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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

It tastes salty because if I failed GP I would be crying like nuts.

Liberation from Prelims shouldn't be this way.

Ah well, the start of something new. Something that would last for an even longer period of time, something that will leave me feeling even more stressed up, something that would keep me focused for the rest of the days up till A's.

FOCUS! Have to keep my eyes on track.


Unleash.


SIGHZ SIGHZ SIGHZ.


HAHAHA I should stop imagining where I'd be next time. Yun Minny the koala bear is right in some ways stupid girl is always right + everything on earth even though if you really become a vet I'll have no business for you because I HATE ANIMALS wahaha :D

HELP LAH it's 5 hours since paper ended I slept until 1+ and did nothing until now HAHAHAHA

SOME THINGS should be left to decide towards the end.


Up, up, & away~

I see colourful hot air balloons in my head.


One, two step.

Soon enough.

I don't know I don't know I don't know how how how how how.

PRIDE IS SUCH A BIG WORD.

By the end of today I wanna finish 2 mcq papers + going through mistakes in 6 booklets + do chemmmmm + read notes + try to understand some concepts which i refused to understand + watch the 7.30pm channel u show

BYEZXZXZXZXZ. I HAVE TO COMPLAIN ABOUT THE POSTPRELIM SCHEDULE. Why do they make us go to school when school ends at 10+ AM /11+AM ...



Hello son if you're reading this I don't know how to help you/what you can do to ease the pain within but I WANT TO HAVE A SCHOLAR SON :D Let go, Let God. P.S you have the world's best mum XD


I FEEL BORED HI HI HI.

IN APPROXIMATELY 3 DAYS, WE'LL SAY GOODBYE TO PRELIMS.

IN APPROXIMATELY 1 WEEK, STUDYING STARTS AGAIN.

IN APPROXIMATELY 1 YEAR, NO ONE KNOWS WHERE WE'LL BE.


In a blink of the eye, 1 month will pass. Which means graduation day will come.

I figured I should stop trying to determine how much this school has given or taken away from me. They're immeasurable in many ways.

I think God has been kind to me at least I didn't have headache throughout Prelims like in BT1 when I was crying nearly every night... And for giving me the strength to carry on.

These months have passed so fast I couldn't even keep track of time. HAHA I've decided that IFFF I'm out of job during the long break when school starts (again) I WILL TEACH CHEM TUITION. AHAHAHA >.< SO I MUSTN'T GET B FOR TRANSCRIPT FOR CHEM IF NOT I WILL HAVE NO MONEY TO SUPPORT MYSELF AFTER MY ONLY FINANCIAL SOURCE IS BEING CUT OFF, HEARTLESSLY.


CRAZY PEOPLE ARE TELLING ME PRELIMS IS OVER.

I HAVE TWO CRAZY FRIENDS. ONE FRIEND IS A GORILLA. PERIOD.


Get back on your feet.


Three more to kill.


I JUST HOPE TOMORROW AND THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW WILL END SOON.

I HATE TURBULENCE.

Recently I realised that it's not so easy to recover. Sometimes when things suck too much out of you


SUDDENLY I'M NOT AS EXCITED ABOUT CHEM AND MATH THE WAY I SHOULD BE.

ZZZZZ.

IT'S FREAKING NOISY BECAUSE EVERYWHERE AROUND MY HOUSE IS RENOVATING AND IT SUCKS WHEN YOUR IPOD SPOILT FOR GOOD AND YOU MUST WAIT TILL A'S IS OVER TO BUY AN ITOUCH. WAHLAOZXXZXZ.


AHHHHHHHHH


YES PRESS ON PRESS ON PRAY THAT WE SURVIVE TOGETHER HAHAHA


I think many of us will go on to take very different, very unexpected paths. It's still too early to guess.

And not too late to try.

Never too late.


And this is how it should be.

Those should never have happened. Period.

I'm counting down to Post-Prelims !! It's been so long since I buried myself and refuse to go out. YAY YAY.

CHEMATH!

This is akin to trying to stay afloat admist the thunderstorms.


TNG! I don't know if you'll see this, but stay strong okay the string holding you won't break just yet! I know because... I study physics and you don't so I know about tensions!!! I will keep you in my prayers <3




SCREAMS AND HOPES TOMORROW WILL BE OKAYYYYY I WANT MY A FOR PHYSICS BADLY. To stop my mum from calling me stupid when she's in a bad mood. zzz


I FEEL LIKE....... I don't know. I'm just in a daze. I AGREE TO A CERTAIN EXTENT THAT DOING HC PHY PRELIM PAPERS IS OF NO USE BECAUSE THE QUESTIONS ARE t.t THEY DO NOTHING TO TEST YOUR CONCEPTS.

SIGHZXZXZ.

"HI I AM DAMN BORED"
"HI DAMN BORED"

Epic win.


I begin to wonder what would I be like after A's.

If Prelims suck 100000000 MJ of energy away from me, A's will suck 1000000000000000 TJ of energy away.

I'd prefer it 10 times more to juggle fac stuffs with exams over juggling with exams alone. >.< SIGHZXXZXZ.

Yesterday I had a nightmare about YITTYLEE.


Just woke up not long ago. I wished yesterday was a nightmare but it isn't.

Still having some dizzy spells since 3 days ago think my brains are getting fried. Dunno if I should go for maf coming back feeling even more dizzy.


These days have been hard.

Especially today. There could have been so much more potential to do well but I just flunked out and what's wrong with me. Tried to heal the pain with a whooping 3 hours of sleep but I wake up feeling the same, if not worse than before.

For one, I'm going to completely adjust my attitude towards Prelims starting today.

How to cope with losses?

I AM FREAKING SORE OVER THE TEN PLUS MARKS. This shouldn't happen, not, not in CHEMISTRY. You have no idea how much it hurts. This feels worse than when math promos happened. YUCKSSSSSSSSSSSSS. Life sucks okay.


But no one fails, until you quit. For this, I'm goin to work even harder, make sure I pace myself properly, make sure I don't feel nervous or overly excited for paper 1 and 2. Salvation (okay this is a really inappropriate word to use here) exists...!


Because in every game, you can only strive to win it.


WHY DO I NOT FEEL LIKE THIS IS PRELIMS.

2 YEARS AGO, RUIWEN USED TO BE A FULL FLEDGED MUGGER.

2 YEARS ON, EVERYTHING'S CHANGED.




I must get back all the things that have been lost, AND THIS INCLUDES PHYSICS BRAIN CELLS.


The fourth step.


Open your eyes.


Today was exasperating. But at least it made the hours watching tv/slacking/trying to force charmaine ng jingwen study worthwhile because with or without studying it wouldn't have made a difference... Except for refusing to memorise sum of AP = n/2 ....... Eeks.

Nua-ed the day away... :(

I think our class prom page is nicely done, :D Really! Whee.

To be honest I can't wait for Prelims to be over for some real studying to be done.

I must learn to take things in my stride... and learn to ignore pests.

The haze is driving me crazy LALALA.

I WILL WAKE UP AT 8AM TOMORROW TO STUDY...!!!!


And so, it finally arrives.

There's nothing to be scared of, really. At the end of the day, who's to say if your efforts have shown results or not. The way I see it, it's more of fighting for opportunities than fighting for results. And you're struggling, because there's so much more that can be done, so much more...

This is nothing but the beginning.

There's a good show ahead :)

One Way.


TODAY IS A FINE, RELATIVELY WINDY SATURDAY MORNING!

3h (now left with 2 hours 40minutes) of chem + 4 of math + 3 of econs + 2 of physics before I go to bed!!

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YAYEEEEEEE TODAY HAS BEEN A TIRING DAY, BUT 'M STILL SURVIVING, STILL MUGGING, AFTER OWING CHAR $2 FOR FOOOOOD. HAHA!

To me, it's akin to hanging an abalone in front of me and making my heart waver.

sighzxzxz.


Would anyone ask me then, why I work so hard?


You'd get an unexpected answer. Totally.

It blows you off to the moon to eat mooncakes with chang-e.


No one can find your memories.

They're so well-hidden.


Swallows.


It's time for some real mugging :D

I've said before that my real motive is to pace myself, so that at the end of 3 months when A's end I won't be severely burnt out. So I try to give a little less to Prelims. But seeing that 2 months is left to the start of A's, it's high time that I intensify my mode of studying.

If you really want it, then you got to give it your all, mug like you've never before! (YAY IT RHYMES)

就算连喘气的空间也没有，it will be worth it all.

SEE, HAVING A GOAL WORKS> it kills at times, but now it's turned into a bigggggggg source of motivation. LALALALALALA


GOOOOOOO :D (STAAAAAAARDY) :D !!!


SIGH HAHAHA @ the wonders of facebook. Maybe being less inquisitive helps at times, NOW IM TOTALLY DISAPPOINTED AT WHAT I SEE, time for cousins' confrontation!!

Today is a bright and windy morning and it reminds me of Hong Kong. I'm weird^10000.



ONLY:D


So near yet so far!

Today marks the start of Prelims. Hang in there :D


I slept a whooping 12 hours since last night! :D

Woke up and got inspired to do math so Integration here I come! :D

Imagine if Integration was some spell, and I'll go like... "I shall Integrate you!!"


Yesterday night was funny ^ 1000


Spent the entire morning typing GP stuffs.
I've sorted out my thinking, this is to the best of my limited ability :O No regrets.



I HATE THE RAIN BECAUSE IT'S ALL SO HUMID NOW :(