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Friday, August 31, 2007

can't believe 4m is going to be over, soon.
our teachers are the best on the earth anyone can get :D
we're all in this together! :D
love.

saw cherissa and elvis today :D hurts more to say goodbye. cos after this, even 4m is going to go separate ways (just admit it eh?), don't know when i'll ever see them again. unless i decided to go for vj, i can see cherissa everyday and continue bullying her, like me and eunice have always do. makes me miss the old times. <3

sometimes relationships are just so, weird, tangible. lose one, find another. cause it's breaking my heart.

apparently, 50laps@cedar's highlight was our tshirts :D yay, who dares to say my handwriting is bad cause i wrote about 3 shirts? HAHAHAHA. camwhoring and taking class picture (charis counted only 36 cows were there) was the best part, undeniably.

nobody from 6a went back today, i guess? haha. was stunned when rayson and shihuan started asking who's going back, bad planning. see how i've mentioned about separate lives and paths?

the dark and the silent assembly kind of reminds me of camp times, yusin must agree with me! HAHA. what about keep holding on?

was supposed to be a happy day, and i end up feeling sad again. :\
something wrong with my neurones lah. LOL.
sweat + happiness + sadness = touched in the heart.

i think marathon runners have mental powers that are simply extraordinary. mr goh and mr tay ftw! :D

going round and round in circles.
we'll just have to wait and see, how big these circles are.

actually, the more deep it seems, the more shallow it really is.

(this post is sooooo random that i highly doubt anyone understood everything that was not meant to be understood. HAHA)


and hope my dreams will take me there

let's hope that today will be a better day.

and yes it will because i will make it a good day.

except for the fact that i think tomorrow won't be so good because i have to wake up at what time? yeah.



they say keep strong, 不要在哭泣了

aren't so lucky to have two good news knocking at one time,
maybe you really think i'm that strong to stand alone.

you just gotta keep holding on, to whatever possibilities.

We know nothing of suffering, only that it makes us stronger. We can't hide, because that's avoiding life's lessons. Maybe it does have the power to destroy us, but it's then that it can only get BETTER. We can only "endure, knowing it's part of a greater plan". Our troubles may - will - bring painful storms, but like the rain, the lessons we learn will bring new life to us. Happiness is always just around the corner from Darkness.

God, i pray, for everyone's health in this crucial period, that your wisdom will be bestowed onto us, that your endurance will lead us through.


whee. today marks the start of the prelims. ask me why i'm relatively happy, and i'll tell you why.

1. i successfully lowered my confidence for chemistry and emath, which means i will study harder tomorrow.
2. english was a flop, thanks to my "perfect" argumentative essay. let's just say that you can't always have the best of both worlds can you.
3. let's bet on hmt, i usually spot questions and they're generally accurate, but this year, i bet a old until lao diao ya question will come out. either ways, let's just take it that i THINK i have the capabilities to recall lin lao shi's teachings on the spot and come out with relevant arguements.
4. i realised that this is the last cedar examinations we are going to sit for, so hurray for end-of-nightmares? then again, more scarier ones will come!

hcftw! :D


had a damn good talk with mr goh just now other than bombing of physics questions for around 1.5 hours. gosh, no, it reminded me about scholarships, (yes i'm thinking too far again). but i agree on the body clock thing. oh gosh, i'm totally deranged now.

anyway, the best part of it was that he said we shouldn't prioritise our subjects, which means i don't actually have to give up either bio or phy. which is a good thing.
maybe i think too highly of myself.
but there are reasons for things. maybe. but right now i choose to walk into the stupid hall with a hell lot of confidence, like before.

badminton was fun yet tiring.

yet while watching lk and charis play, i thought of a logic.
it all boils down to mentality, after hardwork.

like nike says, just do it.

like i've known it since you started saying it, i can do it.
anyway, i seriously wish that i can get an a2 for english and a1 for chinese. ahaha, nightmare will soon be over, and another will come.

jiayou people :D

push it hard,



when small words means big things, HAHAHA, did i happen to mention that mr yau's "good chance of getting a1" rekindled my love for physics? LOL.

anyway i was flipping through the papers, better flip through and read abit than nothing right? this year's president scholars are ALL girls except 1 boy :D LOL LOL. but they're ALL FROM RJC and only 1's from hwachong. and the one from hwachong has a president scholar father, how cool is cool? :D

proves that mr tay's theory is wrong. because smart genes do come from dads? haha.

let's pray my dad won't see the article if not he'll start his "rjc is better" theory.

ANYWAY, had big macs for breakfast but it's proportion is like shrinking. what about all those advertisements about not increasing their price?

seriously, the gst hike seems to have more negative impacts because big companies increase their prices by so much and standard of living goes up. o.O

anyway! cheryl didn't treat me to breakfast. ): HAHAHA.

i'm sleeping more and more nowadays, actually fell asleep at 9 pm yesterday? and woke up at 6 to study half of PEOPLE. HAHAHA.


okay yay i didn't come online at all for yesterday and shall not for the whole weekend.

come to think of it, the more emath papers i do, the lousier i become.
yeah right just throw my face for once.
if i can do it twice, why not thrice.
perhaps i shouldn't be so, over-demanding. should lower my expectations.

was helping to count HOW TO GET A1 FOR ENGLISH, here it goes, if you got around 29-33 for oral during prelims, you'd need about 22-23 for both essays, around 18-19 marks for compre and summary.
think it's tough?
HOW TO GET A1 FOR HIGHER CHINESE, here it goes, you need around 16/20 for yingyongwen, 57/70 for compo, and around 80/110 for your paper.
think it's tough?
go bang wall lah, A2 is good enough (:
HAHAHA.

i'm going to count for bio later, since now section a is officially 30%.
and i can't believe that i forgot how to differentiate TWICE already.
screwed up chemistry + sbq!!! + amath tests in a row.

okay. by now you'd think i'm crazy. but that's okay. because i'm perfectly sane. :D

anyway, concluded that i get hungry when i'm really hungry. WAHAHA. and charis's reflex actions are getting worse by each moment.

i was told that i could do it if i really want to. and not to put so much pressure on myself.
it's the same old words 3 years later, now.

BOOHOO! this is totally random: how many more days to huiyi's and cheryl's bday? HAHA



did i mention? this is it.

the only SOLE reason i've come online is to check popular online, my phy tys is gone for good ): serves me right for not rushing down to j8 last wednesday.

so tata, till then (: meanwhile, i still remember what was said two years ago (so long).

must get two points arh

seems so vivid.
but it's hwachong this time.

thank you shilbe for listening to my rants yesterday.
and thank you God for always showing me the way, for your love.
thank you to everyone who has helped me so long.
to px: sry for being quiet after recess!

if determination + hardwork don't mean something,
we'll see.





ring... ring... ring...

sometimes certain things in life just gives you the wake up calls you need.

as we ask, why are some people just so lucky, remember, God is always fair yeah?

i guess, there's no such thing as "will" and "definitely" and "only right".

thus everyone should not be too confident. which includes myself. since i've entered cedar, i've always thought it was only right that i do well, so that i won't make the stupid mistake as i did in psle again.

but somethings in life just proves you so wrong. people fall down, but falling down is nothing to be disgraceful about, it's not getting up after you fall that is disgraceful.

i'm having so much doubts about everything.

even friendships. sometimes it just comes a time when i don't know what i can do for some of them. i really hope sara will cheer up, and collin too. (though they would never see this) i keep telling myself that everything will be okay, okay. but maybe it seems that i'm the one who gets the most affected out of it.

look, i'm paranoid. not stressed, but lost.

is it my fault that i'm naturally bad at my languages? no.

this is so not the time to get emotional, 2 days before orals, but i just can't help it.

what if, my broken stick never come to me? (guess no one knows what it means, maybe SOME do)

带着一颗平常心;
to brave through everyday.



somewhere over the rainbow

okay so i'm going to ask my cousin to teach me physics someday because there's only two weeks left and i highly doubt we're going to finish the syllabus and even if we do it'd probably be like no revision.

I should start blogging in proper english to prepare myself for the upcoming english oral.

Anyway, I've spent 5 whooping hours to read the physics textbook (keyword: READ). At least I partially understood the whole electromagnetic induction, so congratulations to me? haha.

The picture was taken on px's birthday, and that's the place where I lost my department bottle. And it was taken solely by my pathetic 2.0 megapixel camera but it's nice! (:



will we see a sunrise after every sunset?

maybe.

i kind of miss everything that were used-to-bes.



已经是不可思议了

there's a reason for everything in this world,
yet not every reason is known.

owing to my bad memory, i still dunno the lyrics for THE SONG. haha. huiyi rejected me (damn painful lah) when i asked her to go out and cut hair! so i've decided to not touch my hair and let it rot. anyway, i found out that i love walking alone on a dark dark night.

and that when you grow older, you tend to be more nonchalant about everything. i'm not even uptight about prelims (very fact that i'm here shows it all). wheeee! shilbe, no hope of you seeing me in hc. btw, choir spelt backwards is rioHC. haha.

to deariest eileen chow: i have no thoughts of giving birth to any living things to let you PLAY, so the conclusion would be for you to do so to let me torture! :D:DD:D:D:D:D

okay i shall er, talk to the mirror. HAHAHA. bye world.


because fireworks are short-lived

and no matter how brightly they shine, they die down, somehow.

bring that splendour on.

would you rather live a crazy life like that of a sine curve, or a life that has a zero gradient?

they say that, the higher you bounce, you lower you fall.

i say, the higher you bounce, the higher you bounce back.


contentment, derived from four chinese words

movie was extremely great, and i'm USEFUL to actually not shed tears over impossible stories in life, yet nothing is really impossible right? (: ate cheesy hotdog with mash and homemade barley (they copied chippy) but it was as good anyway! and guess what, we met huiyi and yusin (her hopes must be dashed, muaha) and i saw a scene after we came out from the cinema which none of them saw.

makes me wonder, why the hell is jay chou's piano playing so pro that it makes people jealous! ): some people are just naturally talented. realised that artistic films are nice, shows you what simple things like music can do (like high sch musical showcasing singing/staging in teens' lives, step up showcasing opportunities in life/different routines of dancing kinda thing). connect bridges between people's paths who hardly cross perhaps?

i hate rhetorical questions.

anyway, i'd be lying if i said i'm not worried about the future of choir at all. no they did great in such a short time, it's just, seeing those gestures, perhaps it's already the maximum, volume i'm talking about here. to think i was once up on that very same stage also, which is going to be demolished pretty soon (doesn't the word demolish brings you back to that scene of 20 years ago?)

i think the idea of piano practising rooms are damn, cool. (:

maybe we're all to young to do what we really want to achieve, the impossibles in life.
but there's never too old to do what you like, still.


when the night has been too lonely, and the road has been too long

i shall not come online as frequently as i used to do! time to instill some self discipline! wake up calls are thoroughly through and i think i'm still getting quite mad and high over unnecessary stuffs >.< symptoms of insanity you call it.

WAHAHA. i cannot believe my BMI is still, so, low. crap. must eat more!!! its (to nearest whole number) 17 but not even 17. i should just go to the wall and bang it.

the street with no name says:
i'm not getting married anytime my love
the street with no name says:
haha
ruiwen! & once upon a song. says:
yeah
ruiwen! & once upon a song. says:
one day save 10 cents
ruiwen! & once upon a song. says:
shld be able to get u decent present in 10 yrs time
ruiwen! & once upon a song. says:
see ah
ruiwen! & once upon a song. says:
one month 3 bucks, one yr 36 dollars
ruiwen! & once upon a song. says:
10 yrs 360 leh!!!!
the street with no name says:
10yrs?
ruiwen! & once upon a song. says:
26 la
the street with no name says:
hmmm i 'll be 26
the street with no name says:
haha
the street with no name says:
nice age
the street with no name says:
ok.

SEE, huiyi, no wedding presents for you. HAHAHA.


i'm gonna study damn damn damn super super super hard and put in my utmost effort for the upcoming prelims and not let myself down and not let my teachers down and not let anyone who cares about me and thinks i can do it down. (: and may God bless everyone with knowledge and determination to overcome all these.
love.



if only i'd trusted, trusted myself and you and the many years of friendship.

then perhaps all this shit on top of shit wouldn't happen would it.
-

at the end of the day, there's still so much to take.

and according to px's blog, 22 days to prelims.

days without choir seems empty, still.

AND HAHA I'VE DECIDED ON WHICH CAM TO BUY! :D



when one thing gets screwed, other things get screwed along with it.

a big thank you and a big big hug to everyone who helped and even helped to dry my bag >.< was kind of lost of words, taken aback, but thanks alot, really. <3
i think i'm the most unfortunate person on earth.
but perhaps i won't crumble just yet.
perhaps i would.

today was like the 2nd worse day of my life, won't wanna mention the worst.

can't bring myself to forgive, still. haha.

to you, i'm lost for words. i need a knock from life to wake me up, thoroughly.


GRAH, i'm studying chemistry now but i think i have some super poor memory disease i need to increase my gigabyte alright?

okay i'm actually annoyed with things. why the hell so some people ____ ? nevermind.
guess some things don't really matter afterall, huh.


nevermind, let's hope that tomorrow will be a better day. zz.


why, does the rain fall from up above

i'm going crazy doing english summary :\ kind of figured it out i'd become a good translator in near future if i choose to take that path cos i can translate them into chinese and not replace them with other words. then again my chinese is like -inserts liukun's and charis's most commonly used word- .
HAHA! (:

last lesson of blading was, okay. at least by the end of the many lessons we've all learnt how to stand up and stop screaming so much(me only) and to fall down! :\ and to move, in whichever way that makes you move. WAHAHAHA. cycling is ALWAYS a smarter and better choice! :D

gosh, let's hope that i won't freeze in lib tmr! studying again. WAHAHAHA. there's only 3 more and then prelims are here. gosh, as i was saying all my dreams now (if i ever have one) are all prelims-related. like me crying in the examination hall during emath paper (see, detrimental effect of practicising too much emath papers) which could be deemed highly impossible yet it's vaguely possible too! i'm not like charmaine who dreams of out of the world things. HEHE!

actually, i kind of look forward to hearing the choir sing on national day, no?

let's learn to be contented with what we have, in this case, infer. at least, there's an improvement of 7.143% from the previous one. oh well. let's see if the practice sessions will work for this year! must be positive, hur.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, singing everywhere rocks <3


if we remember those days, remember those times so fine

suddenly remembered that adlin once thought us the song they sang today during leaders' investiture.
us, we were in 4p trying to sing spastic songs and prepare for our last campfire 2007.
apparently that never happened.
and apparently we left, quietly, without anyone's notice.
o.O

nevermind the fact that i was having sorethroat still and a screwed up nose and i think i passed the flu bug to px and sara and jamie :\ still, i was cheering.
yet it's very annoying to see that some sec fours don't even care. not even opening up their mouths. not that anyone could force them to, but it's kind of saddening huh.
maybe that's cause we realised how little time we have in cedar.
and how halfTIMESlittle time we have till prelims. but national day comes first! :D oh well.
it's just simply, ugh i dunno. reminds me of the times everyone really cheered during camps and there's no more camps left.

sort of complete my revision for emath mock test tomorrow which i kinda reckoned would be a paper1 cos they didn't ask us to bring curve rules/french curves and they love paper1s anyway. by just reading through the file. argh, relative vel is the one that is totally UNMANAGEABLE, perhaps kinematics sometimes, giving up the questions during exams would be a totally viable option but damn, they're still marks.
and there's STILL math in jc. ):

and sara's mum's sandwiches are nice man! :D:D:D:D:D:D yay CHEESEE. anyway i've decided to never get involved in stepping-the-shoes thing. it sucks. totally. and i'll always lose. AND HAHAHA i managed to push px away and yeah, jamie-just-turned-evil today because she totally slapped px's hand and it's red with white fingerprints. and the cause of it is .... TADA! jkjk.

it sucks to do two complete chi paper two in merely 4 days. LOL.

i shall curb my temptation to buy the 7th book by hook or by crook ! >.<