUCH PEOPLE. GOD.




okay i've decided. something about no room for accidents?

I AM GOING CRAZY WOOTS!

who knows when i've posted 600 entries.

i'm confused every night since 3 days ago, whether or not to take up that chance.
>.<
any life is a life of game anyway, you gamble, you lose it. maybe you'd win once in a while, but nobody is always a winner.
so there, the odds are simple. it's more like, you win or you don't gain nor lose. so it's actually a win-win advantage eh?
just 过不了我自己这一关, it wouldn't be the case if i hadn't been so stubborn to set my goals so strictly in the beginning.

humans always pay a price for whatever they do, big or small.

-

tuition was zomg today again. haha! was practically laughing half the time, uncontrollable man.
people, say more "thank you"s next time! :D if not later people will say that you have no manners!
what comes after Z? "your a levels"
some PEOPLE just have to remind others that they have NO O LEVELS / PRELIMS TO STUDY FOR.
got a froggy keychain from dylan while cy took one that looks like him. HAHAHA.

Saturday, June 16, 2007

watched this damn old show which the tv station repeated AGAIN, and make me realised AGAIN that ice hockey is damn tough! firstly, you need to know how to iceskate SUPER WELL, then learn how to hold a stick and still skate and how to make a goal :\

i wonder how passion drives people through their lives. it's just unbelievable how someone's life could revolve all around one thing, and one thing only. something like without that particular thing you will cease breathing altogether, cos it means so much, so dear.
that's cos i think no one around me will be so noble in the sense. seems like scoring those a1s are the only way out in life, that's before finding another way. cos at least you know you've something to fall back on.
perhaps we all have made sacrifices in life, yet you don't really know if it's worth it cos you can't exactly walk back to where it'd all started out yeah?
no, some of these are involuntary, yet it comes in some form of a need, to carry on.

i think i will like appear at the party after tuition, taxi would be a BOMB because it's peak hour. >.<

need to make Chemistry Physics and Biology my heart.

Friday, June 15, 2007

time really flies, no it doesn't

humans have a common flaw, as such the chinese phrase of "失去了，才懂得珍惜" arises.
they've all been saying that it's big time to move on, but some scars don't recover eh.
yet what is worse than being separated by life and death, two different dimensions altogether?

haha have been so caught up with reading my eyes are SO SO SO pain, due to the fact that i lie down and read :\

words are powerful.

Thursday, June 14, 2007

chemistry is like a gun pointing at my head, ready to shoot ):
HAHAHA.
what a good description there, even huiyi who wanna "act pro" cannot act pro, still need textbook! :D the point is even if you take the textbook into the examination hall, you still can't score full marks.
so why try so hard you may ask.

well well, the television says that for anyone in the world to get to know anyone, the probability is like putting a needle in a field and pouring weed over it, hoping the weed will land on the needle.

listening to: all good things (come to an end)

julynn claims that she is the CMP, central music cos she has the song i want :D
i can't imagine that they are going to paint my wholeeee estate ORANGE, when it was originally green my fav colour ):

i had the most ridiculous dream yesterday, though it's a good one! dreamt that we're all back into the same choir again, but impossible because ym will never go to hc. oh well >.<
you know i'm wondering why am i not stressed up yet when i have only HOW MANY DAYS x 24 x 60 x 60 seconds left!
woke up before 12PM today which is considerably good, so shld make the best out of today and eat icecream, haha.

am still currently reading ps i love you (don't ask me why i'm so slow). sometimes there's really a purpose for everything, just that it'd be too much of a chore to actually sit down and analyse WHY this big question mark. if someone was to capture my life into a film, i bet it'd actually be boring 60% of the time. the word "treasure" is too big to handle.

to chewy: get well soon! :D

we all know why.

Wednesday, June 13, 2007

because what's left, is an empty street; even the leaves are shattered.


i concluded that life for holidays ended last week. how good can it be when both my parents are enjoying their leaves at home watching me? passing comments like "someone hasn't finished her homework" or like "don't sleep so late" (all the way since 9pm thanks). it's so totally getting on my nerves, neurones, stimulus being their voices and the effector being you seeing smoke coming out of my nose, right.

or let's just hope that nightmare will be over, soon, and we'd all end up in HC :D

i'm beginning to become a 100 years old lao ren i bet even when i reach the age of 100 (if i've got a chance to) i'd have no energy to whine and type so much...?

drinking milk at 1AM kills you. now my nose's like all screwed up and runny and blocked and swollen and why, because i drank cold milk at such weird hours. so don't ever do that!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

it's like yirong's birthday tomorrow so advanced happy birthday tigggger<3 :D
-

I　ＦＥＥＬLIKEＩJUSTＷＡＮＮＡＢＡＮＧＭＹＨＥＡＤAGAINSTＴＨＥWALL
ＢＥＣＡＵＳＥIＨＡＶＥＮＴDONEＡＮＹＷＯＲＫAGAIN ):

shall stay up to do physics and finish that math graphs in like 20min :D

totakemybreatheaway.

okay i woke up at some unearthly hour of 4PM again );
what's my prob, planned 10 hours of proper work and it'd all be in vain unless i sleep at 4AM :D

i know why i don't get fat despite eating so much, cos i don't eat breakfast! and all other people do.
scares me when there's only SO LITTLE TIME left for SO MUCH THINGS.

eileen says, if life could be like maths, it would be so much simpler. with only one correct answer in the end. i say that if life could be like maths, mine won't be so screwed anymore.

you know sometimes it's just like, refusing to accept the reality, whatsoever the reality might be in this case.

guess it's became the sole truth that we are no longer living in our past glories, all the gwh and golds at hawaii?
it's time to move on.

without the seniors, everything.

it's time to buck up ruiwen, for good.

Monday, June 11, 2007

something damn hilarious happened during tuition today which shouldn't be elaborated on but it was so funny me and char were still laughing over it after everything ended.

i just got to know that "gentle" monsters exist?! :D AHA.

i feel like snipping off my hair and i think i really should cos the weather is getting unbearable!

Sunday, June 10, 2007

i woke up at 3PM today and everyone at tuition thought i was referring to 3AM :D and we're sparred from the agony of writing 5pages and above because lin lao shi overshot the time and we're left with barely 15min to do a compo, like wow o.O

getting SO forgetful that i'm forgetting all the proper businesses ):
DIEEEE.

Saturday, June 09, 2007

i have so much to talk about today! haha.

mr and mrs sng. LOL. was kinda late for the wedding because the church's like rather small thus it can't be really found, and sing's mum isn't really sure of the way. plus, why the hell are they pruning trees on a saturday afternoon?! sheesh! but we arrived before everything started, after everyone was seated. hehe.

guess i'm not used to singing "old" songs of prayers, anyhow. the whole ceremony is DAMN cool, including this super mini bible we've got as a "door gift". haha! [: but i think strong words are like used throughout. makes me think that i won't wanna get married! HOHO. but hey, we all witnessed this union of mr sng and wife! i think she looks better in person. hehe! i think our presence was really like WOAH i mean who else will cheer in a wedding except, school girls! :D AHAHA. was trying to spot our class pic in the powerpoint and was shocked to see it even tho i was really expecting it :D YAY. why did we even go AWWW when they kissed! haha.

but had to leave halfway, at least after the exchange of rings and stuff. rushed off to toilet alone and took cab down, reach like 430 and the choir was alr having prac. ): and i missed the phototaking thing lah. >.< and px told me about the wonderful food like wth. FOOD. choc fountain. AHHHHH. i should just have ponned choir. but anyway.

when i reached the ucc hall, was given directions by all kinds of people. guess it's really obvious that i'm a true blue cedarian (tho not in my blouse) :D and kinda got lost in the air-conditioned staircase cos the person directed me to the dressing room -.- and found nobody there, went up, but i forgot which level i came from so i just kept climbing stairs and eventually decided to check every level to find the hall because i can hear their singing everywhere!

tada, finally. voice wasn't so great without warmups and after all the screamings and WOOOOHOO-ing. and wanping cannot even hear me sing when i'm like quite loud in normal pracs ): haha. when prac finished went to the cool dressing room as i've heard of and YES it is DAMN COOL. it has like a dressing table for everyone with lightbulbs surrounding the mirrors! camwhoring started. LOL, in qx's cam, and her unfruitful attempt to act tall! dinner was like veg, egg, drumstick and rice with gravy cos the gravy from the chicken spilled. quite nice! i eat ALL kinds of rice even tho it's kind of sticky and eunice hates it :D

after all the qxmakesyunminhorny and laughing all the way, yes we're on stage with salve and two german songs! i so hoped that salve would be in pitch, but it wasn't. but i guess it was better than syf in terms of pitching but lack lustre in terms of emotions. gahhh >.< ran barefooted to be back in the hall watching the austrian choir in 5 min! yay i can run :D HAHAHA, was more of chasing wp. changed and got into the hall and yeah. they sang our lenggang and CHANMALICHAN! :D:D:D:D:D standing ovations babehs :D and the family playing the harp,violins and hexaphone is TOTALLY COOL, like 音乐世家 please!! talented. i bet the pianist got a degree or sth cos her playing is so good, every note is well handled of and crisp and her emotions and dynamics and lines were all WOAH. [[:

thanks to everyone who wished luck / went to support us. :D :D

its like really our (sec fours) last time singing on the stage, with the rest of the choir. it's the same people who've went through syf and everything.
cedar choir <3

its morning now, good morning everyone! HAHA.

Friday, June 08, 2007

sometimes it's lil actions that make you feel loved. went ely's house today with wanping and eileen after eating my first breakfast in TWELVE days at macs :D and was totally stuck in doing the chemistry prelim papers. guess my chem DID deprove because i practically forgot everything that we're taught on before. ): but ely made these cut-ups for us! W,E,R inverted?! haha. thanks <3

you know, sometimes i don't understand these things a bit. can time be used as a measurement to the depth of these friendships? even friends whom one may know for barely a month agrees to support the concert one singing in for the last time this year, they'll be there. yet some... i don't know. infer yourself. shouldn't be expecting anything at all.

hopefully char huiyi chewy and julynn has successfully presented their routine in the most fab way it can be done by now :D

i NEED to be taught how to use this PHOTODJ thingyy in the phone. e.g. adding PIGNOSE! :D

global warming is becoming even more serious than ever, gosh. look at how fast my ice cream melts under the hot scotching sun?! it's like practically gone in 5 minutes, (eaten by me, HAHAHA (: ) and what is left behind is almost a quarter of melted ice cream which tastes HOT, not chilly hot but sun hot.

maybe we're all too young to understand, "huh"?

Thursday, June 07, 2007

):

no, my life won't be filled with sad faces and tears no more.

right.

i like blogging in midnights :D

yet i have nothing special to speak of, except that i'm TIRED and HUNGRY and SAD.
and poor huiyi+char+chewy+jul's got dance tomorrow until 10 :\ while i'm gonna stone at home feeling all hungry and waking up in the afternoons and what more.

never thought that all would come this far and end. yet i know that i won't ever do such a thing to spoil such perfect cadence, no courage, no nothing.

didn't know kaiyin is overseas?! until i asked natball just now. ahhh ): JAPAN ZOMG.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

i think it's high time i start going church again.

anyway i came online to continue doing the byj which i owed ms wee since start of holidays but instead found a bomb in my email. of around 10 mb, see, bombs ain't miniature at all. ok, i guess like chief says, it's really the last time.

if we're to list down all the last times in our life, we'd be able to list out one million things, except the one millionth and one thing - the last breathe. :D because you will die even before you list it down, TADA.

dreamt that i forgot to bring the invitation for mr sng's wedding :\ LOL, in the end i slept all the way till 3PM cos im finally feeling my stomach growling in my dreams.

piano later = ggx. i can predict the future SO WELL, and that next week onwards would be pretty much hell because i'm gonna start revising everything that needs to be done ):

watched some documentary about millionaires and they featured akam khoo (?! wth) and he's saying something about, those who inspires gets inspired at well,

Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

YO! i just slept for 3 hours but i'm quite sleepy. woke up to off the comp but found 9 convos like o.O

am getting tired easily these days. even a (: can mean so much? haha, jamie's like spamming me with all the "(:"s now.

sometimes i think that i've got too much around me that God decided to take some of the things close to my heart away. it's all so fragile, so hard to grasp hold on.

did i mention that i kinda "found" my kindergarten best friend! gosh, the world's like just SO small please. rmbed that when i was young we used to create christian names of our own, for e.g. permutation of our names since both our names were 3-worded and tada got new names on our own. LOL. >.<

when we were still kids.

i shall try to optimise my time for serious work and stop going out everyday and coming online but nyeh, i shall not come online anymore but i will haha.

:D
i know eileen's out now and i'm gonna be out soon and i woke up before 10am today AGAIN :D

\hope that this is gonna be a good decision, making time up for tuition >.< style="font-style: italic;">p.s. i love you and im soon reaching 100 pages but there's 500 pages in total so oh well but nyeh i'm gonna read it cause i bought it for freeeee! no, it isn't gss. HAHA. kinda sounds like a name of some weird chinese drama but never mind about that it's so sweet!

'cause everyone needs a guardian angel.

it's about this woman whom married this guy and they're like best friends, soul mates, life partners and everything and they can even complete each other's sentences (damn sweet right, but eileen says its scary LOL) then one day the guy got tumour and finally he died so her life sank into total distress (like duh again, who won't) and she couldn't pick herself up despite so much concern from her family and friends and one day her mum remembered receiving an "envelope" which was found to be a postage called "the list", her husband wrote it without anyone knowing. it comprises of what the husband and her joked about like what if one day one of them ain't around anymore and stuff, so the list went on and on.

ultimate. HAHAHA.


it's like 4 minutes to 12 and i shall make a quick post, hahaha huiyi i like you lah! -.- gosh, lousy inference! :D
i know why oral in jc is called hui4 hua4! cos nobody can speak chinese now, neither you reading this nor me!
today had been good! it's the ol'
forgot to mention that we played at the playground at j8's rooftop and was SO spastic, my fbts were jamming and i cannot slide down the slide and got stuck (not cos im fat okay!) and eileen happily went down the slide with humps.
no swings ):


went out with eileen<3 to do homework! even tho i give up doing everything i did halfway through but ok, at least i did something and for the first time in the holidays i woke up before 1PM on my own accord without any strings attached (like school). :D
MILKTEAAAA. hahaha! then qixuan pops out of nowhere with clara like so freaky please! dumb bear actually thought that there's choir today?!

yes eunice, i totally missed that and i'm glad!

have to go to pay money tmr like ?!?! who is freeeeeee :D


all i need to spoil my day was one sentence, ouch.

surprisingly, it hadn't really taken effect over me, i guess all these while it hurt so badly that another so-called blow wouldn't matter since my heart can't feel the pain anymore. haha, no it's becoming stone, then maybe someone could take take it and throw into the big sea and rest assured this stupid stone will produce lots of ripples because every ripple represents every form of release.

sounds stupid.

but do i care? no.

i so wanted to wait and ask you to go the concert but i always get the same answer, so why bother asking this time? to make myself surrender more to my good friend reality? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.





played monopoly with my cousins and despite so many tricks the younger one still won !@#$%^ i figured out why monopoly is called monopoly because it means that whoever had the sole monopoly to the whole situation wins?!
correct me if i'm wrong.

i want to finish the holiday homeworkS but my brain is not working well with my body, how sad can that get?!

what's left =
english compre/
chinese compo / chi byj / 3 chi papers/
math GRAPHS ):
bio essay questions
everything of physics
2 chem prelim papers + all the electrolysis whatever blahblah worksheets

))))))):

what's done =
math and math and more math
bio mcqs + section B

damn, thats all. HAHAHA. okay wth.

geof' says:
L1B0
ruiwen! they die down after a life of splendour; says:
its R not B what B u talking about?!
geof' says:
really
geof' says:
i thought B for best 5 subjects

-.- -.- -.- -.-!!!!
the result of being in "throughtrain"

six!


maybe you should never come back- the perfect way of escaping reality

i shall make good use of my words i've said yesterday, the only place. time travels so fast its more than 3x10^8 m/s.
i miss eileen ):


2nd dilemma. i can officially lose my voice now! : D after all the abstaining-from-fried-food which never proved successful anyway.

went to ps in the morning only to find none of the shops OPENED because it was so early, guess what, we saw joanne and kurinchi :D walked around and still, none of the metal shuttles were lifted, thus alas, homework in KOPITIAM. which was only a few amath questions anyway. what got into me ): and i finally know how is brad pitt, :D sing is always going crazy over that stupid skull head, haha :\

and rushed back to school for choir, only to find myself soaked in rainwater the moment i step out of pp mrt, nice esther offered me her umbrella if not i'd be even more sick now! thanks :D soaked to the skin, even by 7PM my shoes and socks were still wet and i feel the rainwater covering every surface of my skin, cooling effect huh?

walking in the rain, alone, makes me feel emo all over again. ouch, that sucks. our paths will never cross again, i'm so positive. ti's the last time i swear, even tho swearing doesn't help much anyway, where has forever gone to? lalaland. and sadly i don't have a compass which points to where my heart wants me to go, or rather it's been dug up long time ago and never returned.

and tada stepped in HC again, such a different feeling. haha, the people there are SO NICE please! like trying to tell us not to be nervous and stuff and smiling <3 i'm so proud of my cousin! HAHA. i bet no one has a nicer cousin than mine :D:D:D:D:D

thanks to the rain, my ipod is spoilt, almost. ggx.
can just go bang wall now huh, i wanna sleep until 6PM tomorrow, even if it's bad.


it's over i guess :\ come to think of it whatever i said was kinda funny >.< ahhh spastic.


on a cold chilly morning (yes, it's past 12 already), yet i have a thousand million question marks in my head.
ask me why and i'll ask myself why instead.
everything just feels strange to the heart. i have this sudden urge, but what good will it do? no good. cried on 1st day of june, how well will it denote the rest of the days?

friendships that are gone can never be retrieved. maybe.
how about 30 days to my birthday?