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Sunday, November 30, 2008

i think i have weird sleeping habits since gloria day because now i need to sleep between 6-9pm which is honestly weird considering we will sleep at 8pm or something in the following 2 weeks.

okay better play some piano before it gets too late and neighbors will complain. when i'm rich enough i will buy a mini grand :D

& for life isn't measured by the number of breathes we take, but by the moments that take our breathe away.


weihan reminded me that we all have not start packing for cambodia haha DIE! :O i realised we have to bring alot of clothes and i threw away most of the shirts i don't wear... so gg! was telling pp need to bring washing powder there! AND WOOHOO i still hate our airline. and my mum's kicking up a big fuss that i can't be bothered with packing.

choir performance yesterday was not exactly satisfying, personally, i felt we could do so much more. and i don't understand why some people get so concerned/overly frantic or uptight about the way people judge you. i had panic attack and my mind went blank and i was asking joelynn what's the 3words i'm supposed to shout (thank God i remembered subconsciously) and managed to scream something when felyna was looking my way. AH! sucks :\ i was still in shocked mode some 1 hour after the thing ended. but yay i hope we'll keep improving until syf! :D at least sop2s can be heard i think.. HEH.

i was happy 'cause the sermon talked about my favourite verses in the whole bible ! and it left me thinking that actually i'm not that lost, 'cause i was able to answer those questions and er means i'm actually reflecting? :\ i honestly think that JC is the shittiest thing of all times. maybe maybe now would be really the time to start deciding what i really want in life.

oh i think i've affinity with front row seats -.- hsm3 and fac outing both the same. luckily it wasn't shaw my neck would have died or something haha watched quarantine and okay it's horror except for the long build-up. >.< but i have a feeling i won't be able to find any cny clothes at this rate AHAHAHA. i think my no-more-buying-of-clothes strategy is working well, still. HAHA.


i decided that sleeping makes you happier 'cause i feel so much happier now :D

and irene is SO NICE to lend me her bagpack for cambodia yay! :D


the choir chalet place is REALLY freaky i swear i'm never going back there ever again it's so freaky how could anyone possibly sleep there!!!!!

oh i think bbq food was nice :D other than the fact that there're no prawns but never mind! and ashton is really pro bbq-ing there the whole night when the fire is SO strong. and ohoh mahjong with yingting eli and david with noob set of mahjong 'cause there are missing and extra tiles! and watching this ying huo chong de meng show! and scary burnt poker card on top of the lamp and eerie mirrors and eerie walls. i'm always freaking myself out haha yingting's house doesn't seem SO scary anymore! and yongquan's fake boobs and rachel's scary baby for dressing up and the weird bidding of items and zhihui's butt with double-sided tape! :O

ahh the thing about farewell, i don't like to see people leaving. esp andris and liying are so lovable!
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had a nice talk at night and morning! :D <3

and nice brunch this morning with beancurd tofu dessert which i've been craving for since yesterday!

life does works in the most wonderful way. i love nice companies and sharing thoughts (even if its like your scariest dream or something!) and nice piano playing but sometimes you gain something and you lose something as well. it's this fear that one day when we stop holding on and poof everything disappears. nowadays i've been thinking of the unpredictability of life and christmas-es don't help. and then i get back some old memories, "old people" that no one can ever replace.

and then i am still feeling sad that yunmin's leaving. and i told eileen that no matter what we should send her off and squeeze some time out. (both of your faces are still behind my wall!)

oh i borrowed gloria's scores for this jap song and it's damn nice and i'm sad cos the music is sad ! LOL

there's just this you-know-whatever-happens-in-life-it's-all-part-of-God's-plan-for-you but you just got to be patience when life reveals itself. it's an unexplainable feeling. neither here nor there. as cliche as that sounds but that's really how i feel right now. i miss seeing really happy faces. i hate it when people try to act. WELL WELL maybe i'm just too sensitive. but hey i thank God for you peopleeee<3

and i want cambodia to come soon like REALLY soon because i need new places to refresh myself and my thoughts :D huts. LOL.


sometimes when things get so fake, when everything becomes a facade, and you don't know where to go from here.
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oh yay i decided to write xmas cards so i won't be accused of breaking some 4 years of tradition to some people which includes eileen huiyi best bud jialing charmaine and i think sophia too! :D <3 <3

but i'm happy 'cause char came online!



Quiz by: Sophia Ling
Starting Time: 0043

Name: whose blog is this -.- haha
Shoe Size: 6/7?
Height: 164/165
Where do you live: Sengkang
Favourite Drinks: Strawberry milkshakes! :D (with yoghurt even better!)


Have you ever-
Been on a plane:
Yeah
Fallen asleep at school:
duh.
Broken someone's heart:
Think so. :x
Fell of your chair:
nope HAHAHA.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:
yup
Saved e-mails:
i don't delete them i have 1000+ emails now HAHA
Had chickenpox:
yeah
Had a sore throat:
obviously HAHAHA
Broken your nose:
i broke my arms before!
Believed in love at first sight:
maybe!
Liked picnics:
depends on the food! :\
What is your room like:
purple LOL
Last thing you ate:
milk! daisy hilo milk
Last person you danced with:
fac dance ftw! :D artemis fc <3
Last person who made you smile:
yingting 'cause she's so retarded on msn
You last yelled at: my parents i think haha

Today did you-
Talk to someone you like:
yeah choir ppl! :D
Kiss anyone:
no unless yingting kissed me
Get sick:
nope im so healthy!
Miss someone:
charmaine !!
Eat:
so much! at curry work!

Random-
Is there a person who is on your mind now?
yeah my xmas cards!
Do you have any siblings?
no i have good godbrothers like kaiming! :D
Do you want children?
with sophia :D
Do you smile often?
yeah see my fats!
Do you like your handwriting?
so many different types GOSH!
Are your toenails painted?
yes just today
Who's bed other than yours would you rather sleep in?
my mum's :D
What colour shirt are you wearing now?
green! oac tee!
What were you doing at 7pm yesterday?
i bet i was watching dvds
What's the best feeling in the world?
Knowing tGod is so great (:
Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
No im allergic to dustmite
What's under your bed?
probably ants nest
Who do you really hate?
YOU.
What time is it now?
1250
Are you a friendly person?
YEAH :D
Do you have any pets?
no i'll kill them, esp hamsters!
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
my homework !!
Do you sleep with the TV on?
i doze off!
Have you ever crawled through a window?
think so!
Are you too forgiving?
depends.. but ask and be forgiven! :D
Are you closer to your mother or your father?
mumsy! all time.
Who was the last person you cried in front of?
no idea! in school?
How many people can you say you really loved?
God :D my family!
Do you eat healthy?
nopeee
At least one tomato a day?
sucks!
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?
yeah
If you're having a bad day, who will you most likely go to?
alot haha!
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?
NOISY
Are you confident?
quite?

5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
- i was 7 so er writing penmanship
- watching huanzhugege!
- cycling!
- learning art?
- badminton!

5 things on my to-do list today:
- choir chalet
- downstairs yu pian mi fen!
- find out what is illusory democracy
- math
- have fun! :D

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
- buy apple products!
- heels!
- donate!
- save! let the money grow!
- invest :O

5 of my bad habits:
- sleeping late
- shouting at my mum
- procrastinating
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5 places I've lived in:
-my house
- my old house
- older house
- church
- grandma's old hse!

5 jobs I've had:
:( LOL

Tag 6 people to do this quiz:
im so nice!!


choir was ultimate fruitful today. i don't know. yeah how people always says its the whole experience that counts blahblah but i like to see results more than the process. :D somehow...

i'm displeasant about many things right now but for once i'm not gonna comment at all. i remembered when we were back in malaysia and having this meeting on top of the place where we have our meals, maybe i did become an observer throughout this year. but sometimes, the more you observe, the more you know, which may be harmful. haha!

ohoh i'm so happy i don't need to buy a new spare phone! HAHA.

and i finished the whole forensic science 2 !


i hate the weather so, so much i have an urge to chop off all my hair now! ;O it's so hot that i sweat so much after doing every math question and i refuse to switch the aircon on to er save electricity! i'm at episode 19 now YAY. :D think i'd be able to manage another 21 episodes before i leave!

think i'm gonna go down to compasspoint to find socks after failing to date huiyi again (who earned 1333bucks working this month) AHHH i swear i'm going to work very hard after A's next year! then i'll earn alot of money and only spend 15% of it. so if i want to spend 450 on clothes and what not i have to earn 4000! okay get the math. YES i'm not going to buy ANY MORE clothes other than chinese new years' anymore it's a promise to myself i'm losing track of all the money i'm spending which is bad. there's only supposed to be a nett increase in my bank account and not decreasing values! if not i might as well cancel the atm right away i rather be rich next time than be rich NOW. unlike yingting who has so little money left now >.< hehehe.

and i was very sad 'cause if xmas service is on 20th dec means i will miss that and youth camp altogether but now i'm not so sad because soph's gonna miss xmas service if it's on the 20th too. :O but nevermind there is watchnight! :D

IM SO SO SO SO SOSO dying of heat yeah maybe i'll end up getting heat exhaustion or something !

and the chalet thing is argh, annoying is the right word.


i like tomorrow it's the 2nd or 3rd day i don't have to go school since HOLIDAYS started!!

sabu reminded me that we're flying next week!
so
tues: stay at home and do work!!!
wed: choir
thurs: choir chalet
fri: sleep the whole day 'cause damn tired
sat: combined schs concert/showcase, whatever + church
sun: OMG NO TUITION im gonna watch dvd whole day

mon: choir
tues: ???????
wed: formals! :D

then sun we fly woohoo IM FINALLY FREE


AHHHHHH im damn sad now 'cause huijuan's not replying me on msn from china !)*##(@!)!*$#(@!!!_@_@_! and she replied SABU.


suddenly i feel very excited for next year! :O i remembered when i was young i always demanded a new bag each year and new pencilcase and blahblahblah now i seem so stupid! i figured out it's better to stay busy than slack and it's better to have school days than holi days ARGH.

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and note to self: if i die next year it's consequences that i have to bear myself since i chose this (and then i will blame sabu cos she brainwash me!)


i miss charmaine ng i actually felt sad seeing her walk into the customs yesterday at the airport :( even though she will come back but YAH i won't send people off already the sight is so sad!!! but saw jasmineangkunshi who didn't believe me and bella went to send her and char off and chief! and saw yirong! and alot of cedarians LOL but who cares but anyway :( !)#!@($(#*%#*@2 if she forgets to bring stuffs back for me i will kill her!

i love bella too HAHAHAHA was telling her about the first aid course that day it was freaking funny. i don't know. <33333333 :D :D:D wanted to visit best bud at work but we decided not to but anyway i'm happy! and by that time it was too late to get back to school.

i have a new show!! :D it's the 2nd part to the 10pm show now !

and hello holiday homework im gonna eat you up!


argh i hate sad shows and my brain is not functioning!!!


i think as everyone grows older, you tend to adopt a whole new, different set of life philosophies that sometimes, even you yourself can't seem to accept. and then you start asking yourself what has happened to you, or your life, and why did things turn for a change, why you don't seem to recognise yourself when you stare into the mirror anymore.

i was thinking about christmas cards, yes, haha festive seasons. i have this one stack of xmas cards i've gotten since sec1 until sec4. the thing about the senders and the recipients is that it varies drastically every year, even though there are some whom i can know the address upside down. it irks me. not that i'm one who always change my company of friends... but rather how loosely each of us can be taken for granted，by ourselves and by others. how shallow memories can be.

i think for one, tang xin feng bao taught me/made me realise something (see the goodness of GOOD television drama shows!) i remembered clearly when i forgot which character said 每个人心里都有自己的如意算盘, which is so, so true and applicable to many contexts. like deep down, i know which friends to keep, which friends are for life, which friends i could trust, which friends will still be there for me even when i'm 60 years old, who will be my bridesmaid HAHAHAHA HUIYIIII :D, so on and so forth and even who to be beware of. not that 如意算盘s are good stuffs for me to be consciously aware of, but its so true. like even if how i go like "i don't know which course/faculty to go into in uni" but somehow i know. like for whatever actions that we've act on, it's all for a purpose... because somehow deep down we know 下一步该怎么走. and how at some points of time we try to make use of others, whilst getting made use of by others. maybe it is that cedar was a too nice environment, not that hc isn't, but haha maybe we're all just closer to the real society.

maybe i'd really become a teacher. remembered sng and ms wee saying that we were thinking things too simply. and that perhaps a school is possibly the least complicated working environment. well that depends which school you teach at. but for now i couldn't appreciate this more.

i was just thinking what kind of a person i'm becoming/ have become.

was almost on the verge of tears explaining to yingting why i would never take medicine. i didn't felt like crying because if i could take medicine it will have meant that i lost a chance. but because i was blabbering out about how ugly this world is that i'd take any chance to prevent myself from entering such a whirl hole which once you get rolled into, you'll never see the light again.

OKAY IGNORE ME I JUST NEEDED TO RANT. maybe i'm just thinking too much as usual.


IKEA OUTING TODAY! hahaha we saw surprising people together :D i love ikea! and yingting went mad about mirrors and this black carpet thingyy and i fell in love with this white noticeboard crap HAHA i love furniture shopping okay we concluded that we must be damn rich next time! >.< i like the presents!! AHAHA. and food. seriously, the food there is reasonably priced, very very reasonably priced!!!


and i was thinking, thank God i've found you (:


YAY SOPS OUTING TOMORROW TO IKEA HELLO MEATBALLS :D and collect passport and submit photocopies before mr teo REALLY kills me.

and today was good HAHA i like kalinda :D i sang a small part of it for soph that day she totally laughed at the AH-YI-BOBO part! i like stagger so me and xingyi can stand together! haha.

today is a good day! :D except that my eyes feel like popping out now LOL.


was reading collin's blog and i realised that i lost the ability to write in chinese HAHAHA I AM DEADDD. but cheer up please >.<

first aid in the morn was cool! other than the super disgusting pictures and eileen' funny expressions! yay i love bandages. but only 6 were there since renice and weihan (omg i feel like slapping you HAHA go away! ) are going with oac and tahan. it made me think about OAC days.

i must dedicate this post to weihan for she makes my heart piakkkk (U) (type this on msn) she is so evil!!!!!!!! :( :( :( SIGH.


oh i enjoy sessions like today, to a tiny weeny bit of extent, because i think ms lim has so much depth i like her words.

it's high time we start to learn to cope with our lives. all of our lives. but first, i think it would help a great deal if we actually come to terms with defining what makes up our lives. and accepting changes to it, not by avoiding them, but dealing with problems, issues, negativity, the goods and the bads about individuals and groups. and details. details of our lives.

maybe i've let things slipped too much this entire year. it's high time to pick up loose strings i've left behind.

one moreee day.


oh i found a new show! tang xin feng bao: jia hao yue yuan :D it's like a part two thingyy. but i feel uncomfortable following the plot. HOW CAN SUCH EVIL WOMEN EXIST IN THE WORLD. gosh!

soon soon i'm gonna finish homeworkSSSS. (Fat hope!) I HONESTLY SERIOUSLY SUPERBLY FEEL A STRONG NEED TO STUDY HARD.


okay irene reminded me that it's quite sad seeing my days NEXT YEAR (yes in 2009) being filled up DAY BY DAY i feel like dying and piak on the ground like sophia's fat hamster! see i can use my new organiser already!

GRAH. i shall be inspired by sabrina and start on hol hmwk HEHEHHEHEHEE everyone's left! u see "artemis fac comm (: " 's msn group... nobody's hardly online ANYMORE... and huijuan and weileong are leaving on monday too! :(

BOO.


yay to froggies!

anyway, had lunch with eli and joelynn after choir today and talked about alot of things under the sun! WELL. i'm starting to think if i should take SATS or forget about it totally. >.<

then went to sophia's house HER HAMSTER IS SUPER FAT OMG it's like piak one lump of meat on the floor. to think it was a BABY last year xmas and this year it's SOOO FAT (just like it's owner!) and then tried to talk to popo hahaha she said i hadn't been to sophia's house for a long time WHICH IS TRUE but nevermind i still remember the way :D YAY sophialing knows me so well she knows i will join in the waterbomb game eventually. HAHA!

i thought the speaker was rather funny! but discussion was good OKAYYY i'm gonna try praying with scriptures soon and hopefully make it a habit !

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Hebrews 11:1

oh anyway dinner was good i have good taste nice horfun nice recommendation totally! only yaohui was retarded enough to think 1 plate is $6 in a MARKET. and it's so cheap. yay the market i grew up eating the food there. then had this totally red icekachang with sophia HAHA. gave on prawn to sk. stupid waterbomb game HAHAHA we're all so wet leonard is humji he hide all the way at the back! got hit alot of times YAY to our cell who doesn't betray each other. it was super funny when yaohui went at shengkun "what has rugby taught u? (to betray teammates!) " HAHAH. win! :D then went up and ate strawberry biscuits and red jellies and YAY took some disc test!

my characteristics are positive/ conservative (D which stands for domineering still 2nd highest ) charismatic (I STILL HIGHEST) energetic/flexible (S being steady) and independent and unconventional (C describing carefulnesss HAHAHA my weakest ) okay i was like "omgomgomgomg" when D was getting low while i was counting so i kept going "WHAT HAS HWACHONG DONE TO ME" oh the bads are hasty, self-promoting, impatient, rebellious. EVERYTHING THAT MY MUM AGREED WITH. what a mum. LOL.

somehow i'm kind of glad my characteristics i'm proud of hadn't changed much over 1 year.... but then i'm still careless, not so meticulous... but yay ! and boo! the test has something about, who you really are, who you seem like to others, and who you want to portray yourself on the outside. sheena had all 3 almost similar! i was amazingly amused by my curve!

leo made me think about how people are different in front of different people.

yay i love our cell since it's combining next year! <3

AND WATCHNIGHT SERVICE!!


okay class chalet HMMMM!

started off meeting at 9.30am to get the food but obviously everyone was late and i was only a bit late (earlier than xingyi) HAHAHA finally staying in sengkang serve come purposes! then we walked around randomly to look at food at ntuc at white sands then walked over to ehub since we had so much time in the world it felt as if the world belonged to us hahaha since we could only check in at 2pm! lunched at 日本村 finally and oh we were playing cards outside while waiting for it to open then some security person chased us off WTH LOL cheat ftw! :D then went to check-in i swear the service there is RETARDED, like, seriously, if they had explicitly stated out that below 18 cannot check in on behalf on your parents even if you have your parents' i/c. URGH. i was on the verge of finding suggestion (complaining@!!!!! ) forms but they didn't have any I BET THEY DIN DARE TO HAVE ANY.

so we checked in and started playing retarded russian poker i got kicked out of the game HAHA twice! kahwee is a silent killer! HAHAHA. eileen and clement totally killing themselves :D OH before that went arcade moxiang lost to ME in daytona ITS SUPER HILARIOUS PLEASE!!!!!!!!! clement won at the last few seconds 'cause he freaking banged my car -.- crap we didn't play ddr in the end, xingyi :(:(:(

then we went to buy food which is the reason for my arms and body ache now (guanyu diagnosed the source of my aches this morn) ARGH the things were so heavy HAHA and we didn't use a trollley! am glad to say that we've finished all the bbq food stuff yay to 30prawns worth 7++ dollars :D felt nice so i peeled prawns for alot of people yesterday! thank GOD it didn't rain yesterday it was like the only non -raining night in the week i suppose woohoo! mr lee came and confiscated barcadi HAHAHA wth oh we had no canopener! damn spastic. hooch was nice HAHAHA!

i hate mahjong 'cause didn't learn properly last year at 4m chalet SEEEEEEE gosh i can't count money! HAHA. then the japanese game show was spastic to the max HOW CAN JUSTIN HAVE SUCH A GF OMG. anyway mr lee was damn bad to me ARGH someone said he went "the kids are noisier than ruiwen how can it be" oh i think the kids beside our room were from my pri sch i recognised a teacher so HELLO NICE CLASSMATES went no wonder. HAHAHA.

bbq ended while alot of spas photos were taken! then choc fondue at ehub HAHAHA yay no movie HAHAHA. the fondue was super cheap lah!!!! and the shopowners were nice! oh then rented dvds HAHA prestige is still the best, i like the movie being so deep, being able to read into every single line said by the actors watching it the second time, and the themes explored in it. unseenable (SOME HORROR FLICK) what more can i say! i screamed ONCE not because of the show but because of the dark shadows behind the curtains HAHAHA then jiahan just totally talked about ghosts throughout the night -.-

OH OUR LOVELY FIRST YEAR ANNIVERSARY PRESENTS!! (: thanks elson and guanyu. HAHA, it's class anniversary! its chao ji sweet!!

oh the bbq chicken had no taste! HAHAH. but prawns are enough. okay irene is some super pro at fire OKAYYY i bet we all looked like we have hair problems with all the ashes! fong left :( HAHA in the end no one went airport! minx's stewers were powerful LOL canopener! :O

our class's first :D GO FIGURE. HAHAHA jkjk. xiangjing is damn big mouth, seriously!! but irene and gao couldn't stay :( booohoo. okay i fell asleep for the rest of the time and when i woke up hiroshi lost 9bucks to jiahan HAHAHA hiroshi is king he came at 2+ am like GOSH.

anything for such a wonderful class HAHA!


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i was thinking about the year in a whole. teams are amazing things. at least better than individual powers. sometimes things happen without you knowing how it did, it just did. sometimes we can do so much more than we thought we can. and about impacting others' in their lives and not knowing you did. there's simply so much for to life itself.



okay choir + cell tomorrow WHOOPIE!


You give some, you take some. You win some, you lose some.


CLASS CHALET :D okay i'm so lazy to type out but yay i think it was good HAHA and damn funny and okay the fire rocks<3


i think doing nothing feels great. i'm stoning here talking to sophia and entertaining some teddy bear and not feel like moving a single inch because i just want to savour this moment :D i feel super excited for the rest of this week 'cause yeah cell bonding :D i just have this feeling that God is calling me back to him and the sermon would just be so great, worshiping, fellowship, everything!

but the thought of next year sucks LOL blocks what blocks -.-


like no other.

HAHAHA weihan's house at the last minute was a blast :D i love chippy as usual! GOSH. i think we laughed through the whole night 'cause ******** was simply funny! >.<

ohoh we learn khmer even though i cannot remember anything even though weileong can read from 1-100 now even though we're supposed to know something HAHAHA i'm just gonna die in cambodia!! paopao should thank me or something i am SO NICE to give you 1/3 of my chicken + alot of rice HAAH poor mingyang! thanks weihan for buying me lunch if not i'll just starve to death.

let's just hope that it doesn't rain tomorrow! >.<


okay doomsday i'm never gonna finish holiday homeworkSSSSSSSSSS.

and about how fickle people can be. see, a few days ago my son told me he's gonna take smu h3 econs and reject rj's moe h3 bio offer -.- NOW HE'S TAKING H3 BIO. gosh.


IM SO BORED BLAHBLAHBLAH i really think that red phone is gorgeous !


went for jabs in the morning till afternoon 'cause we waited so long but i guess it wasn't as bad as the rest of fc waiting for 3 hours :D HEH. thanks eileen for entertaining so many calls sabrina told me to call you 'cause we figured out you're the only one who will know and is awake!! :O anyway didn't know malaria pills are so cheap BUT now there's a big problem HOW THE HELL do i swallow capsules everyday. i'd either die from malaria or die from swallowing capsules THEY ARE SO HUGE!! lunch was disgusting thanks to sabu!!

i hate summarizing too nice me summarised the history of angkorwat , i love wikipedia!!

and YAY class chalet (i haven't figure out if to buy the food to be bbq-ed now or later or what. SUGGESTIONS? in case if it rains then the food=money will be gone) :( see God is so so amazing THERE IS NO CHOIR ON FRIDAYYYYYYY how happy can i be (:

okay i realised my handwriting changed again! DAMNNNN.


I LIKE GLORIA'S HOUSE'S CEILING'S BEAMS! :D
one day if i have nothing to do i will just back a strawberry cake for myself !!! HAHA. this is so random.

hello to class chalet and choir chalet :)

come what may.


OMG IM LIKE FUCKING PISSED NOW I SPENT SO MUCH TIME TRYING TO SORT MY MASSIVE PILE OF WORKSHEETS INTO DIFFERENT SUBJECTS AND WHEN I GOT HOME TODAY ALL I SAW WAS EVERYTHING DUMPED ON MY BED IN ONE PILE.

WHAT THE FUCK, SERIOUSLY.


nowadays i feel like i'm getting weirder (HAHAHA) and i don't know what to do.


i hope gloriatan bakes today or tomorrow and doesn't finish the food so that i will have 口福 on monday! :D:D:D:D:D:D


and i'm gonna eat my instant pasta later! :D


i'll remember guns n roses. :D even though Madagascar2 is a nicer movie by 10 million times i start to wonder why we didn't watch it! LOL

okay the bad thing is SOPHIA maybe you spread to me or something i'm starting to have ulcers on my tongue OH NO!

and hello to charisTOH (you must make time for ME okay whatever happened to hsm HAHAHA) jamie and liukun!!!!!! we should go out soon! and hello to bella and huiyi tooooo! and byebye to yingting gloria resh rachel joelynn (get well soon) eli HAHAHA i'm seeing you people every now and then sian alr. LOL. jkjk.

and i was damn shocked HAHAHAH my cousin (who is adriel's bro) is going for smtp bio chem HAHAHAHAHAHA omg !! :O


walk by faith.


sometimes things happen and you don't know how. i feel amazing tonight. how we started off with nothing, discussing every possible thing about fac outing back at weiming's chalet and now tonight it all became possible because of such a wonderful fac comm<3 i'm not saying it's a best possible fac outing we can have but nothing in this world is perfect. this is enough :D even though my feet hurts like shit now. haha! LOVEEEE! :D at least i ate SOME almond jelly hahahaha! thank God for everything :D


and trust in the Lord.

/editted in the morning!

okay today's the day. maybe in less than 12 hours.. i'm getting cold feet!

but nevermind argh my eyes are too small to be opened. it just isn't the right day. i don't know. being rational sucks and being irrational sucks more i guess.

what shocked me yesterday was when kaiyin suddenly talked about trudy and they're meeting up next tues but i don't know if i can or should go or what not.

i'm became a man of few words HAHAHAHA bye stupid blog


probably why


OP tomorrow. i wish that i'd stop swaying (urgh it's a natural thing lah what the hell). :(
i'll just have to lock my knees really tight for 5 minutes so i won't sway or i could wear a knee guard to prevent them from moving and minx opened her mouth widely when i said that LOL.

yay after this fri i will sit down and start to train my brain to focus hoho hello to holiday homework ! fac outing two :D then class chalet :D

i hate hotmail's new format it's soooo irritating.

i pray that our class does well tomorrow !!! and may elson and chai win fac king queeeeen LOL.


I'M FREAKING IRRITATED NOW ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

just screw the world, seriously.

i think i'm too rational or pragmatic for anything in this world.


somehow i enjoy busrides because they let you see people, places all at one go. and it made me feel like travelling again. it's always amazing to explore other people's way of life, the culture and scenery in other countries and just how different it is from sg. i still miss graz :D 'cause it seems so peaceful and serene there...

high sch musical YAY i feel like watching it again but it's a waste of money so i'll settle for YOUTUBE. which reminds me of some disney show that minx showed me during pw today its damn funny and has so many screams -.- toby and something I THINK.

so its pw for less than 72 hours and we'll be free :D

then i can delete my more than 100mb pw file and my comp will have more space! HAHA.


i feel very heavy tonight. (literally)

there's been quite alot of things weighing down and haha getting stressed doesn't help 'cause it will only lead to fevers and sorethroats and more frequent headaches and what nots. okay haha i'm a failure at handling with stress.

it feels weird, staring down at my watch, realising that the date spells 1 11 which stands for the 1st of Novemeber, and hey, time passes too quickly. it does translates into 10 full months in hc, almost 10 full months with this class, 9.5 months with choir, 5 months with fac comm, and then you start to ponder how many months you have... at least till now i wouldn't have regretted choices that i've made. which i think is a good thing? hah!

it's one of the rare days that i really feel blissful and i thank God for this life right now. even if i'm still pissed with my mum for intruding into my privacy, even if i seem to have more doubts about myself than ever, even if it won't be an easy year next year juggling everything that comes, but i guess it wouldn't hurt to feel like that once in a while LOL.

:D