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Thursday, February 28, 2008

HAHAHA. FISHTANK INCIDENT WAS DAMN FUNNY. ALL THE LAME GAMES!
i finally know 9square! and the 1 2 3 game is SO DUMB.
xingyi was like super fast. at least better than irene. 3 months -.- LOL! fong is suspected of having a fake PSLE cert now. WAHAHA! :D and me, fake o's cert. wth. even hiroshi suan-ed me on that. wthwth.
and math tutorial today was SUPER cold. chem was worse.

but yay! ilp presentation is finally over. chai rocks for the video! :D okay, i DO talk at a very fast pace. HAHA! doughnuts :D:D:D


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the way you say it makes everything seem so scary out of a sudden.

all i can do is to embrace myself back into reality, and tell myself that i've probably been too protected in the past that such exposure hurts so badly. if life was all but a spring, i think i may have reached my limit of proportionality.

it's not that bad when people give up on you. what's worse is when you yourself give up on yourself.

last night was so emotional i wish there wouldn't be anymore nights like that. yeah i've finally decided on the whole matter and nothing's gonna move me now, i hope. something else unexpected happened, but then again i am grateful for that. in either ways, i've made people disappointed in me and at the same time i'm also disappointed in myself, for just lacking the guts. i guess it doesn't matter anymore. once the window closes, it closes forever. how true o.O but anyway a big <3 to those whom i've constantly been seeking advice from and even asking stupid questions which made you guys dumbfounded at times.

sometimes you look back and you wonder how have you even lived through so long. perhaps it's a post o's syndrome or something, lennis was telling me how he's super slack and all, and i totally agreed. just couldn't find the factor for mugging anymore.

perhaps humans do get emotionally drained. this has nothing to do with ability, whatsoever.

what about finding back lost things then?

for once, i'm just gonna let go of everything.


staring through the mirror glass,
all that was seen is a stranger.


YESTERDAY WAS POP! :D AND O2! :D AND WE GOT A NICE SHOE BAG. HAHA!

MY KNEES ARE COVERED WITH BRUISES NOW BUT HECK LAH! AHAH. 6B HAD FUN! :D EVEN CLEMMY BAI KA ALSO PLAY. LOL! AND WE GOT A NEW CLASSMATE CALLED HIROSHI! HIS CHI NAME DAMN COOL. ONE WORD. HAHA. WHO ONLY CAME AT 4+. LOL! MINESWEEPER WAS FUN! :D XINGYI IS PRO AT IT MAN! LOL. SURPRISINGLY WE ALL CAME TO SCHOOL TODAY AFTER WALKING INTO A FULLY AIR-CONDITIONED HALL, FULLY WET FROM TOP TO TOE! :D HAHA.

but the highlight of the day was,

ARTEMIS FACULTY DANCE :D

YAYE! :D MY DANCE PARTNER WAS LY! HAHA. DAMN FUN! WE GOT THE xxxxBOOM PART CORRECT AT LAST! :D AND I TOTALLY ENJOYED MYSELF. WAHAHAHA. AFTER THAT TAG CAME TO SAY " AYE ITS MY FAULT THAT I CAN'T TURN YOU (DURING O1 MASS DANCE) COS I THINK YOU CAN DANCE QUITE OKAY" , DAMN SUAN -.- NEVERMIND. I GOT SUANED MORE FOR MASS DANCE. LOL. THE SONGS ARE SO NICE! :D LOL. I FEEL SAD FOR ADRIEL LAM, LAST ORIENTATION SESSION, GONNA STEP DOWN SOON. AHAH!

i just don't feel right up there. hah.


tonight was a beautiful night. :D:D

after which all dreams will (and must) come to an end.







most of the time, i don't even know what i'm doing. was utterly disappointed in myself today, big time.


yesterday was the last day wearing the cedar uniform.


the game of life;

why do we play it in the first place?

haha, my top priority now is to practise piano more! :D so that i can HOPE to pass even though it seems a really far target but there's only one week left. which is the reason why i chose to give up on the sco thing. ah well.

there's just too much things to complete and sometimes i feel really pissed off at myself for having such bad time management but i don't really want to think about organising my life right now. if i have to have a hard fall before i learn how to get up and face a brand new life as it is now, i know that it's a good lesson that God wants me to learn.

artemis is love :D did i mention i felt so proud of the dramafeste people 'cause they really did such a wonderful production, i think we're winners in our hearts. :D

fac dance competition next monday! HAHA, i shall "mug" the fac dance more >.< to our super super nice dance, and DAO! :D

i like this sense of mystery now.


often a time, we think we're in such perfect control of our own lives when it isn't that much of a perfect life.
so when you falter unexpectedly, it's as good as going through free-fall acceleration from a 100-storey building.
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today was a good day! :D suddenly during gp tutorial zijie told me that lennis got in and i'm like omg yay! then soon after charis told me she got in too! :D LALA! 38 is intact man. HAHAHAHA. so is j1 batch choir :D

then we had chem prac. gosh, it was so terrible not to mention lingyong and chris suaning me like crazy. YES I HAVE A BIG BIG PROBLEM TODAY! now my worksheet is like brown colour 'cause i spilled the whole solution onto it and most of the time i don't know what i was doing but nevermind. it was still better than jiahan's chem prac last week.

kaiming's animation rocks big time! HAHAHA. although chai almost deleted it but yay it was retrieved. xingyi! don't emo. :D LOL.

so fast, it's almost two months in hc. happening events passed by just like that. ytd yaohui randomly asked me how is life in hc. a simple question which really made me ponder alot. the reason nobody ever asked me this question is probably everyone assumes that since i talk so much i will have no problems mixing around, blahblahblah. assumptions. LOL. now that i've got a fantastic og and a great class, i begin to ask myself, what's next?


sometimes we know we shouldn't be doing what we're doing,

but often we ourselves cannot discern right from wrong.

we get so caught up with our own lives that we disregard some others'.



-


anyway! so happy that 38 is gonna have outing again! :D and this time shimin is going! YAYE! :D

yujie says:
i bet wejie is lying
yujie says:
as in obviously he means
-torres says:
siao i dont lie
yujie says:
no pretty girl other than me
yujie says:
i am a given
yujie says:
ehh so wheree
-torres says:
sia la...no pretty girl in og
ruiwen! I AM OFFICIALLY DEPRESSED OVER THE HC UNIFORM. says:
HAHAA. weijie is gonna say he is the hottest guy in our og again
ruiwen! I AM OFFICIALLY DEPRESSED OVER THE HC UNIFORM. says:
-.-
-torres says:
how you knw?
ruiwen! I AM OFFICIALLY DEPRESSED OVER THE HC UNIFORM. says:
i can read your mind
ruiwen! I AM OFFICIALLY DEPRESSED OVER THE HC UNIFORM. says:
are you scared now?
-torres says:
no
-torres says:
today got girls say i cute...
-torres says:
scared not?
yujie says:
lol
yujie says:
wah siao i damn scared
ruiwen! I AM OFFICIALLY DEPRESSED OVER THE HC UNIFORM. says:
yah of course scared. why hc girls getting more blind
yujie says:
dont steal all the girls plz
ruiwen! I AM OFFICIALLY DEPRESSED OVER THE HC UNIFORM. says:
damn scary leh
yujie says:
haha ruiwen
ruiwen! I AM OFFICIALLY DEPRESSED OVER THE HC UNIFORM. says:
HAHAHA!


SUPER LAME PLEASE -.-


I NEED TO REMEMBER TO BRING LECTURE NOTES. ZZZZ.


some deserve much more than this, seriously. yeah i'm not gonna complain that this whole thingy is unfair 'cause nothing is fair in the world anyway but yeah, why does one freaking piece of paper allow people to judge your ability?

i feel really sad this morning even though i was super super super happy for irene :D but other than irene staying, nothing seems to be more pleasing to know of. just grant me 3 miracles man, for lennis huiyi and charis to appeal successfully >.<

was dozing off on the mrt, and 'cause i was leaning against the wall i took out my butterfly clip and held it in my hands. then i woke up right when i heard "sengkang" and when i went up to the lrt i realised my clip is gone. surprisingly i found it hanging between the green strings on my bag in the lrt, when it should have dropped off long ago. and this whole incident sparked off my thoughts again, about how you may be holding on to certain things so tightly initially, but sometimes you get so tired of everything around you, you lose these things gradually. yet eventually, what is yours will always be yours, what is lost and meant to be yours will find its way back to you.

but we'll never know anyway.

HAHA! DONUTS TODAY WAS GG. we didn't film it in the end. so everyone ate a donut and everyone is happy :D
gy and i were talking about "why bfs and gfs should not be in the same class", something around that line during math tutorial. HAHAHA, and our conclusion is that guys and girls are totally different, the way we view things. OH WELL! LOL. at least we agreed on many other things. and gave irene a x region status which is undefined. :\ then elson and momox were singing some random chinese songs towards the end of the lesson. gosh!

and yah, uniforms makes me super depressed, esp when all the guys are gonna suan us when we start wearing it. poor chai! HAHA. its damn amusing seeing chai and clement bullying each other and vice versa. LOL!

THREE CHEERS FOR FAC DANCE :D ARTEMIS! :D


i cannot believe that i'm gonna miss orientation 2's campfire.
i ought to shoot myself for that. ): yeah i know it's a once in a lifetime chance, but its also a once in a lifetime chance to spend campfire with the class.
yah but what's done cannot be undone. i just feel stupid out of a sudden.
someone said "this(missing the campfire) is the opportunity cost". how true, to a big extent.

my msn is hanging like crazy now. grah. i have 6 convos but i can open none of them. boohoo! -.-

i think its the feeling or getting tired of what you've always been doing. but it's been such a long way, i don't see why i should give all i have up at all. yeah, i just realised how big a procrastinator i can be.


yay IT fair is coming soon :D then i would be able to get my presentssss for o's results! then coming april i will change my phone to a red hot one. HAHA! :D

phy in the morning was crazy, look at how drunk xuemin and char were! HAHA, i concluded that ice wine is the only wine that i would probably ever touch. it's super sweet and nice! :D we were talking about how we are gonna stay in boarding school to mug for promos, for real.

if you don't start now, you never will.

there's only one way to go now, and there's no turning back. we all just have to learn to give in our best and all. although at times some may not understand why certain people choose to take certain routes, as long as some others do, you're not alone.

in economics you always assume that "all humans are rational beings", but most of the time we are not.

it's funny how certain things come and shock you as it is, making you wanna probe further in. what is this life we're living without surprises anyway?


i feel ultra inspired to blog today!

this week was filled with ups and downs.

anyway! thurs was valentine's day! although i would say that i miss cedar's vday alot, but hwachong gives a totally different feeling. you know like some unexpected people gives you unexpected gifts, even if it is damn small i appreciate them alot! e.g. zijie's super nice jelly! i ate like 5 of them at least. and gy's letter which made me laugh like crap. and xingyi and chai's chocs+flower+card and alot more! :D 6B makes me feel loved, so does 38 :D and alot of other people too. grahhh :D and thanks for the smiles.sg flowers! received 5flowers in total. HAHA. and anyway i met up with liukun jamie charis px at nyny for dinner and it was uber shiok :D not to forget my angel and mortal who gave me stuff toys! can't wait for vday in hc next year! anyway, i still don't get why guys cannot give guys vday presents. xiangjing says its damn gay, just like girls and girls and hold hands but not guys and guys -.- chem prac was SUPER funny that day, with jiahan's redo-ing of solution THREE times!


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evidence to illustrate what it means by zero productivity. as usual, gy is sleeping and xingyi is playing with the laptop. HAHAHA. spot the TORTOISE at gy's head? its a tortoise and not a turtle. LOL. chai's bed is irresistible! :D then we slacked and slacked but am glad we cleared up some concepts and we are on our way to completion of the presentation (soon! soon! HAHA) and then chris started playing this game with ancient chinese characters and gy got hooked onto it. chai looks like her mum!!!!!! very much. had kfc for lunch while watching badminton matches and football which was liverpool vs chelsea. HAHAHA. in the end i was late for church by 40min thanks to bus 55. -.- by thank God i didn't miss the sermon.

was talking about perseverance. like how most people are concerned with having good starts, but most of the time people tend to give up halfway, so they do not have a good finish. the key is to persevere, even if things do not usually go your way. yeah, walk by faith. :D am reminded that many a time we often get tired, and are always running on our reserves, but shouldn't it be time to stop using up our reserves and get a kickstart? if not one day even our reserves will run low. even when the whole world turns against you, don't grumble. for everything happens for a reason!

we played this totally fun game which i don't know how to describe. the forfeit is to draw on each other's hands using markers!



this is yaohui and soph's masterpiece on MY HAND. for my slow reflexes. but cannot help it right, i'm always slow.

but its totally okay, because i get my revenge!



my masterpiece on yaohui's hand! see, what a NICE watch and a nice panda. HAHAHAA!!




this is everyone's hand! HAHAHA.

anyway i'm in a super good mood now, yaohui totally made my day by telling me some stuffs which i don't think i should mention here yet but some people should know already, i made a big decision which may affect my jc life today at 6+++PM. :D IM REALLY SUPER HAPPY WHEN HE WAS TELLING ME ABOUT IT! :D:D:D i know this isn't gonna be easy, but i've decided to give my best for it, no matter what comes out of this decision, i'm not gonna regret what i've chosen to go for. even though this might be a long and tiring journey, but i'm not gonna give up. even if i fail to achieve what i've set out for, it will still be a good learning process to me. afterall, we don't often get the things we want in life. maybe it will just prove that there are always better people out there, more deserving people. i've already regretted once for not being able to run for council due to choir commitments, this time i won't let the chance past me that easily. and yeah, i'm super determined about this. i can do it!! :D

after church me sk dg leo jiayan yaohui went to eat hokkien mee! it's quite nice lah. then talk crap on the way. like how you see athena everywhere 'cause the grass is everywhere and the grass is green. but you see artemis ABOVE ALL PEOPLE everywhere too 'cause the sky is blue! :D WAHAHAHA. ARTEMISSSS! okay we're lame people. haha, i better stop suanning athena if not when the future fac head becomes the fac head i'm gonna be so dead. LOL! leo is so despo to go out on a saturday night lah! anyway yaohui's lil bro is damn cute. HAHAHA.

you know i'm really grateful that friends around me are ever so encouraging and supportive of me and i can always find listening ears who will listen to me rant about stuffs which drives me crazy be it on msn or in person. i love you guys alot! <3 sometimes when you would think that there's no hope for a particular thing anymore, but when people around you start telling you and believing in you, even simple encouragements from ordinary friends helps alot. it's not making you live in self-denial, its what i deem as factors in life which pushes you forward for the better. and hahaha i'm grateful too for friends around me that gives me great advices, helps me make better decisions in my life or simply share with me experiences which i can draw lessons out from. seriously, where else can i find so many great people around me? :D sometimes when you think that life's not fair (but it always isn't lah haha) but these people just make your day SOOO much better!

have been doing alot of thinking recently. it's high time to get serious in my work and commitments. at least honeymoon period is over. i like it so much when JAE is finally coming and things will finally get settled down and there will be no more changes any further. helps to better decide on certain things anyway. if i don't get serious now i probably never will, which is definitely a bad thing. haha. anyway fine i admit i'm a noisy person but it's good to be noisy too right? :D

was having a super heart-to-heart talk with my mortal that day. and i concluded that we are the same type of people. two to three sided. not split personality, but yeah. its just funny sometimes how what lies on the surface isn't really what lies beneath it, in fact they could be totally opposites. but i guess that's how things in life always works. by the end of the day, what we've thought that we always knew would probably turn out to be totally different. hahaha i like the senior class super alot. i think i will be so sad when my mortal is gone man, one less person to talk to!

superficialities.

so random, but it's just amazing how no one person leads exactly the same type of life as another. for some of us, it may be leading a hectic life, for some it may be leading an over-achiever kind of life. for others, it may be leading a quiet and low profile life, for others it may be leading a peaceful life. but all lives intersect somewhere along the way, but some may just run parallel to each other and never meet at any points in life. but some roads of life deviate from each other after a certain period of time, some even stay put for good 'cause some people just don't like changes. i use to be super emo over leaving cedar, afterall it's a place where i've spent 4 years of my life in. but if i've never left cedar there won't be hc, and i won't haven found a new type of joy in my life. it's indescribable but i like this feeling. seeing faces you know and smiling to them in school. hahaha. i don't know how to put it across but it just feels good.

and i wonder what will happen to us next time. went to grand senior's class blog, and they are still updating it.

this is a super long post. HAHAHA. BYE!


I CANNOT WAIT FOR THIS WEEKEND TO COME! so that i can sleep and eat and have time, properly.

this week is so crazy i hardly hear myself breatheeeeee.

yesterday was a long long school day and i found out who my angel is and i feel stupid for not keeping to my suspicions and AHA what more can i say i have the BEST angel and mortal. LOL. and as usual we sat outside the fishtank in the inner plaza in a circle to, emoooooo. and choir was pamugun but yay i think sop2s are doing great and so are the rest! :D

so i reached home and did nothing and slept.

today was a short day which ended at 1 and i'm thankful for that and chem tutorial IS THE BESTTT, seriously. LOL. and AH PU and AH BU is making everyone rofl -.- as usual, tuesday is hotdog day for 6B! i think the word eileenated is damn nice to use! ah finally went to high school to eat after soooo long and i'm like dead at home with piles of homework to do and piano later. WO WAN DAN LE~ doesn't matter.

and i finished most of the vday presents except my angel + mortal's and a few others, all the writings! YAYYYYE. :D

bahbahblacksheep says:
JTS i'm gonna 大开杀戒

-.-

tmr is xcntry = slacking for me. HAHAHA.
thurs is vday = gonna reach home damn late. LOL.
fri is my doomsday, decides if i have to go for operation :\ and jay-teee-sssss :D at jurong -.-
sat is ilp mugging day which i'm gonna give all my best to it.
sun is liberty! :D


i feel like digging a hole to bury myself now.




zhuailing me and xingyi + yuchen





the 4m people in hwachong except xiping :D


@ swensens :D 4m :D


sometimes chinese new year doesn't seem like chinese new year at all. but AHA, i toured 3 houses yesterday and had alot of fun esp mahjong, gosh, it's been ages since i've last touched it and i miss that night when all the noobs learnt mahjong and i saw my half shifu quincy at hougang mall with somebody :D HAHAHA. i miss 4m ): those days were just clearly visible to me, how we spent our first cny together, how we spent vdays birthdays rhds sng's wedding random classes where we stood on the table cny visiting to collect angbaos and eat food chalets cny performance(3 lil pigs!) o's express results how we topped the level for so many subjects with our imba people and pissed the rest of the level off 'cause some think we're too proud? i loved all of that. i love our perfect class relay system which never fails thanks to huiyi and our class comm, i love the times when we go seoul garden and did not eat alot, the movie outings and suaning jamie and syf when the whole class knew i was freaking out during lesson and talking to myself and when i came back to tell everyone choir got a gold even without ms chye and dance got a gwh and even when charu weren't here for 1year+ and how disappointed we were when mr sng was no longer our form but how ms chng brought another type of joy into our class, how she wished pinnxian happy bday and tell her she give her"oxygen" as bday present and how our class's chem results were always so much higher above the rest 'cause of her faithful teaching and how graduation day was, not to forget prom night when me and jas didn't get to eat the amount we wanted to 'cause the school is too stingy. and kbox, how can i ever forget? the movie outings after every exam which were sad movies that made us all cry like shit.

okay im just ranting.

yesterday! i'm proud to say i finished redox tutorial except for one question but 6 questions in 3 hours is abit LOL but who cares! so dg soph sk came to my house and played lots of funny stuffs and haha i cannot believe my house doesn't even have a complete set of poker cards >.< then we went to dg house and played cluedo ohmygosh i have super good luck! i actually got 2 out of 3 clues correct on the FIRST try it's a super fun game i wonder why my mum only taught me how to play monopoly when i was young grrr. then me and soph attempted to play drums and i concluded my hands cannot coordinate with my brain but it's totally okay HAHHAHA and some vainpok tried a shirt for 30min< sooooo mafan! and we camwhored as usual HAH :D then we went to soph house and abandoned our steamboat@marinabay and ate kimchi rice which was abit spicy for me and then yay mahjong mahjong WAHAHA we helped auntie to earn 8 bucks :D LOL shiying (soph's cousin) was like super pro she drank dunno how many cups of champagne/hooch the whole night and she's only p6 i think. LOL.

anyway i concluded that i'm emotionless because even char teared during CJ7 but i didn't even feel a single urge to do so. HAHAHA.


happy chinese new year (:

it's so random but yeah, it's all thanks to God's grace that i have such a funky class (6B!!) and that i actually got in choir despite my awful auditions and that i have such wonderful people in my life<3 seriously, i think 6B is the best class anyone can ever ask for. was reading irene's blog yesterday and i am damn touched but actually i feel the same way. and then i was reading 07's blog and the way they say our class is like theirs, oh my gosh. seriously. and i got a nice mortal so what's more to ask for? but i'm starting to feel guilty for always hanging out and not going home for dinner. i mean if i don't go home for dinner, who will -.- since i'm the only child. but yeah, i feel like i'm the happiest girl on earth now. HAHA. i should learn to be contented with what i have and what i not have.

cny dinner was abit screwed yesterday, my biggest uncle and family didn't turn up 'cause they were busy. but yeah right, i'm sure you can forget about eating dinner even if you're so busy. and my smallest uncle didn't turn up 'cause he was er "sick"?! but nevermind. this year there's a new addition, my baby cousin called jolyn. SHE IS DAMN CHUBBY I TELL YOU! yeah and food rocks but i rejected ALL the junk food, self responsibility. i want to sing well on mon >.< but my cough only seems to be getting worse and more irritating. ggx.

today was fairly good except for the fact that i overslept since i slept at an unearthly hour yesterday but AHA no excitement. i see the same uncles and aunties i see every alternate saturday. i love adriel lam lah! seriously he is the best cousin you can ever get in the whole wide world. then i went to watch cj7 with my smallest auntie+uncle+twocousins+mymum which was a very lame movie. but the animation was quite cute, in a way. HAHA. then we went over to their house and slacked and went back to my grandma's house for steamboat dinner and i ate 5 bowls of noodles I AM SO DEAD but i want to get fat anyway. HAHA! :D then i slept at 6+ on the sofa and only woke up at 8. LOL.

and then i came home to blog. OKAY. tomorrow is gonna be a nice day. HAHA.


in the end i've to give bowling a miss ): WAHLAO! wanted to prove to irritating people like chris that i can bowl, damnit. LOL. sorry guys >.< and in the end irene couldn't go also cos her mum wants her home :\ ARGHHHHH. nevermind, i will have two years in hc to make up for it. LOL.

cny celebrations. junshyang came to tell us that we rock (yay we know) for wearing the fac shirt even on cny HAHAHA and went "wear more fac shirt k" LOL. the first part was so boring that me xingyi and irene were falling asleep while the rest of the people disappeared and so we decided to go back to the ct bench to slack. i realised that my STM is getting worse 'cause monday i forgot to bring math tutorial, tues i forgot to bring chem tutorial, (AND I DID ALL OF THEM!!!), and today i forgot to bring the money that we collected from the scam-sale of bananas yesterday! >.< and 'cause we were so bored, elson has to be niao-ed :D ANYWAY IM SO PROUD TO SAY THAT WE EARNED S$60++++ YAYE! in one hour. HAHAHA. but at least like what jiahan says its a miracle that we don't suffer losses, considering that we had two whole boxes of brownies left. and bananas fell short of supply, WAHAHAHA. kaiming was being SUPER EVIL by not buying anything from us despite my attempt to steal his wallet. some people are like, u beg them they still won't buy. but some nice people offer to buy! YAY. the lao yu sheng part was EVIL. minx was super poorthing thanks to kaiming again. we were saying her oil blotter can finally come in use :\

so the cedar-hc people went around asking people to take photos and yay we have a few pretty shots which char WILL upload for us to kope. WAHAHA. was super colourful please! then we didn't wanna go back, i mean like the buildings and systems all change alr, okay nevermind i doubt anyone will get what i mean but yeah. so we walked around at ps to see spastic stuffs. GOSH. vday is like next week and i'm so blur to realise it only now. and i want to give alot of people presents! GG. and then the rest came with mr sng and ms wee and then dunno who started the "do you have boyfriend" kind of question and i sabo-ed char and practically everyone. HAHAHA! :D jamie is like so scandalous please, tsks! :D and i think mr sng is awfully disgusted by hc, the way we say it (its cheenaism. LOL). and thank god i didn't take CSC if not i'd be suffering like rachel, they ask super cheem questions can! and i accidentally hit simin's sprained ankle 'cause i didn't see it, oops >.< guess what, we sat at the exact same seats at the same swensens just one year ago. when we were much younger, thinking about how much fun we'd have when o's is over, and now everything seems so, so far away. i deduced that 4M = hc + vj + rj + tj + others. seriously. LOL.

okay, time to go for cny reunion dinner. I WANT DRAMAFESTE TICKETS! >.<


'cause it's this hwachong spirit we have in us, that we won't give up easily right :D love our batch. jiayou people! (: we will do hc and choir proud! :D i think the talk worked just now. ms lim is disappointed but i believe we will improve :D

can any of us believe that we're gonna have EXTRA physics tutorial tomorrow? what starstarstarstar man. LOL. recently 6B is going crazy, people are always bursting out laughing. I WONDER WHAT HAS HAPPENED. anyway, ilp makes me laugh now. LOL. and we bought 100 bananas today! powerful please. then we see the 6P people carrying one BASKET but we have one TROLLEY. sheesh :\

TOMORROW IS A TUTORIALS DAY. EXCEPT FOR MATH LECTURE. ANYWAY, I LOVE CHAI'S GREEN JACKET! and we have ACFC now, also known as anti clement fan club. xingyi is flaring up more at elson nowadays. haha. and irene was caught sleeping in econs today, HAHA! :D

(:
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.


if only life was as simple as physics, so we could calculate the uncertainties in life by using formulas.
but we couldn't. 'cause physics isn't even simple to start with. neither is life gonna be easy with the many ups and downs. to live our destiny, isn't what it really seems to be.

these are the days when you just don't feel like doing anything at all, no matter how important the things are. you just feel like sleeping your day through, or simply lying on the bed letting your thoughts run.

but the more you think, the more confused you get, the more you wished this isn't happening. yet you're glad that it actually happened.

at this particular junction, choices and a clear direction is all that's needed. one wrong step, and you can never think turn back. they say that there's no such things as "u-turns".

in the light of the sun, is there anyone?
and you need a sunrise, 'cause you're tired of the sunset.


sometimes i can't stand the way i read into things, making something simple so complicated.
of course half the time this particular way makes me see things that makes me think that the world is dark, with motives. but most of the time, i'm proven right. GAHH.

the world's so damn ironical.

but guess what, so am i.

i really wonder how long this will last. but for as long as it can, i will give my best.



i'm pretty thankful for 6B, really, it's just this company that makes up 90% of my everyday life in hc. <3 and i am the number one person of AntiElsonClub now (but like since when lah haha), xingyi's no2, irene's no3 and chris is up-and-coming no4! and welcome to our sisterhood (best zomg!!) with our beloved 姐妹xXxXx. LOL. :D

lunch today was at some QQ noodle house with chai, chris, gy, fong, clemmy, elson, lingyong and CHOO! i bet she will kill me if she sees this. which was after our 9.30am meeting at bugis mrt and thereafter the national library. i attempted to sneak in this "thick stack of econs note", so-called by the security guard, but hiding it under my red and powerful jacket. MUAAHAHA. and i succeeded! YAYE!

and we walked around the kids department in bugis playing all sorts of spastic toys and taking spas pictures and clemmy looks like a mouse while gy looks like a SNOOPY and this crossed eye dog we saw which made chai laugh like dunno what. then xingyi joined us again after her dance and they went to play pool while i went church and gy ps-ed me for pool. -.- ilp ftw :D but fong's laptop was like so scary and unstable being in a paperbag esp carried by elson EEEE. and i officially hate windows vista, wth, i don't even know how to use it! oh and in the lib we pissed some random people off by "treating the library as a classroom" NYEH.

i think i sound like a croak now. the way yaohui described my voice when praying for me in church was like super bad, all the funny words ranted out and im like thinking, wah do i sound that bad :\

oh yeah i hate my GC. LOL. i'm really tempted to buy a red vaio. HAHAHA.


this week has been so long! had fever since monday night after choir and now i'm still down with sorethroat and it's been getting worse and yay my mortal got honey lemon strepsils for me :D:D which kinda saved my life after choir. no, my attempt to sing failed terribly. HAHAHA. sry if for this entire week you see me and i give you a faint smile or don't even smile at you. IM NOT EMO just because i talk less nowadays. HAHAHA.

6B should be still having ct dinner now. sorry i couldn't join you guys, had to go see doc! hope you guys are having fun anyway! :D

so being stubborn i went school on tues despite having a slight fever and then we went xingyi's house which was in jurong to do ILP! and guanyu was explaining to us all the demand and supply theory and the best part was "i don't know if you all learnt this in class", so much for sleeping in school everyday! HAHAHA. xingyi cooked for us! then yeah, productivity rate dropped to zero and negative and then chris started laughing like mad and rolled on the floor. LOL. and yeah i was guessing how jiaying and guanyu and xingyi's crush will be like, ALL SPOT ON! :D HOW PRO AM I, VERY! HAHAHAHA.

wednesday was choir, didn't sing. HAHAHA. but helped yiching with the basses, abit. i think jap game is cool. HAHA. didn't know its about all those nintendo games like wow!! and ms lim was talking to us j1s so much i suddenly feel so inspired and all, all for rioHC :D yay, we must jiayou for the austria trip and not let anyone down <3 i love sop2s :D gaomin was so pro at 2.4 she even beat some guys. HAHAHA. did i mention how nice elson is a target to suan. LOL.

thursday was hmmm, shit, OH OH OH 1 week after we received our o's. LOL. chem prac was so screwed. there's this time, i took jiahan's flask and was "hugging" it 'cos i didn't realised he was asking for it. then suddenly duno what happened my own flask just drop. so immediately, reflex action, my knee go block the flask against the cupboards. and it was shaking. and suddenly i realised what was happening and it dropped lower and my knee caught it. SUPER SCARY. then mr rudy lee was like WHAT HAPPENED then we all laugh. HAHAHA. gosh. and fac dance! yay! i think i kind of know the whole song already. just can't remember the dance steps. but i know how to do! YAY. and then i waited for some pig to finish training and stayed in school until 815PM to do physics but failed terribly. LOL. oh we did ILP TOO! the birdshit experience was a gone case. i will never go back to tian tang AGAIN. it's too terrible and horrifying to be posted here.. YEAH. if you want to know, ask the best gossiper in 6B a.k.a xingyi and ruiwen's JIE MEI and he will tell you. he's chris. HAHAHA.

friday! which is today! :D eileen was zihigh-ing with gao the whole day! LOL. and every econs lecture they HAVE to remind us of ILP. econs tutorial was a wakeup call, our ilp is GG. LOL. all the formatting and stuff ): i wish i could stop telling stories about donuts. >.< yay! our ilp group is crazy and we're going to nat library tmr at 9.30pm together with irene/clement's group. HAHAHAHA. ct bonding o.O LOL! and choir again. as i mentioned, icannot sing at all. it's damn sad to sit there alone and stone and hear your fellow sops singing and you can't join them ): then i went to see doc. HAHAHA. math lecture was SUPER interesting. seeing the smtp ppl fighting their way with the lecturer. and irene is like catching me for sms-ing or sleeping in classes when its only 1-2min. LOL!!!!! CT was BORING. SL projects seem interesting though. maybe. HAHAHA. i want to go for OCIP ): LOL.